In the top floor of an overly idolized apartment,
In room 26B.
There’s a door just beside the bed, this door leads to a kitchen and inside the kitchen, in one of the bottom lockers, the one by your left when you stand facing it, there is a knife.
This knife has a purple hilt, and a rusty metal ***** at the center of the hilt fixing the blade to the hilt. The bottom of the hilt has a few pale spots, as if its color has faded. And by the edge of the blade there are a couple scratches, from a number of poor sharpening attempts.
I reside in that room, I sleep on the bed next to the door and every night, before I sleep on that bed, I stare at the knife in the cupboard for about 2 hours. I think about the scratches on the blade, how they disfigure the glint of the steel. I think about the rusty ***** how it holds the blade and how as time passes the rust spreads and the ***** weakens.
I don’t think of how long I’ve had that knife, and in all honesty I have no recollection of how that knife came to be mine. I have no knowledge of whom it belonged to before it was mine. All I do know is the knife is here, immobile, waiting to be used.
But I am much too weak to use it. I suppose hanging would be easier. But I have no rope, my belt is fragile and my clothes of subpar quality. So all I can do is stare and wait for courage to come.
Feb 15
Feb 15, 2026 at 3:35 PM UTC
Dawn is closer now
And we set in the night sky
Not knowing our truth
Jan 31, 2024
Jan 31, 2024 at 2:08 AM UTC
I want to explore
I want to be lost
I want to run
To Feel my heart, beat,
Pounding in my chest
To live without regret
To be happy
That is what I desire
May 31, 2023
May 31, 2023 at 7:06 PM UTC
If our worlds do collide
Somewhere deep in the sky
My angel dressed in Saint Laurent
Will you call me
Will you call me
When our inner thoughts collide
Somewhere deep within the night
A fragile girl dressed all in white
Will call your name
And say her vows
Apr 25, 2023
Apr 25, 2023 at 9:55 AM UTC
Our love is a silent story
No words, no letters
Just you and I.
Apr 14, 2023
Apr 14, 2023 at 5:53 PM UTC
Rain will come as the seasons change.
Butterflies dance watching my memories fade.
Know I chase not your love, but the thought of you
A heart given away, broken and fixed with glue.
Left alone to collect dust
The shattered fragments of us.
Healing is a distant land
And I remain buried in the sand
Mar 17, 2023
Mar 17, 2023 at 6:29 PM UTC
If love is war, I'm still fighting.
If love is war, I'm still trying.
And if love is war I might be dying
Broken inside, but I won't give up the fight
Jan 30, 2023
Jan 30, 2023 at 2:21 PM UTC
Forgotten, broken, mourned.
Remembered, fixed, celebrated.
Some stay forgotten,
Some always on mind.
Some forgotten to be remembered,
And I remembered to be forgotten.
Jan 28, 2023
Jan 28, 2023 at 4:50 PM UTC
When I was little
The world felt so big,
And I so small.
But now, I am older
The world feels small
And I even smaller
Aug 25, 2022
Aug 25, 2022 at 10:57 AM UTC
I have come to realize
That everyone
Good or bad
Rich or poor
Young or old
lives in a hell of their own
Aug 25, 2022
Aug 25, 2022 at 10:49 AM UTC