My hands are smothered in red paint
So pretty yet displeasing
‘Cause only I know what this means
This tainted thought not easing
“Don’t blame it on the boy!” I beg
I scream, I beg, I pray
Oh, now this faithless brat has faith?
How cruel; my world decays.
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 9:02 PM UTC
Argued with my mom
She didn’t understand
Never understands.
I started downstairs
Was woe written on my face?
I was called over.
My dad gave a hug
Warm and welcoming, gentle
No words to be said
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 10:05 PM UTC
When was my love replaced
With this lust so outdated
And this clawing feeling came
One I once terribly hated
My blood runs hot
My hands go cold
And every time I close my eyes
I get this feeling old
I love this boy so pure
But these feelings have been tainted
With colors I so hate
By my very hands I painted
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 9:22 PM UTC
I’m moving up a step
On an escalator going down
Every step I take
Leads nowhere but the escalator
I can see the light ahead
But no progress is made
Maybe if I run
Could I reach the light?
Oh no.
I tripped.
Now I’m back to where I was.
Mar 22
Mar 22, 2026 at 7:02 PM UTC
I should be happy.
I let go of that past
I’ve gotten better
I found someone who loves me
I should be happy.
But every night, I doubt you know
I come back to this site
To reminisce
To remember
To revisit
These torturous feelings.
I should be happy
But despite the progress I’ve made
I return to square one
Of my own free will.
Mar 22
Mar 22, 2026 at 6:58 PM UTC
You guessed it—I love you—but that’s not all to it.
Yes, I love you, but why, you ask?
I love you because you’re there
Because you always respond
Because you understand me
Because you hardly judge
Because you display honesty
Because you are you.
Yes, I love you, but what about you?
I love your knowing eyes
Your dazzling smile
Your gentle touch
Your lighthearted laugh
Your odd habits
You in your entirety.
But you don’t love me;
I know yet I cry.
Because who deserves
This love I harbor,
But you, my flower.
My beautiful rose.
Aug 26, 2025
Aug 26, 2025 at 11:14 PM UTC