for the first time
since i was 11
i look in the mirror
and i actually like whats staring back at me
i don't know why it took so long to regain
the feeling of self love
and being content with less makeup
or none
in the mirror
i wish i know what could have happened
when i started looking at my little 11 year old body
and thought i was overweight
Oh my god i'm 75 pounds?! i remember thinking
I could blame my mom
or the boys who paraded naked pictures of me
criticizing my changing body in its early stages
i was made fun of for having supple *******
the first girl in my 4th grade class to wear a padded bra
i hated it
every second of my changing body
i started to get curves
and was known for having a "big ****
and this "best friend" of mine told me she was glad she didn't have one
a boyfriend shot me down
"you can't leave me because no one will want you"
mother and step dad made fat jokes when i was 14
because i'm not obsessive compulsive with my diet
now i look in the mirror and i'm so happy
i love every curve from my arms to my ankles
and my dark brown eyes stare deep into you don't they?
grandma wasn't kidding when she said people would pay
THOUSANDS!! for these lips
and this square jawline has it's perks
i used to get paranoid when people stared at me
until i caught someone
and they told me i was beautiful
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 3:29 PM UTC
i lay down and the smell is in the air
i search for it
your scent
possibly amongst the pillows
but i can't pinpoint it
it fills me
maybe like a heroine addicts drug
on the contrary feels like the breaking seal of a water vein
everything explodes within me
all of my thoughts of you
my moans of your name
hand caressing my body
walking downtown
and your hardships
i can't believe
the simple scent
of the man i love
can bring so much out of me
that i can't fall asleep
May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 11:16 AM UTC