Growing up so happy and free
knowing who I wanted to be
as life went on people had changed
to ways I never thought
as I was finding myself, someone found me
I opened up and let him in without knowing a thing
I was so happy until the day that everything went so wrong
he left me and I felt so alone
it wasn’t fair
now I was sad and mad all at the same time
I would always cry at the drop of a dime
my life has changed since then
as I hide my emotions and say I’m okay
I realize that it’s not worth it
this life has taught me more than to be upset
I hope to find someone like you again who will listen
who won’t just leave again
but for now I’ll choose to be happy and free like I used to be
I know that God gave me this life for a reason
so I can live
happy and free
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 7:37 PM UTC
I was afraid of love
It's just heartaches and sufferings
I forbid myself from falling
Because I know
No one would catch me but the ground
Then there was you
You said you were falling
I was ready to fall in love with you
But when I was falling really fast
That's when I realized
You were not with me
You had a parachute on
I fell
But no one was there to catch me
I loved
And I don't think I could ever love again
Cause Im broken
You've broke me beyond repair
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
A mind so full, a heart so cold.
So bitter, self hatred starting to unfold.
Blank stare in my eyes, lost in a daze.
My life is like a nightmare, I can't seem to erase.
This pain is here to stay,
Not even the rain can wash it away.
No not this time, I've lost my self this time.
Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind.
My conscience screaming, My head pounding.
Louder, louder, I can hear it, insanity surrounding.
My veins ticking, My Hearts beating so fast,
Will I survive this, how much longer will this last?
This pain is here to stay,
Not even the rain can wash it away.
No not this time, I've lost my self this time.
Lost in my own thoughts, lost in my own mind.
I cant get away,
there's no escaping it.
I have to fight it,
I wont give in.
I won't let my ****** up conscience win.
Oct 1, 2015
Oct 1, 2015 at 8:24 PM UTC
As I lay in my bed
in this dark room
the silence is strident
and so is my mind.
My thoughts immediately go to
you
every moment of the day
until
my eyes grow heavy
and my body is at peace
but still
you're there
in the back of my mind.
Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 6:53 PM UTC
Little do you know how I'm breaking while you fall asleep,
Little do you know I'm still haunted by the memories,
Little do you know I'm trying to pick myself up, piece by piece
Little do you know I need a little more time
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the feel that you might change your mind.
I'm ready to forgive you but, forgetting is a harder fight.
Little do you know I need a little more time
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 11:42 AM UTC