xander-white - Hello Poetry

Off from the crimson rose drops a last petal Twirling, spinning into a void Once there was brightness, fading only to black A mind once busy left blank Teetering on a razor sharp edge Breath held in life’s longest wait Searching for anything to occupy endless wait Then down drifts the crimson petal A handhold to pull away from the edge Distract from the pastime of staring into the void Grasping for any detail there in the blank Looking for a spot of hope in the deep black Further fall to the oppressive black Weaving a story to carry through the wait Though that thick blanket is better left blank A song dependant on one lonely petal The only thing to ever survive the void Sitting, singing there so close to the edge An evil beaconing urges, jump over this edge Fall through through the black Came through the void, The body freezes, it is committed to it’s wait By feet settle a single crimson petal The mind shies away, thoughts are safer blank Why do we wait for the world to go blank? Oh, but what harm over this edge? When hope only appears as a lonesome petal One speck of crimson to soften the black Why be plagued by this wait? Not even a whole rose to draw from the void Don’t look longingly into the void Knowing that it will finally be true blank Is this all to life, an endless wait? Until a simple, small step over the edge Waiting to fade from grey existence to black Searching for hope in the symbol of a petal

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Jan 2, 2017

Jan 2, 2017 at 11:40 PM UTC

xander-white

The Crimson Petal

Off from the crimson rose drops a last petal Twirling, spinning into a void Once there was brightness, fading only to black A mind once busy left blank Teetering on a razor sharp edge Breath held in life’s longest wait Searching for anything to occupy endless wait Then down drifts the crimson petal A handhold to pull away from the edge Distract from the pastime of staring into the void Grasping for any detail there in the blank Looking for a spot of hope in the deep black Further fall to the oppressive black Weaving a story to carry through the wait Though that thick blanket is better left blank A song dependant on one lonely petal The only thing to ever survive the void Sitting, singing there so close to the edge An evil beaconing urges, jump over this edge Fall through through the black Came through the void, The body freezes, it is committed to it’s wait By feet settle a single crimson petal The mind shies away, thoughts are safer blank Why do we wait for the world to go blank? Oh, but what harm over this edge? When hope only appears as a lonesome petal One speck of crimson to soften the black Why be plagued by this wait? Not even a whole rose to draw from the void Don’t look longingly into the void Knowing that it will finally be true blank Is this all to life, an endless wait? Until a simple, small step over the edge Waiting to fade from grey existence to black Searching for hope in the symbol of a petal

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Up on the hilltops Your chilling breath providing relief From the too close summer sun Thanks be to Mother Mountain Low in the valley Rushes sweet, cool water Quenching our thirst for life Thanks be to Mother Mountain There on those sliding slopes Perch the choke-cherry trees With bark to ease any pain Thanks be to Mother Mountain Up, above, around and below Thick trees for shade in which The succulent strawberries grow to quiet stomachs Thanks be to Mother Mountain Oh, how your rays bathe To give warmth to guard From Mother Mountain’s icy breath Thanks be to Father Sun Deep in the valley you bake The ever present sage Brush, scent to be brought alive by rare rains Thanks be to Father Sun Oh, there in Mother Mountain’s Deep crevice, where-ever the running rivers dare Pause, you warm it so we may bathe Thanks be to Father Sun All around and about, on sparse sand and Through thick trees you provide the Light to feed the berries and the choke-cherry leaves Thanks be to Father Sun Oh, but the time for Father Sun Must die, and so he turns the watch Over to his ever caring son Thanks be to Brother Moon He who holds all our secrets safe Whether they be the love of the young, Or the laments of those who leave tears in the dark Thanks be to Brother Moon The children lay their heads to rest On beds of sand and pillows of needles of pine Squirrels dash to holes in trees, under his silent witness Thanks be to Brother Moon Oh, the secrets he knows are what brings him to life The most sacred of which are those Of brothers and sisters, free to his ears Thanks be to Brother Moon

