yanehs-magta - Hello Poetry

Is it me you think of when you’re with him? Try and repeat the memories only we knew how to share Do you hope one day he’ll be a bit more like me In his shadow I know you look for me When I see us looking back at me, it hurts more then when you chose him over me I cry tears just for you, this is agony I can’t believe we end in tragedy. I wonder sometimes if we could ever mend the pieces we tore at. It bores my heart how sore it is for you. Come and find me!! Pull me from the roof top, like you knew best. I long so deeply for the person you once were If she’s still there Tell her to come for me, Save me from my sorrows I want to see tomorrows with you When his there to chase a way your lonely blues, is it me you wish he would be. I listen to the silence that haunts my heart, and I want our freedom Hold my hand for a while; sit with me in the dark Hold me tight like we’ll never ever part. I miss you, but I resist you. Is this the beauty of our end? I hope one day you loose your way and it drives you to me. I’ll love you forever. Your former best friend

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Oct 21, 2013

Oct 21, 2013 at 9:16 AM UTC

yanehs-magta

Magic

Is it me you think of when you’re with him? Try and repeat the memories only we knew how to share Do you hope one day he’ll be a bit more like me In his shadow I know you look for me When I see us looking back at me, it hurts more then when you chose him over me I cry tears just for you, this is agony I can’t believe we end in tragedy. I wonder sometimes if we could ever mend the pieces we tore at. It bores my heart how sore it is for you. Come and find me!! Pull me from the roof top, like you knew best. I long so deeply for the person you once were If she’s still there Tell her to come for me, Save me from my sorrows I want to see tomorrows with you When his there to chase a way your lonely blues, is it me you wish he would be. I listen to the silence that haunts my heart, and I want our freedom Hold my hand for a while; sit with me in the dark Hold me tight like we’ll never ever part. I miss you, but I resist you. Is this the beauty of our end? I hope one day you loose your way and it drives you to me. I’ll love you forever. Your former best friend

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You told me you wanted to give me everything, Every part of you Once up on a reel of time, I felt the real you, Every time I looked at you, under all our lies. I fell in love with you, I am in love with you, I love you. You told me Stringing along was not my part But the words leaked out your face I saw them stream into your ears Tickle your nerves, the hairs on the back of your neck stood out… Were you trying to convince yourself We shared something beautiful something amazingly tragic, I spoke to the divine once begging for enlightenment Vowing I’d sacrifice anything to be indulged, by divine intervention, but you, I don’t know how I’d sacrifice you, or maybe I do. I’m departing in June, at noon, I told you. I saw the beginning of your blue, How it grew. Here’s a secret One just for you I’m leaving sooner.. Thanks to you, Don’t feel bad, heck I know I can’t stop the sad . Be mad, go crazy rip our memories to shreds pick them up and glue the pieces store them away for when your at wits end Do what you do best, all over again. I hope to fall in love again, To be the other, to another. Not a brother, sister or lover. I want to be the loved. You told me she was a woman you loved , dearly and then called me one too. I can't sit by while you figure out what you want. From me, From life, From her I'm going to have to go places. Don’t want me, I think it’s best you never find me I’ll be the blind to your minds eye If you blink hard enough I’ll be here, There, Everywhere. Enjoy a life worth living,

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Oct 16, 2013

Oct 16, 2013 at 5:10 PM UTC

yanehs-magta

19/06/2013

You told me you wanted to give me everything, Every part of you Once up on a reel of time, I felt the real you, Every time I looked at you, under all our lies. I fell in love with you, I am in love with you, I love you. You told me Stringing along was not my part But the words leaked out your face I saw them stream into your ears Tickle your nerves, the hairs on the back of your neck stood out… Were you trying to convince yourself We shared something beautiful something amazingly tragic, I spoke to the divine once begging for enlightenment Vowing I’d sacrifice anything to be indulged, by divine intervention, but you, I don’t know how I’d sacrifice you, or maybe I do. I’m departing in June, at noon, I told you. I saw the beginning of your blue, How it grew. Here’s a secret One just for you I’m leaving sooner.. Thanks to you, Don’t feel bad, heck I know I can’t stop the sad . Be mad, go crazy rip our memories to shreds pick them up and glue the pieces store them away for when your at wits end Do what you do best, all over again. I hope to fall in love again, To be the other, to another. Not a brother, sister or lover. I want to be the loved. You told me she was a woman you loved , dearly and then called me one too. I can't sit by while you figure out what you want. From me, From life, From her I'm going to have to go places. Don’t want me, I think it’s best you never find me I’ll be the blind to your minds eye If you blink hard enough I’ll be here, There, Everywhere. Enjoy a life worth living,

