My hands are smothered in red paint
So pretty yet displeasing
‘Cause only I know what this means
This tainted thought not easing
“Don’t blame it on the boy!” I beg
I scream, I beg, I pray
Oh, now this faithless brat has faith?
How cruel; my world decays.
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 9:02 PM UTC
Argued with my mom
She didn’t understand
Never understands.
I started downstairs
Was woe written on my face?
I was called over.
My dad gave a hug
Warm and welcoming, gentle
No words to be said
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 10:05 PM UTC
When was my love replaced
With this lust so outdated
And this clawing feeling came
One I once terribly hated
My blood runs hot
My hands go cold
And every time I close my eyes
I get this feeling old
I love this boy so pure
But these feelings have been tainted
With colors I so hate
By my very hands I painted
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 9:22 PM UTC
I’m moving up a step
On an escalator going down
Every step I take
Leads nowhere but the escalator
I can see the light ahead
But no progress is made
Maybe if I run
Could I reach the light?
Oh no.
I tripped.
Now I’m back to where I was.
Mar 22
Mar 22, 2026 at 7:02 PM UTC
I should be happy.
I let go of that past
I’ve gotten better
I found someone who loves me
I should be happy.
But every night, I doubt you know
I come back to this site
To reminisce
To remember
To revisit
These torturous feelings.
I should be happy
But despite the progress I’ve made
I return to square one
Of my own free will.
Mar 22
Mar 22, 2026 at 6:58 PM UTC
Don't be a fool
Don't let this boy have your heart
its too late
I am a fool
a fool who fell for another boy
yet somehow
someway
I fell harder for him than the last
Nov 2, 2025
Nov 2, 2025 at 11:10 PM UTC
If I tell you I love you,
Will you say the same?
If I keep going on like this,
Will I ever change?
If I keep running through this relentless cycle,
Does that mean everything I say is recycled?
If my thoughts are not my own,
Does that make them never truly known?
If my words dance off of someone else's lips
Does that make my mind an apocalypse?
If today feels like an endless nightmare,
Does that make tomorrow a fragile dream?
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 8:54 PM UTC
I yearn for love
Her love
Any love
I don’t care whose
So why is it
I get so scared
Considering the fact
That they might like me?
Oct 11, 2025
Oct 11, 2025 at 8:54 PM UTC
I stare in the mirror
lift the heavy scissors
snip
my hair flutters to the floor
I don't even blink
as I cut away the memories
Oct 5, 2025
Oct 5, 2025 at 7:32 PM UTC
You guessed it—I love you—but that’s not all to it.
Yes, I love you, but why, you ask?
I love you because you’re there
Because you always respond
Because you understand me
Because you hardly judge
Because you display honesty
Because you are you.
Yes, I love you, but what about you?
I love your knowing eyes
Your dazzling smile
Your gentle touch
Your lighthearted laugh
Your odd habits
You in your entirety.
But you don’t love me;
I know yet I cry.
Because who deserves
This love I harbor,
But you, my flower.
My beautiful rose.
Aug 26, 2025
Aug 26, 2025 at 11:14 PM UTC