You were everywhere.
You were in the books I read,
You were in the songs I listened,
You were in the poems I wrote,
And you were even with me—
in my head, in my veins.
Everywhere I go,
You’re with me.
It seems impossible,
To even breathe without you.
I need you like I need cigarette at 3am.
I need you like I need coffee at 5am.
And it’s like my heart bleeding,
Knowing you don’t need me.
I'm all empty,
left bleeding by you,
who swore to love me.
But for you, I’ll bleed myself dry.
Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 4:41 AM UTC
I hate you.
I hate you for leaving.
I hate you for leaving me.
I hate you for telling me
You loved me before you left.
I hate you for taking my heart with you.
I hate you for leaving me alone.
I hate you for not telling me
When you’ll be back.
I hate you for making me wait.
I hate you for leaving doubts in my head.
I hate you.
I hate you,
Because I still love you.
Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 12:05 AM UTC
It took her
17 years to
realize that
monsters don’t
live under her bed,
but instead
within her.
It took over
Her mind.
It took over
Her body.
It was destroying her.
The pain of getting out
Of bed each and everyday
Was pushing intolerable.
It felt like she was
Shackled to the bedpost.
She felt heavy,
As if boulders were
Toppling over her.
They were the voices
In her head.
She fought the urge
To take the blade,
But eventually gave in.
She was screaming for help,
But her desperate screams were
Muffled and masked by
A forced smile and an ‘im fine’.
She was struggling to keep
Her head above the water,
But everyone was blind.
She fought the monsters,
Fought and fought,
And
Gave up.
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 5:49 AM UTC