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The beginning of the year was along time ago, its nearly time for a new beginning to the next year. You say you weren't sure of a future with her, now, and then Could that be because ups and downs are like merrigorounds, an endless cycle for which we never prepare. Someone ridiculous once told me if your not sure then don't get into something your not entirely sure of, suppose the rumor skipped your ear or you will to hear. But either way i feel that's not the case here. You once were sure, of your feelings for her so sure you thought up a future with her. Life became a whirl and put these two girls in a swirl Through in: endless possibilities, complexities and free will for lease. Do you understand this Miss, do you see. We feel the low of this unbearable load because our love is a matter of fact. The loss of a love was never meant to be taken well. This is a lesson for me too as i realize it was never her, only you. In reverse its a curse for me, without you is a future for two, i am nothing to loose. I am nothing but the other path, a possibility of miss because you chose Lizz, You chose her before i ever walked on by but that doesn't make me feel blue because i will always love you. Explaining myself seems pointless at this time, but i will make a point. "So yea", I'll tell you that somewhere along the lines a phobia was installed inside of me Of which i was unaware of, yet still bear. I didn't know it to be this great, until it proved to be a challenge of late. It makes me incapable of seeing the point in commitment, yet it outlines the defects of the means to commit, so naturally i still see it to be the pits.. The one thing in life i never wanna stop; is to try. My heart may seem big, but really i think it has it in for me, its no longer as strong and youthful as it once was. To love ONE in the more romantic sense is the inclination of my hearts manifestation. Did i want something more with you?? Yes, I'm afraid i did, but was to ashamed to admit it, even to me. One of the many things i dislike in life is decisions, because i never know where to start. I understand that you're left feeling apart, so I'm taking an option from you so that there is nothing to choose, nothing to lose. I'm going to take me from you. I'll be like a pet, the one you've left to dwell amongst the Dead. You'd still be left with all your memories but nothing to touch when it all gets to much. I'll be there for you in thought but i refuse to apologies for cutting us short. How does it feel to be alone, You ask. It feels like my entry and exit to this dimension, filled to the brim with emotion and tension.

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Feb 11, 2013

Feb 11, 2013 at 6:21 PM UTC

yanehs-magta

Another end she couldn't comprehend

The beginning of the year was along time ago, its nearly time for a new beginning to the next year. You say you weren't sure of a future with her, now, and then Could that be because ups and downs are like merrigorounds, an endless cycle for which we never prepare. Someone ridiculous once told me if your not sure then don't get into something your not entirely sure of, suppose the rumor skipped your ear or you will to hear. But either way i feel that's not the case here. You once were sure, of your feelings for her so sure you thought up a future with her. Life became a whirl and put these two girls in a swirl Through in: endless possibilities, complexities and free will for lease. Do you understand this Miss, do you see. We feel the low of this unbearable load because our love is a matter of fact. The loss of a love was never meant to be taken well. This is a lesson for me too as i realize it was never her, only you. In reverse its a curse for me, without you is a future for two, i am nothing to loose. I am nothing but the other path, a possibility of miss because you chose Lizz, You chose her before i ever walked on by but that doesn't make me feel blue because i will always love you. Explaining myself seems pointless at this time, but i will make a point. "So yea", I'll tell you that somewhere along the lines a phobia was installed inside of me Of which i was unaware of, yet still bear. I didn't know it to be this great, until it proved to be a challenge of late. It makes me incapable of seeing the point in commitment, yet it outlines the defects of the means to commit, so naturally i still see it to be the pits.. The one thing in life i never wanna stop; is to try. My heart may seem big, but really i think it has it in for me, its no longer as strong and youthful as it once was. To love ONE in the more romantic sense is the inclination of my hearts manifestation. Did i want something more with you?? Yes, I'm afraid i did, but was to ashamed to admit it, even to me. One of the many things i dislike in life is decisions, because i never know where to start. I understand that you're left feeling apart, so I'm taking an option from you so that there is nothing to choose, nothing to lose. I'm going to take me from you. I'll be like a pet, the one you've left to dwell amongst the Dead. You'd still be left with all your memories but nothing to touch when it all gets to much. I'll be there for you in thought but i refuse to apologies for cutting us short. How does it feel to be alone, You ask. It feels like my entry and exit to this dimension, filled to the brim with emotion and tension.

