Our babies are having babies
Cant keep their legs closed
They open their mind to a different life
Open their eyes to a different light
LED lights flash before their eyes
Little T.V. screens you cant get away from their hands. Finger tips click, click, clicking away
The only time i can feel my heartbeat is when there is red, white, and blue flashing behind our ride
I hear my heart beat thump, thump, thumping in my ears
My Hands are shaking
My voice is trembling as i try to open my mouth to tell you how i truly feel but you look at me with those blue eyes that remind me of the sky with a hint of green like the leaves on the trees we sat under when i told myself im in love with you
I feel a waterfall form in my eyes as you ask "whats the problem, officer?"
Hand on his gun
The only time i feel safe is when your hands are around my neck
Telling myself its okay
Telling myself i'll be okay
Is like lying to your mother
Im only 17 but my eyes are more wide open than your mouth is when you get the wrong phone for your birthday
Some kids dont get birthdays
Their last birthday was their first in heaven
You say you want in the game
But this game aint no game
Good Kids are getting shot over the game
You say you want in the game but all it does is make you look lame, stay in your lane
Snapchatting your 4th blunt "so lit tonight"
Snapchatting your last memory "90mph" music so loud you cant hear your thoughts
Eyes so low you cant see the truth
It lies right underneath your nose
Look up and youll find a better light
With a better life
And maybe a wife
This ice aint all that
This life aint all that
Aug 18, 2017
Aug 18, 2017 at 5:30 PM UTC
Im a hopeless romantic its more organic than the produce youre buying just to make it through the week to feed your little family. Local Walmarts cant fit your budget. Your goverment isnt hearing your thoughts. Eyes are closed. Mouths are shut. Hiding the truth so our $100 bills can wipe their **** We're stuck in a rut. Poverty stricken. Moms not in the kitchen. Kids running the streets. Killing our teens. Selling our **** Filling our minds with negative energy. CNN isnt airing my hood yet. Fox 4 only shows local teens shot dead. Little girls losing their minds, talking to men just to waste some time. Just to catch a crime. Smoking up marijuana trying to run away from their problems. Running away from home to be alone in a world we cant think for ourselves. In a world we cant think to ourselves. In a world we cant walk the streets to get a drink without being shot by the local police. 99 cents only gets you so far. I dont know whats happening; what is this world. I dont know these people; who is this girl. In a world full of aliens i feel the most unknown.
Jul 1, 2017
Jul 1, 2017 at 2:54 AM UTC
i got all this love in my heart for you but hate on my mind for you. You dont know what i would do for you. Because you is all you think about. You is what you truly care about. **** all the feelings and apologies. Because you never wanted me. You looked at other girls. Like 'oh wow, look at her' but im like 'oh wow, what a world we live in where my own mans cant keep his own eyes on me so i gotta keep my eyes on me, keep my mind on me and worry about me because nobody else will ever worry about nobody else bc everybody in this small world is conceited. Small minds wondering about. All caught up in these little tv screens. Making useless memories. Still not thinking about you and me. So, **** all the memories. **** you and **** worrying.
Apr 19, 2017
Apr 19, 2017 at 10:49 PM UTC
Memories cross my mind
Distant memories of you and i
Further and further they go and hide
In the back of my mind they stay inside
Innocent memories burn in my head
I'll probably just stay in my bed
To hide from the memories that haunt me at night
Please leave me alone, have a good day and have a good life
Feb 10, 2017
Feb 10, 2017 at 3:47 PM UTC
Some
Things are just not meant to be.
People
Will hate you for who you are and destroy you, you
Are
Important in every way, shape and form.
Toxic
People deserve to go to hell.
Jan 27, 2017
Jan 27, 2017 at 1:52 AM UTC
Blank face
No emotion
No energy
Nothing
When I heard the news
Nothing.
Suddenly,
Tears
Anger
Sadness
Depression
I threw my hands in my face
Then,
Self harm
Abuse
Drugs
Alcohol
Finally,
Happiness
Relieved
Peace
Jan 25, 2017
Jan 25, 2017 at 9:56 AM UTC
For the next girl:
When he talks to you, please listen. He doesn't open up often
When he stares at you, say what. He'll call you beautiful
When he smiles, smile back
When he kisses you, kiss back
When he hugs you, hug him tight. Don't let go
When he says he loves you, love him back
When he wants to see you, don't hesitate
For the next girl who gets to love him, please don't leave him. Love him more than anyone ever has.
Treat him better than he's been treated.
Jan 19, 2017
Jan 19, 2017 at 10:35 AM UTC
Never had a lot.
Just a lot of love and hate
No where to go but to Mary Jane
Never scared to get caught
Never worried because I got her on my side
I'm pretty worthless, not worth very much
I'm not perfect at the least
Gotta lot of love to give but hate is all I receive.
Jan 12, 2017
Jan 12, 2017 at 3:13 PM UTC
Just sad kids living in a sad world
Happy kids living in a bad world
Polluting the air i breathe
The meat i eat
The city i live in
Cant even run the streets
People dyin out here on a daily
One of these days it could be my brother, my sister, my mother,my dad or me
Dec 24, 2016
Dec 24, 2016 at 12:19 PM UTC
I read you as you look at me up and down, left to right.
Seeing my anxiety, trembling hands as I kiss you.
Saying I love you with tears in my eyes wishing we never end.
You have no worries, confident smile
Chin up as you walk.
My shoulders relax then tense up as we stop walking
Now I have to say something
Something dumb, something important.
I smile and say what
You always call me beautiful, even though I will never believe it
Thank you is what I always say. I don't want to argue about that
I just want to be alone.
I give you a light hug. No kiss but you kiss me anyways
My music gets louder, my breathing gets shorter
My hands start trembling more
Anxiety consumes me yet again
No surprise it always does
I wish I never got attached.
I wish we never end.
Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 12:28 PM UTC