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Oct 24, 2016

Oct 24, 2016 at 6:01 PM UTC

xander-white

Mother Mountain

Up on the hilltops Your chilling breath providing relief From the too close summer sun Thanks be to Mother Mountain Low in the valley Rushes sweet, cool water Quenching our thirst for life Thanks be to Mother Mountain There on those sliding slopes Perch the choke-cherry trees With bark to ease any pain Thanks be to Mother Mountain Up, above, around and below Thick trees for shade in which The succulent strawberries grow to quiet stomachs Thanks be to Mother Mountain Oh, how your rays bathe To give warmth to guard From Mother Mountain’s icy breath Thanks be to Father Sun Deep in the valley you bake The ever present sage Brush, scent to be brought alive by rare rains Thanks be to Father Sun Oh, there in Mother Mountain’s Deep crevice, where-ever the running rivers dare Pause, you warm it so we may bathe Thanks be to Father Sun All around and about, on sparse sand and Through thick trees you provide the Light to feed the berries and the choke-cherry leaves Thanks be to Father Sun Oh, but the time for Father Sun Must die, and so he turns the watch Over to his ever caring son Thanks be to Brother Moon He who holds all our secrets safe Whether they be the love of the young, Or the laments of those who leave tears in the dark Thanks be to Brother Moon The children lay their heads to rest On beds of sand and pillows of needles of pine Squirrels dash to holes in trees, under his silent witness Thanks be to Brother Moon Oh, the secrets he knows are what brings him to life The most sacred of which are those Of brothers and sisters, free to his ears Thanks be to Brother Moon

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What is heard cannot be unheard Words cannot be snatched from the breeze Much as some might wish it to be so What is said cannot be unsaid “Do you want to fail out of school?” “I wish she would just listen sometimes.” “Is that a dude or a chick? You just can’t tell anymore…” “Some people!” All words floating on the breeze They cannot be snatched back, those words And all can hear your thoughts, When you put them to voice “Oh, I love her shoes.” “Careful there love.” “Here let me help” “Thank you kind sir” More words found floating in the air Don’t you think those there Are so much more pleasant To spread around the summer breeze?

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Oct 2, 2016

Oct 2, 2016 at 11:12 PM UTC

xander-white

Words Heard

What is heard cannot be unheard Words cannot be snatched from the breeze Much as some might wish it to be so What is said cannot be unsaid “Do you want to fail out of school?” “I wish she would just listen sometimes.” “Is that a dude or a chick? You just can’t tell anymore…” “Some people!” All words floating on the breeze They cannot be snatched back, those words And all can hear your thoughts, When you put them to voice “Oh, I love her shoes.” “Careful there love.” “Here let me help” “Thank you kind sir” More words found floating in the air Don’t you think those there Are so much more pleasant To spread around the summer breeze?

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There is nothing like The smell of sage in the morn Wafting on the lazy breeze There is a place Hidden, low in the valley Where the sego lily grows And there the angel Made of everlasting stone Watches those that came before But now it’s time for The sound of children whooping As they merrily run through Ever the woods stand Tall, watching proudly over The fields of flowers and grass The mountain stone sees What happens in its shadows Ready to protect, its charge And in that valley Green sage and red brush combine To show of heaven on earth

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Sep 8, 2016

Sep 8, 2016 at 3:29 PM UTC

xander-white

In the valley

There is nothing like The smell of sage in the morn Wafting on the lazy breeze There is a place Hidden, low in the valley Where the sego lily grows And there the angel Made of everlasting stone Watches those that came before But now it’s time for The sound of children whooping As they merrily run through Ever the woods stand Tall, watching proudly over The fields of flowers and grass The mountain stone sees What happens in its shadows Ready to protect, its charge And in that valley Green sage and red brush combine To show of heaven on earth

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Even in the darkest abyss the light Filters down, bringing illuminance as far as it dares For that blaze still gleams, far above And fights to bring just a ray down, to you And it may seem miles away, that brilliance That your soul longs to touch once again That ease, so far buried in your recollection That it seems like a haze, or a far away dream But yet, you will not dwell in that deep dark for eternity That void which threatens to devour you, Will not always hold sway For either the light will triumph, or oblivion And yet, the waters above the chasm bear down upon you A comforting weight upon thy shoulders That settles around you, seducing you to sleep That is alright, for a little while, but remember To sleep is to dream, but to wake is to live And to ever again bathe in the luminescence, beckoning from above You must wake, and fight, and strive towards that glow For that dream, to ever become life.