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Look at me and see See what i see? What im meant to see. see im crazy or am i lazy for i can not see What is meant for me. I don't see what is before me, to see How can you see, what im trying to see when all we see is what we want to see, but what remains to be seen is only just a scene in the great blue sea filled with so much to see, all of which can not be seen. So should i shut my eyes before all the lies of this demise come for me... Would you wait for me, or would you save me. I'd just leave me to be, to frolic amongst the unseen... Do we ever see what we're meant to see or do we just see what we want to see, I only see when i shut my eyes, I see so many things like the spectrum of lies the lies i tell... The truest truths of what I've seen, could you ever see what i see... when i see myself with eyes tightly shut i belt to the ground and pound and pound for all i see is the lies of truths and the truths of lies we're all just maggots to flies oneday we'll all die. But for now try and see, see everything you could never see. believe... see the fairies dance and sing as they plot the scenes for the birds and the bees and the trees they'll all grow to be green and one day we'll see, we'll see the green of the trees leaves and the leaves of the lives who have all passed, Did you see me cry? Tear passes tear drip drip to the middle of my chins trembles. For I've seen what i saw and i couldn't stand it any more, she saw but didn't see, did she see what i saw... i saw them all bodies floating one two three i saw so many how could that be, why couldn't they be saved, was it because they misbehaved. I don't want to believe In truths or lies i just want them all by my side to have and to hold, until we grow old. Farewell little ducklings you were born and now i, mourn the loss of your passing. Your memory will be with me until i understand what i was meant to see, for now please loosen your grip on me stop eyes from dripping and crippling me.

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Dec 18, 2012

Dec 18, 2012 at 10:40 PM UTC

yanehs-magta

when everything became hazy and a little bit grey.

Look at me and see See what i see? What im meant to see. see im crazy or am i lazy for i can not see What is meant for me. I don't see what is before me, to see How can you see, what im trying to see when all we see is what we want to see, but what remains to be seen is only just a scene in the great blue sea filled with so much to see, all of which can not be seen. So should i shut my eyes before all the lies of this demise come for me... Would you wait for me, or would you save me. I'd just leave me to be, to frolic amongst the unseen... Do we ever see what we're meant to see or do we just see what we want to see, I only see when i shut my eyes, I see so many things like the spectrum of lies the lies i tell... The truest truths of what I've seen, could you ever see what i see... when i see myself with eyes tightly shut i belt to the ground and pound and pound for all i see is the lies of truths and the truths of lies we're all just maggots to flies oneday we'll all die. But for now try and see, see everything you could never see. believe... see the fairies dance and sing as they plot the scenes for the birds and the bees and the trees they'll all grow to be green and one day we'll see, we'll see the green of the trees leaves and the leaves of the lives who have all passed, Did you see me cry? Tear passes tear drip drip to the middle of my chins trembles. For I've seen what i saw and i couldn't stand it any more, she saw but didn't see, did she see what i saw... i saw them all bodies floating one two three i saw so many how could that be, why couldn't they be saved, was it because they misbehaved. I don't want to believe In truths or lies i just want them all by my side to have and to hold, until we grow old. Farewell little ducklings you were born and now i, mourn the loss of your passing. Your memory will be with me until i understand what i was meant to see, for now please loosen your grip on me stop eyes from dripping and crippling me.

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*Yesterday I cut myself, today I bleed tomorrow I die * Regretfulness What are regrets, but a heavy load to this burden…. Yesterday I cut myself, today I bleed tomorrow I die… Actions of the past influence the present and affect the future Yesterday I was on the verge of cutting myself, today I would’ve bleed to death, tomorrow I awake. Dedicated to the emancipation of self mutilation.

