winter-ace
I see your fake smile. / Because believe me darling. I know that smile. I know what it feels like to reply "I'm good" when someone ask you how you are. But not because you are good, but because you're just so used to to saying it, that you don't even think about it anymore. You don't even realize the question being asked. Your response so rehearsed it comes out with no effort. Just like that beautiful smile, darling. It breaks your heart to lie to the ones you love. It's so hard to tell them everything is perfectly fine. But even harder to tell them the truth. You don't want to be in such a vulnerable state. You can't handle that kind of pity. But you got to believe me when i tell you, darling, you are not alone. I'm here for you. I understand that reflection you see every night. That one you don't recognize anymore. That same smile that you've been wearing for years to fool everyone into thinking you're fine, has finally fooled you. Just for that split second,
I lost you, I killed you.
When you died I went with you.
you would be 17 weeks today, I seen your heart beat, I seen you move.
you would look like daddy and mommy baby.
know we love you.
I will never be the same without you.
I will always remember
I will always love you baby...
Sep 1, 2016
Sep 1, 2016 at 11:43 AM UTC
I'm never good enough for you.
Got a job,
still not good enough.
Get good grades,
Still could do better for you.
Killed myself..
finally good enough for you,
but it's to late I'm gone now.
Nov 17, 2015
Nov 17, 2015 at 2:01 PM UTC
He broke me.
Now someone new is here to pick up the pieces.
All the lies and broken promises.
I'm broken.
Will never be whole again.
Because
You broke me.
Sep 3, 2015
Sep 3, 2015 at 9:40 PM UTC
Three boys who use to be family to me. Have now become strangers to me. And the sad part you see is there each there own enemy. The fighting is stupid and you all have been ****** in to an awful future. Your life became about drugs and money that you forgot the meaning of family and love and it's sad to me. Two of you have deleted me from Facebook so you won't see this but just know I still care and it hurts to see you all killing each other over something so stupid.
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 6:40 PM UTC
Smoke this bowl
Get high
Be happy
Take a shot
Get drunk
Be happy
Being happy is the life goal
But seems an unreachable
So yet again waste the sorrows away
At the expense of your liver
Smoke this bowl
Get higher
Try to be happy
Take this shot
Get wasted
Try to be happy
No longer are you healthy
And people are worried
Your slowly dying
But people will never understand
So smoke this bowl
Get the highest
Give up and don't be happy
So take this shot
Get sloppy drunk and blackout
Give up and don't be happy
Just give up the chase for happiness
Cause when you finally find it
Your dead.
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 1:12 AM UTC
Yes, these are my choices.
lately I've been choosing the wrong ones and there hurting me.
New friends I tell myself but to find friends where you fit in and are understood is to hard to think about.
smoking, drinking, pill snorting, all this to keep you off my mind.
Well you see I'm back to wanting to die and it's all because of me.
Back to the cutting and hiding my body.
these choices are killing me faster than life can **** me.
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 7:19 PM UTC
There a pain in my *** yes, but you cant explain the love you feel for them
we may not be family by blood.
but were family by fate.
They yell at me when i **** up but they mean well.
They ****** up in their life time and can't stand to see me do the same.
these 3 boys mean the world to me and have helped me through so much
the world without them is unthinkable now
So even though we aren't blood were still family always remember that in your hearts and minds.
I will help you through thick and thin and whatever makes you happiest will be my goal to help you achieve it.
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 11:36 PM UTC
You follow me around like a little puppy dog.
Don't understand the concept of space
laugh like me, talk like me
wear all my clothes, wanna STEAL my family right from under me.
when you invite yourself over i wanna shot myself in the head
you're annoying as **** and im over this ********
**** my life no way to get rid of you obviously
So you know what just fml
Nov 7, 2014
Nov 7, 2014 at 9:47 AM UTC
I see the pain in your face.....
But the tears are in my eyes.
I see the blade in your hands....
But the cuts are on my wrist.
I see all the pain in you.....
But feel it all in me.
Nov 4, 2014
Nov 4, 2014 at 10:09 AM UTC
You said I was worthless.
That wish u could go back to the act.
And get less drunk and unsmoke that joint
Maybe I would be less of a nuceuse if I would have been born in a another life.
Different mother. And a more involved father. An a+ student and no scars on my wrist to show the pain in chest. Broken hearted and opened scars. Sometimes I think being worthless to you insisnt so bad because then sleep could be forever and life so much prettier.
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 3:32 PM UTC