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Sep 5, 2016

Sep 5, 2016 at 4:38 PM UTC

xander-white

The Light

Even in the darkest abyss the light Filters down, bringing illuminance as far as it dares For that blaze still gleams, far above And fights to bring just a ray down, to you And it may seem miles away, that brilliance That your soul longs to touch once again That ease, so far buried in your recollection That it seems like a haze, or a far away dream But yet, you will not dwell in that deep dark for eternity That void which threatens to devour you, Will not always hold sway For either the light will triumph, or oblivion And yet, the waters above the chasm bear down upon you A comforting weight upon thy shoulders That settles around you, seducing you to sleep That is alright, for a little while, but remember To sleep is to dream, but to wake is to live And to ever again bathe in the luminescence, beckoning from above You must wake, and fight, and strive towards that glow For that dream, to ever become life.

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Let me tell you about the day, dear friends In which the world continued to turn I know, I know, It surprised me too How could the sun continue to rise and fall Without its greatest subject to shine on? How can the earth remember to turn When the sky has splintered and fallen Spearing us all? Leaving one lost, lonely little boy Who had always defined himself By other people And this God on Earth Being of Light and Mercy Was all he wished to grow up to be The avenging angel, the gentle hand Or the gentle whisper “Is that really a good idea” Would never be heard of again But the world would continue to turn The sky would rain in reverse and Eventually, piece itself back together The lavender lost their luster, that day In mourning, of the sunshine No one believed would come the next day But the world would continue to turn And a lost, lonely little boy Would learn to stand outside of the shadows When no one believed his legs could even hold him up His world shattered, and then reformed again Let me tell you about the day, dear friends In which the world continued to turn

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Aug 28, 2016

Aug 28, 2016 at 7:58 PM UTC

xander-white

The day the world continued to turn

Let me tell you about the day, dear friends In which the world continued to turn I know, I know, It surprised me too How could the sun continue to rise and fall Without its greatest subject to shine on? How can the earth remember to turn When the sky has splintered and fallen Spearing us all? Leaving one lost, lonely little boy Who had always defined himself By other people And this God on Earth Being of Light and Mercy Was all he wished to grow up to be The avenging angel, the gentle hand Or the gentle whisper “Is that really a good idea” Would never be heard of again But the world would continue to turn The sky would rain in reverse and Eventually, piece itself back together The lavender lost their luster, that day In mourning, of the sunshine No one believed would come the next day But the world would continue to turn And a lost, lonely little boy Would learn to stand outside of the shadows When no one believed his legs could even hold him up His world shattered, and then reformed again Let me tell you about the day, dear friends In which the world continued to turn

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I have no apologies I am who I am I will not change for your comfort I do not care for your policies I have no apologies I do not care if you come to accept me I am learning to be comfortable in my skin I am learning how to know myself I have no apologies I am not who I am for you I am my own person I have tried to change I have tried to apologize I have tried to live for your comfort I am done I have no apologies

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Aug 28, 2016

Aug 28, 2016 at 7:43 PM UTC

xander-white

No Apologies

I have no apologies I am who I am I will not change for your comfort I do not care for your policies I have no apologies I do not care if you come to accept me I am learning to be comfortable in my skin I am learning how to know myself I have no apologies I am not who I am for you I am my own person I have tried to change I have tried to apologize I have tried to live for your comfort I am done I have no apologies

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Silver sparkles Lost in a sea of purple fabric Hair singed straight Face painted Laces stealing my breath away Bittersweet, the hug From an oft-absent father The sinking feeling, unsatisfied Without a clue as to why Dread mounting, anxiety shouting “You’ll be the prettiest girl at Prom” Matte black Broken by a silver bowtie Hair combed back Neat and orderly, obscuring The sea of butterflies I hide Euphoric, the hug From the lady I’ll escort Bright flashes in my eyes Thumps of congratulations, I am The lucky man to take the prettiest girl to the ball “May I have this dance?”