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Nov 22, 2012

Nov 22, 2012 at 1:15 AM UTC

yanehs-magta

The sharpest lives

*Yesterday I cut myself, today I bleed tomorrow I die * Regretfulness What are regrets, but a heavy load to this burden…. Yesterday I cut myself, today I bleed tomorrow I die… Actions of the past influence the present and affect the future Yesterday I was on the verge of cutting myself, today I would’ve bleed to death, tomorrow I awake. Dedicated to the emancipation of self mutilation.

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-Time Is slipping by so quickly Nay! -Tis only because our minds are too preoccupied with the yesterdays and tomorrows, we lose sight of the right now, that moment of being here. The present moment. I understand that it’s so hard thinking of the now when the yesterdays and tomorrows taunt our mind, like vulture to corpse. -Yanehs MagTa

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Nov 22, 2012

Nov 22, 2012 at 12:43 AM UTC

yanehs-magta

Time Is slipping by so quickly Nay!

-Time Is slipping by so quickly Nay! -Tis only because our minds are too preoccupied with the yesterdays and tomorrows, we lose sight of the right now, that moment of being here. The present moment. I understand that it’s so hard thinking of the now when the yesterdays and tomorrows taunt our mind, like vulture to corpse. -Yanehs MagTa

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We forget We forget those things we said, How we wouldn't share hidden space. You're space My space Secret bed space... With eyes clenched Legs spread Arms up ahead strong forces leading you to my base, You remove my lace To caress my delicacy with your face But how do we forget!? how do we forget time lovingly shared Forget about all the feelings barred Forget all the notes read The wind she says i must for this is nothing, But lust... But how do i forget, when forgetting to forget is the only direction of my thoughts indiscretion Have i failed to mention the tension?.... My mind plays scenes that cause wobble to my knees. "Please i yell, i want her to ring my bell!" I want her ***** to grind against my groin. i wanna be the keeper to her speaker... I'll turn down the treble to feel her body's trembles. I wanna be the assumption of her eruption. The misconception of her detention. The undetected of whom she's elected to spread her infectious pleasures, at our own leisure. I wanna taste the treasure of her box, plot the scenes and dot dot dot I'm sick of having to dine with her body in mind When my eyes forever see her splendor would she dare render her body mine, so i may dine amongst her divine beauty that protruds through my heart.. No! how dare i question this silly expectation of retardation. This woman wants so much more of me, everything im to selfish to give. Let and forget seems to be the polar opposite of the ridiculoisness of my wants and needs. How do i forget!!!??? How do you forget!!?? What is it to forget the tragic magic of our secret love affair especially the intensity of moments barred. ... how do we forget... ??

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Nov 20, 2012

Nov 20, 2012 at 6:56 PM UTC

yanehs-magta

We forget...

We forget We forget those things we said, How we wouldn't share hidden space. You're space My space Secret bed space... With eyes clenched Legs spread Arms up ahead strong forces leading you to my base, You remove my lace To caress my delicacy with your face But how do we forget!? how do we forget time lovingly shared Forget about all the feelings barred Forget all the notes read The wind she says i must for this is nothing, But lust... But how do i forget, when forgetting to forget is the only direction of my thoughts indiscretion Have i failed to mention the tension?.... My mind plays scenes that cause wobble to my knees. "Please i yell, i want her to ring my bell!" I want her ***** to grind against my groin. i wanna be the keeper to her speaker... I'll turn down the treble to feel her body's trembles. I wanna be the assumption of her eruption. The misconception of her detention. The undetected of whom she's elected to spread her infectious pleasures, at our own leisure. I wanna taste the treasure of her box, plot the scenes and dot dot dot I'm sick of having to dine with her body in mind When my eyes forever see her splendor would she dare render her body mine, so i may dine amongst her divine beauty that protruds through my heart.. No! how dare i question this silly expectation of retardation. This woman wants so much more of me, everything im to selfish to give. Let and forget seems to be the polar opposite of the ridiculoisness of my wants and needs. How do i forget!!!??? How do you forget!!?? What is it to forget the tragic magic of our secret love affair especially the intensity of moments barred. ... how do we forget... ??

