when your mind clouds over
like the sky on a rainy morning
when your heart starts to fracture
as if it were a ligament to be fixed
when your eyes become oceans
with threats of tsunamis in the waves
there is nothing as peaceful as that
Jul 1, 2017
Jul 1, 2017 at 8:18 PM UTC
when your mind clouds over
like the sky on a rainy morning
when your heart starts to fracture
as if it were a ligament to be fixed
when your eyes become oceans
with threats of tsunamis in the waves
there is nothing more peaceful than that
Jun 15, 2017
Jun 15, 2017 at 1:28 PM UTC
I always feel like nobody asks
But that’s not true
Everyone asks
I just don’t want to answer
I handle it alone
Because the worst kind of person
Is the one that is a burden to others
And nobody weeps for the girl with a smile
Jun 5, 2017
Jun 5, 2017 at 12:52 PM UTC
I am told I am a rock
That I can support the weight of all others
But if I’m holding them
Then who’s holding me?
You fall, and I am there
But nobody wants to catch a boulder
Jun 5, 2017
Jun 5, 2017 at 12:52 PM UTC
i look at you. and my heart breaks. it breaks and it breaks and it breaks and it breaks. you shatter it and you have done nothing wrong but here i am. bleeding and weeping at the very sight of you. you. you who have always remained true to yourself and others. you who grips kindness and strength and authenticity and love and intelligence to your breast because you would never bear to let such treasure slip through your fingers. you would never bear to succumb to the woes of this world. despite your past. despite that this world has been anything but kind to you in gifting to you depression. anxiety. guilt. anger. and you painted a much more vibrant world with all of the grit blood sweat and tears this one drained out of you. you looked at something that was deemed ugly and you found it beautiful. when a celestial body crumbled in on itself you took the broken pieces it left behind and you molded something new. you hung the moon. you made gold out of rust. grew flowers from cracked dry infertile land. made promises and broke and kept them all the same because you are human and you are beautiful and it breaks my heart. you break my heart. i ache and i ache and i ache at the mere thought that you may ever think all that you do is not enough. that you may ever think you are not enough not worthy not beautiful not wise not enough not enough not enough. don't you see that you are more than any sane human being could ask for. you take your pain and compose from it a beautiful melody. heart wrenching verses mournful refrains choruses echoing with anguished tears and minor keys tug at my heart strings the same way you manipulate the strings within the belly of a grand piano. you play and you play and you rip words from our throats and finally we can breathe and finally we can breathe and finally we can breathe and thank you for giving me a sanctuary thank you for giving me air to breathe for giving me a place to call home for giving me something to love for giving me life. life in its most beautiful form. you. you are my life and i am devoted to you and my heart is breaking. you smash and hit and beat and shatter and break my heart you rip it to shreds and then with a few tinkling piano notes hushed words spoken in your mellow honey voice you fix it you fix it you fix it you fix fix fix it. and i am yours. yours no matter how much heartache i live through. because i am able to live through it. because of you you you you you. you. you are my first love. my love. you are breaking my heart.
Jun 1, 2017
Jun 1, 2017 at 1:03 PM UTC
i am fearful
of you,
who decided
you wanted to know me
and i am fearful
of me,
who is willing to hurt you,
so i can hurt myself.
i am afraid
when you stay,
because i know
you will leave soon.
and i am afraid
when you leave,
because i really wanted you
to stay
(my favorite dreams
are when you walk away from me,
because i know you will be happier
without me.
and my worst nightmares
are when you stay,
because i know
it’s only a matter of time.)
keep your distance
because i am scared of you
who will inevitably
hurt me
in the end
i do not deserve the you
who will build me up.
i only deserve myself,
who will continue to break me down.
Jun 1, 2017
Jun 1, 2017 at 12:58 PM UTC
we had promised each other
till death do us part
but because of you
and your selfish heterosexual claws
she will always believe we are together
long after i have left her
there is nothing worse than that
nothing worse than
not getting to say goodbye
or i love you one last time
she will forever wait
for someone who can never come home
May 31, 2017
May 31, 2017 at 9:52 AM UTC
oh, he's marvelous
writes me letters
sings me songs
makes me laugh
holds my hand
oh, but that's not true
no letters
no songs
no laughter
no hand holding
oh, and she's not a he
she's my wife
and i can’t visit her
but you never asked
and i can never tell
-”how's your husband back home?”
May 31, 2017
May 31, 2017 at 9:48 AM UTC
sometimes love leaves you
aching;
longing, for something
your fingers can’t touch,
and your mind can’t identify.
sometimes love leaves you
hungover;
blackout nights/headache in the a.m,
can’t move, your body’s heavy and
last night’s a blur.
sometimes love leaves you
poetry;
lines and lines of whispers,
words that you can only
give to 11:11 wishes, and midnight.
sometimes love(rs) leave;
going like a vagabond,
wanting none of your time,
the ache in your chest
throbbing.
May 12, 2017
May 12, 2017 at 12:17 PM UTC
Nature has divine qualities
Beyond national divides
So heart enfold immortal love
Where one sees mountain dance and move
In this do love has no color
Skin pigment shouldn't be honor
For all bears reddish clot
As we tread on earth path
So soil of time embraces our body
As the enlived soul transpired to the sky
All become one in a starky heaven
Where no divide and rule leaven
Only unending peace it brings
Shrinking hearts with joy and unending smiles
As they commune in glows of divine instinct
For the greatest commandment is love
As bird fly above
So cloud of hate gives love as chance
Embracing one with will of divine
So our earth become an undying paradise
written by
Martin Ijir
May 12, 2017
May 12, 2017 at 12:17 PM UTC