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Aug 28, 2016

Aug 28, 2016 at 7:37 PM UTC

xander-white

The Yule Ball

Silver sparkles Lost in a sea of purple fabric Hair singed straight Face painted Laces stealing my breath away Bittersweet, the hug From an oft-absent father The sinking feeling, unsatisfied Without a clue as to why Dread mounting, anxiety shouting “You’ll be the prettiest girl at Prom” Matte black Broken by a silver bowtie Hair combed back Neat and orderly, obscuring The sea of butterflies I hide Euphoric, the hug From the lady I’ll escort Bright flashes in my eyes Thumps of congratulations, I am The lucky man to take the prettiest girl to the ball “May I have this dance?”

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You know, my mother never forgave my father, either Though he did not leave us for the darkness of eternal slumber Instead, for the heat and stink and sand and sulfur of a special piece of hell on Earth. And his name, too, was locked away, but for the times it was aired out to dry Like ***** laundry. And when he dared to show himself My mother, too, could not lose her frown. No whiskey on his breath, but eyes that begged to forget A cheek that dared to stubble and scrape as we’d waltz And knock the paintings from the walls. Away again he’d go, taking all the warmth, to leave us in that blue-black cold. My mother got up to early, to iron our clothes and turn on the stove But no warmth could splinter the chronic anger left in the loneliness. No one ever thanked her, either. What did I know?

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Aug 25, 2016

Aug 25, 2016 at 3:24 PM UTC

xander-white

My mother, too

You know, my mother never forgave my father, either Though he did not leave us for the darkness of eternal slumber Instead, for the heat and stink and sand and sulfur of a special piece of hell on Earth. And his name, too, was locked away, but for the times it was aired out to dry Like ***** laundry. And when he dared to show himself My mother, too, could not lose her frown. No whiskey on his breath, but eyes that begged to forget A cheek that dared to stubble and scrape as we’d waltz And knock the paintings from the walls. Away again he’d go, taking all the warmth, to leave us in that blue-black cold. My mother got up to early, to iron our clothes and turn on the stove But no warmth could splinter the chronic anger left in the loneliness. No one ever thanked her, either. What did I know?

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When the nights grow dim and the shadows grow longer I can't help my mind but to wander And I find myself remembering the nights I spent with you Did we ever even had a chance? I know we thought we had it all It was nothing but a cold winter romance Warmer than the air until the sun began to shine And I suppose I could have told you I could never be your girlfriend But its hard when I hadn't even told myself And I suppose you can make it all my fault When we never even had a chance And I can take the pain from this broken heart But I can't shoulder the blame all alone Do you even remember the same things I do? You talk of the love we used to share If that is love, do I really want a part of it? It often felt more like hate to me There was never even a chance So I learn to take a breath And learn to love myself And maybe now, I will have a chance.

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May 20, 2016

May 20, 2016 at 12:25 PM UTC

xander-white

Chance

When the nights grow dim and the shadows grow longer I can't help my mind but to wander And I find myself remembering the nights I spent with you Did we ever even had a chance? I know we thought we had it all It was nothing but a cold winter romance Warmer than the air until the sun began to shine And I suppose I could have told you I could never be your girlfriend But its hard when I hadn't even told myself And I suppose you can make it all my fault When we never even had a chance And I can take the pain from this broken heart But I can't shoulder the blame all alone Do you even remember the same things I do? You talk of the love we used to share If that is love, do I really want a part of it? It often felt more like hate to me There was never even a chance So I learn to take a breath And learn to love myself And maybe now, I will have a chance.

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