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Awaiting was I, patience safely intact. As the wind so fiercely flew, it blew my patience, away too . How rude. Walking was I, now, confused was how I felt as a sudden overwhelming sadness Tore it's way through my body, thrusting through my chest spitting tears upon my breast. I stumble as my pace starts to increase... it's thoughts of you that surfaces to my brain.. how dare you settle amongst my mind how dare you resurface when I had this all sorted out How dare you pretend you know me when I no longer know myself How dare I contradict the very essences of my being through, thoughts of you. A way with you distraughting thoughts, for you have always had a way of fracturing my fragile mind... The rain she came and put me to more shame. lame is my heart as my thoughts would not depart. You may not be the first but, my God, I hope you are the last. for you make the sun shine through my rain you are the stillness to my day you are the laughter that chokes my throat. I know you are with another, but I'm not just any other. I don't wanna be with you for that repulses my conscience brain, even though I feel for you so. I want you to take this all away way, shove it in a bottle and chuck it out to sea for the lovers that we will never be, to greet. The echo of your "tomorrows" still ring in my ears, Tis the creases upon your smiling face, I would still love to embrace. I know i said tis the happy you i'd chose and refuse the grump that most times appears.. but i fear that it's the all of you i'd like to greet when it shows to my feet. I heard me beat in side your heart once upon our time... Don't tell me it's normal to feel this way. Don't tell me this is how it was all meant to be and that you were meant for me For it's still her untouched body that i crave what happen to my brave.. did you take that from me to the day i spoke to you... -Yanehs magta

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Nov 16, 2012

Nov 16, 2012 at 7:43 PM UTC

yanehs-magta

Chemistry

Awaiting was I, patience safely intact. As the wind so fiercely flew, it blew my patience, away too . How rude. Walking was I, now, confused was how I felt as a sudden overwhelming sadness Tore it's way through my body, thrusting through my chest spitting tears upon my breast. I stumble as my pace starts to increase... it's thoughts of you that surfaces to my brain.. how dare you settle amongst my mind how dare you resurface when I had this all sorted out How dare you pretend you know me when I no longer know myself How dare I contradict the very essences of my being through, thoughts of you. A way with you distraughting thoughts, for you have always had a way of fracturing my fragile mind... The rain she came and put me to more shame. lame is my heart as my thoughts would not depart. You may not be the first but, my God, I hope you are the last. for you make the sun shine through my rain you are the stillness to my day you are the laughter that chokes my throat. I know you are with another, but I'm not just any other. I don't wanna be with you for that repulses my conscience brain, even though I feel for you so. I want you to take this all away way, shove it in a bottle and chuck it out to sea for the lovers that we will never be, to greet. The echo of your "tomorrows" still ring in my ears, Tis the creases upon your smiling face, I would still love to embrace. I know i said tis the happy you i'd chose and refuse the grump that most times appears.. but i fear that it's the all of you i'd like to greet when it shows to my feet. I heard me beat in side your heart once upon our time... Don't tell me it's normal to feel this way. Don't tell me this is how it was all meant to be and that you were meant for me For it's still her untouched body that i crave what happen to my brave.. did you take that from me to the day i spoke to you... -Yanehs magta

