scrolling through your music, nonchalantly
nah.
nope.
no--
one song makes you freeze.
you haven't listened to it in months
and you did so on purpose.
that thing has so much attached to it.
you stare
and ponder.
maybe it isn't so bad anymore?
you snap out of your thoughts and scoff.
it's just a song.
yet, you sigh.
your thumb hovers over the 'play' button
and hesitantly makes contact with it.
in a split second, you're dazed.
words laced with melodies,
a concoction
poisonous to you and only you.
the music grabs you by the waist
dragging you through the walls you've
built around your memories
until your back slams onto rock bottom
and for a moment, you're stuck in there again.
Oct 15, 2013
Oct 15, 2013 at 2:05 PM UTC
gems i thought i'd never find, i found in him.
under the soft moonlight, he sang to me, words of
love. such sweet phrases coming out of beautiful
lips. lips i could stare at for ages and ages.
i love you's and kisses and warm embraces. he could
be the one. the one i'd spend the rest of my
life with. i could be his princess, and we'd live happily
ever after.
Oct 8, 2013
Oct 8, 2013 at 1:36 PM UTC
i sit in a crowded auditorium, but i'm alone
everyone else has got a world of their own
heads all bowed down, thumbs tapping away
on their overpriced tablets and phablets and phones.
a woman's voice plays loudly from speakers
singing 'jingle bells, jingle bells' but no one really hears her
the spirit of christmas feels awfully dead
with everyone distracted by the voices in their heads
i fidget nervously, as i slouch in my seat
tangling my fingers up and tapping my feet
finally found a girl my age, maybe she'd like to talk?
i try to start a conversation, but she's as numb as a rock.
the room is packed with people, but they seem so far away
so i simply stare at the clock as it tick-tocks away
"can't the show start yet?" i inwardly groan
i sit in this auditorium. god, why am i alone?
Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 10:32 AM UTC
i never find balance,
i'm always on extremes.
i stay too far away,
or get dangerously near.
i like one thing
and i like the complete opposite.
i enjoy being quiet
yet i talk just for the heck of it.
i have two sides debating
both of them just as strong.
one that's fine with ******* stuff up
and the other that never wants to be wrong.
i'm curious, but i'm skeptical.
i'm hopeful, but pessimistic.
i want to love, i want to feel
but feelings make me sick.
Oct 4, 2013
Oct 4, 2013 at 12:05 PM UTC
flashing lights at you
hoping you would take notice
why can't you see me?
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:30 AM UTC
Gloomy weather.
Dark, heavy clouds.
Jumping into puddles.
Sodden sweaters.
Cups of coffee.
Scary movies.
Quiet naps.
Deep conversations.
Cozy nights.
Soft whispers.
Warm hugs
and tender kisses.
Rainy days with you.
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:29 AM UTC
a hazy feeling in my head creeps in
and I begin to feel detached from the world.
I feel surreal.
out of nowhere,
a rush of adrenaline shoves
me into a state of alarm.
panic flowing through my veins
like a current.
my vision gets blurry and it's now or never.
I take a deep breath,
and with every stride matching
the frantic beating of my heart,
I run.
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:24 AM UTC
a piece of my soul fell out
with every petal I plucked off.
he loved me.
he loved me not.
he left me.
he hurt me.
he ****** me up.
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:21 AM UTC
They could try to distract him
with tempting words but
he would never listen unless
they come out of her mouth.
They could try to ****** him
with skimpy dresses and flirty touches but
nothing else would be worth looking at
if it weren't her.
They could give him
all the money in the world but
truckloads of wealth could never come close
to the amount of love he has for her.
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:18 AM UTC
every night I like awake
terrified of falling asleep.
fighting to keep my eyelids open
despite their heaviness that patterns
the painful feeling in my chest.
I can't, I can't,
I whisper to myself
wishing I could be stuck
in permanent slumber.
wishing i could close my eyes
without ever having to open them again.
the light sound of rain seeps into my
consciousness as it lulls me to sleep.
I try to resist, but as my body gives in,
I'm defenseless.
my eyes shut, and
I finally detach myself from reality.
but I know I'll have to snap back eventually.
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:14 AM UTC