i now cast to the shadows
(oh! i’ve really not grown)
for i now cast to the shadows
that which once shone
tender moments do rot
and whisper-words spoil
as i debase that which once freed me
good fortune recoils
maroon tinges my vision
self-treachery prowls
as i make the incision
with no hint of a howl
a jagged ***** you’ll find
reeling of love that fell flat
i did it; not you, r
dare not misconstrue that
Jan 1, 2022
Jan 1, 2022 at 3:12 AM UTC
I swear her eyes were the ocean
a world unparalleled humming behind her eyelids
offering but a seldom glimpse
when briny streams soaked her cheeks
delicate sand entwines my ankles
creamy shells pepper the shore
her laughter glides within the salty breeze
combing my hair most gently
I miss her so, but I fret not
for there is one thing I always knew
a deep-sea soul surpasses land
and she swims at ease
where she belongs
as tides lull and waves become whispers
her ocean eyes smile back at me
Sep 8, 2021
Sep 8, 2021 at 11:22 PM UTC
Maida…
My Maida…
Those honeysuckle eyes and that raspberry grin
Good and strong hands with good and strong fingers
My heart bruised my ribs when I saw you first
And as our night bid us adieu
And broken light licked our cheeks
I came unto you
As you had come unto me.
For now and for ever,
Your secret love.
Sep 8, 2021
Sep 8, 2021 at 11:18 PM UTC
agitation seizes me as i remember
your kiss
lips that felt like a sigh of relief when pressed against mine
yes, it’s true
suffering impales me and heartache throttles me
this body and soul
stripped to the feeble core
for i , plaything of the hour
had foolishly come to life
nested in your arms
Sep 8, 2021
Sep 8, 2021 at 11:11 PM UTC
how i wish my eyes wouldn’t crave you
your soft-lipped smile, your heart-quickening stare
do you know i can sense you in a crowded room?
how i wish my arms wouldn’t reach for you
your shudder-inducing touch, the way you wholly envelop me
do you know you twitch when you sleep?
how i wish my heart wouldn’t writhe for you
you agonizing absence, your all-consuming void
could you ever even know that i drown myself in your memory every night?
Sep 22, 2019
Sep 22, 2019 at 1:09 PM UTC
hush, abi
please!
if we stay here nothing bad will happen to us
pinky promise, alright?
mommy and daddy will be back soon and we can lie here all together
the four of us can lie right here, cradled by the grass and the stars will come out for us
we can make our own constellations, how does that sound?
when mommy and daddy find us we will name it whatever you want, they will love it
oh, abi, please don’t cry
the scary loud sounds?
those were fireworks, the brightest, most colorful fireworks that exist
keep looking up, abi, you’ll see them soon
who lit them?
why, the night sky sent its own just for us
that’s why there were two, one for you and one for me
they are made of shooting stars and instead of smoke they leave behind cosmic dust, that’s what makes them so beautiful
when mommy and daddy come back, two will be lit for them, you’ll see
but now stay here with me, i know it is cold, but please try not to move
we can become two blades of grass, but only if you close your eyes, no peeking!
in the morning we can splash our faces with sweet dew and say hello to traveling ladybugs
we can dance to melody of the bird’s flapping wings, we will hear so many different sounds and colors
we can watch all the fireworks we want, the pretty ones i told you about
abi, stop shaking, it will be okay
those steps are mommy and daddy walking to us
they want to be grass with us, all of our roots can be threaded together like a bracelet and we can be so happy
don’t open your eyes
promise you will keep them shut tight, you can only look when you hear the fireworks the sky will light up for them
i won’t open my eyes either
pinky promise, alright?
we will soon be velvety soft, we will live in our garden with mommy and daddy
here they come!
now hold my hand, that way we will be planted together
it will be mommy, daddy, me, and you - Abilene
watching fireworks paint the sky forever.
Jul 23, 2018
Jul 23, 2018 at 3:09 PM UTC
tonight is a bad night
i think so, yes
if tonight was a good night, the walls wouldn’t whisper
remind me of a coarsely threaded blue-and-white duo
the soft lights hanging from above wouldn’t attack
blind me with a yellow too bright for what lies behind my pupils
the insides of my palms wouldn’t rip me apart
make me question if the lines carved on them truly belong to me
the wind wouldn’t claw at the window
beg me to let it pull my hair as my right foot dangles, cold and free
everything aches, everything screams
i only wanted silence
but She is trapped in the wooden planks my feet no longer know
how did this happen
how did this happen
Jun 15, 2018
Jun 15, 2018 at 9:36 AM UTC