I find you so breathtakingly beautiful
the smallest things about you
like how you're hair has a mind of its own
the few scattered freckles on your face
the way you walk
and the way you're fingers intertwine with each other as you wait for something
how you're flaws are nothing but perfection
this way of thinking scares me
because I can love your little things effortlessly
but how can I love someone else to no end but not even have a beginning for myself
Nov 21, 2013
Nov 21, 2013 at 1:21 PM UTC
This thin and feeble looking red string hangs from my left ring finger
oh how I've worn this sting
for years and years
It's tattered state makes me worry but maybe it is a sign that soon
I will be able to take this sting off because I have met where it ends
My lover is connected
Someone, somewhere
At night I lay in bed and twirl the string between my fingers
lacing and intertwining it where my loves fingers should be
I give it a tug, dreaming I'll feel a tug back
but I never do, so like every night I fall into a dreamless sleep
and time passes as it always does
one early morning, I stir
suddenly jolted awake by the feeling of something being ripped from my finger
jumping out of bed in my over sized shirt
desperately trailing my end of this red sting
that is being tugged towards my door
I manage to catch it and slip it on its familiar home, and my finger doesnt feel naked anymore
the sun is peaking through the windows with the hustle and bustle of the outside world pouring into the cracked window
I never thought this thump would thump as my aching heart does every night
I reach my door, full of curiosity and wonder
opening it, I see the UPS man and as I'm used to
I let out a sigh
I'm handed my package and I sign for it
closing the door I sadly retreat back to my loving bed
and then I hear a muffled thump on my door
the door opens
and in steps the UPS man
smiling a stunning smile and having a look of purpose set in his green eyes
first I was alarmed but then when I felt the red sting slip off my finger and trail up to the man standing in front of me, all the fear disappeared
as he slipped my end of the sting on his left ring finger to finally make the connection to the it's missing partner
to my missing partner
to my
found partner
Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 1:56 PM UTC
Love scares me
Anything that makes me happy
Scares me
Emotions
Terrify
Me
Once you feel any of these
It's all down hill
Just hurt, hurt and more hurt
Not knowing when it's going to strike
The fear of always having to be on your toes
Because if you're not
It'll hit you like a bomb
Blowing up your future intentions, expectations and realizations
Of love
Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 1:25 PM UTC
It was a wild white flower tucked behind her ear
and her love tucked between my heart and mind
she was wrong for me
she was what I know I needed to stay away from
she was pure sin
that drew me in like soft music playing in an old empty motel
her eyes promised me destruction
her touch gave me satisfaction
her words gave me a rebellious hope
Aug 8, 2013
Aug 8, 2013 at 10:06 PM UTC
a cry
a shriek
a silent scream
a impulse to quit
you lay still, and alone on the floor
the darkness of the room seems to caress your ever so loud thoughts
shushing them into a peaceful plead
you start to rock
swaying your body to the beat of your steady slowing heart
your cold fingers twist and grip around your arms
hugging you like no one ever did
the ragged breaths start to emerge as panic sets in
pieces of hair begin to stick together, a cold sweat bonding them
this whole time your eyes are open
they are trained on the ceiling
you choke out a laugh
looking at the ups and downs the ceiling seems to take
moving as if it was the surface of water being disturbed by a little pebble
your vision is swimming
your mind is swimming
you are submerged
you
are
drowning
Aug 8, 2013
Aug 8, 2013 at 9:56 PM UTC
I seem to be the master at this game
always out liking someone
I dive it with high expectations and end with them crashing down into the dirt
because I always out like
You liked me, I liked you
you stopped liking me eventually, but I didn't stop liking you
I win, you lose.
You'd think winning is a sweet victory
but winning this game ends in nothing but sad nights
I win, you lose.
I'll stay on the phone, content with just listening to our silence and you did too
for a while
I win, you lose.
I'll go out of my way to see you
you'd go when it was convenient
I win, you lose.
I keep the same feelings
while yours wither
ha,
I win. you lose.
All connections break because you simply
don't feel it anymore
I win,
you lose.
Aug 8, 2013
Aug 8, 2013 at 9:43 PM UTC
Undress my mind
stumble through the twisting and winding maze of my inner desires
peel back the external to reveal the internal
figure out the parts of me that I refuse to explore
map out my heart
know its reason for beating
trace the blue blood filled veins that stretch along my body
capture me with words
impress me with puzzles
stun me with expectations
Jul 16, 2013
Jul 16, 2013 at 7:39 PM UTC
They say, once you start loving yourself you invite other people to love you in return
but as I stand here, staring at myself in this godforsaken mirror
I am confused
where do I start "loving" myself
do my start with the tired bags under my eyes
or my seemingly large pores
how about my blemished skin
or the scare above my right eyebrow
I'm not asking to be perfect, no
I am comfortable with my flaw ridden face
but as soon as I step in public
the people, they are not
they have something to say
something to point out
but I do love myself
I just get that confused with people telling me I shouldn't
telling me I should adjust myself in order to appease their eyes
but whose eyes are the ones that look back in the mirror?
they are mine
and that's what matters
Love yourself, and you will be loved in return
ha, in this society?
I think not.
Jun 29, 2013
Jun 29, 2013 at 11:10 PM UTC
Why would you paint false images in my head
giving me hope
water my dreams with your soon forgotten promises
you never intended to put your words to truth, did you?
why would you lead someone on like that
I played out a million scenarios of us in my mind
laughed and smiled as if it were real
and now you speak to me, just because you saw me in public that day
why open an old wound I had to mend on my own
Jun 21, 2013
Jun 21, 2013 at 12:30 AM UTC
Hand me that bottle
put it to my lips
you just want to watch me burn
I can't love you anymore
intoxicate my thoughts
so I don't think
of what we're losing
so I don't come to reality
let me sleep
lie me down
tuck me in
and say your farewell
because
I'm not yours anymore
Jun 21, 2013
Jun 21, 2013 at 12:02 AM UTC