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My name is Aziz, I am the one 2be up in your buz-nees. what a pleasure it must be for you to meet me i greet thee! so treasure this to your measure. I am the one, who knows the one, who is not the one to be re-done. she is this girl stuck in a whirl who thinks in a swirl, that girl my friend, who was born totally bent! Tis me she kissed and i couldn't resist for i am Aziz, one ******** enough to be all up in her buz-nees. My name is Aziz I'm like a venereal disease not your average menstrual bleed. One taste of me and you'll be screaming 'Yes please!' I'll bite into your neck like a sucker with a sore leg as you beg for more at my door, te amour. My name is Aziz I'm like a contagious disease not your average ****** Mother ****** puurrlezz!! I kiss girls in my car and watch them shake it like it's hot. All over the parking lot dot dot dot My name is Aziz grand master of saying thank you and please with easy e. **** she was not meant for me...what did she mean when she leaned in Aziz! Aziz! Aziz! yes? Thank you?? Please mother ****** FREEZE!! my name is Aziz I've got her heart on my sleeve, so I'll make like a tree and leave this to be, as it's not meant for me. She likes sea shells on the sea shore unfortunately not more, what a bore. I don't care that she's not sorry, but why do i feel so sore. My name is Aziz i miss, Miss. I miss her in the morning i miss her on the phone i miss her cause she ran all the way home. My name is Aziz i think i know that lady! she'd always call me baby she hasn't rung me lately. She no longer goes to the beef she doesn't eat Do you know why maybe.. Is it cause she hates meat?? Whereas i love eeet. My name is Aziz can i talk to you please? I wanna say all these things like ring a ling ling where did she get that bling My ******* knee hurts cause it's in a sling. I wish i was a Saudi king if i was would you tell me why you wear that ring?? My name is Aziz can i see you please or are you no longer for lease... Is it because you think I'm a sleeze? I'll beg on my knee and say please (-) the thank you i promise not to prank you. There's all these things i wanna say. I understand that you may be gay, i don't need a lay. I just need to speak to you Shenay nay. Your name Aziz. wala, you said you love me, wala, i said i love you too. I'm sorry i wasn't meant for you. See, it's nearly a full moon and I'm still so blue... I really wanna see you. But I'm too stubborn to actually talk to you. Even though our love was enough i'm not sorry i played bluff. but now, this all feels too, much Don't you see, i was in a rush. I should have hit you over the head with your crutch. But instead i kissed you, your lips, they were so lush. They even made me blush. You weren't my crush, but now I'm crushed. Because of us my brain's gone to mush. I wish i was still your baby and we could pretend that it's all groovey, maybe even watch a movie. But in the perfect world my frnd I'd be stryt and u, u'd be my perfect m8.

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Nov 16, 2012

Nov 16, 2012 at 6:58 PM UTC

yanehs-magta

Anticipation of my lubricated situation

My name is Aziz, I am the one 2be up in your buz-nees. what a pleasure it must be for you to meet me i greet thee! so treasure this to your measure. I am the one, who knows the one, who is not the one to be re-done. she is this girl stuck in a whirl who thinks in a swirl, that girl my friend, who was born totally bent! Tis me she kissed and i couldn't resist for i am Aziz, one ******** enough to be all up in her buz-nees. My name is Aziz I'm like a venereal disease not your average menstrual bleed. One taste of me and you'll be screaming 'Yes please!' I'll bite into your neck like a sucker with a sore leg as you beg for more at my door, te amour. My name is Aziz I'm like a contagious disease not your average ****** Mother ****** puurrlezz!! I kiss girls in my car and watch them shake it like it's hot. All over the parking lot dot dot dot My name is Aziz grand master of saying thank you and please with easy e. **** she was not meant for me...what did she mean when she leaned in Aziz! Aziz! Aziz! yes? Thank you?? Please mother ****** FREEZE!! my name is Aziz I've got her heart on my sleeve, so I'll make like a tree and leave this to be, as it's not meant for me. She likes sea shells on the sea shore unfortunately not more, what a bore. I don't care that she's not sorry, but why do i feel so sore. My name is Aziz i miss, Miss. I miss her in the morning i miss her on the phone i miss her cause she ran all the way home. My name is Aziz i think i know that lady! she'd always call me baby she hasn't rung me lately. She no longer goes to the beef she doesn't eat Do you know why maybe.. Is it cause she hates meat?? Whereas i love eeet. My name is Aziz can i talk to you please? I wanna say all these things like ring a ling ling where did she get that bling My ******* knee hurts cause it's in a sling. I wish i was a Saudi king if i was would you tell me why you wear that ring?? My name is Aziz can i see you please or are you no longer for lease... Is it because you think I'm a sleeze? I'll beg on my knee and say please (-) the thank you i promise not to prank you. There's all these things i wanna say. I understand that you may be gay, i don't need a lay. I just need to speak to you Shenay nay. Your name Aziz. wala, you said you love me, wala, i said i love you too. I'm sorry i wasn't meant for you. See, it's nearly a full moon and I'm still so blue... I really wanna see you. But I'm too stubborn to actually talk to you. Even though our love was enough i'm not sorry i played bluff. but now, this all feels too, much Don't you see, i was in a rush. I should have hit you over the head with your crutch. But instead i kissed you, your lips, they were so lush. They even made me blush. You weren't my crush, but now I'm crushed. Because of us my brain's gone to mush. I wish i was still your baby and we could pretend that it's all groovey, maybe even watch a movie. But in the perfect world my frnd I'd be stryt and u, u'd be my perfect m8.

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