there you were.
i ignored you,
but his arms around you
were so distracting.
i didnt hate you,
i just envied you.
you had what i wanted,
even after all
this time.
his arm around you,
his head tilted down to yours,
his whisper in your ear,
tearing me each time.
you had my moment,
you had my dream.
you had what could have been
my everything.
i hear the voices,
my friends warning me,
reminding me of the pain,
bringing back his words,
so i wont forget that
hes a ****
yet still i yearn,
still it hurt to watch you,
dancing there,
with him.
you swayed back and forth,
wearing my smile,
and all i could think was
you had my moment,
you had my dream.
you had what could have been
my everything.
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:40 AM UTC
The same words…
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over and over again,
over an over again…
you get the point.
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:12 AM UTC
You *****
She can talk to you?
She can trust you
or something?
You say it’s ok?
You say you know
anyway?
You know nothing.
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:08 AM UTC
venom drips
so sickly sweet
“it wont happen again”
you say
you’re sorry
you didnt mean to hurt
“it wasnt supposed to
come out that way”
as your fangs
pierce flesh
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:07 AM UTC
You know,
If you don’t know
What you’re talking about,
Don’t talk.
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:05 AM UTC
i was hoping
this time
we’d be close enough.
we felt closer.
i felt like
i could be me.
or closer to me.
but mostly i listened
to you. i listened
to you opening
and just packaged myself
the way you wanted me to be.
im sorry reality was so
disappointing.
i was hoping
our bonds would be stronger
and you wouldnt disappear
again.
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:04 AM UTC
A kiss to turn it all around
A kiss to turn me upside down
Yet a kiss to keep my feet on the ground
A kiss to turn it all around
Jul 16, 2012
Jul 16, 2012 at 12:00 AM UTC
I got lost in the “want-to-bes.”
I got lost,
Forgetting who I am
Because all I could think about
Was how I’d rather be “that girl.”
I can’t be “that girl.”
Whether she is smarter,
Thinner,
Nicer,
Beautiful…
I can never be her,
I can only be me.
So now,
I’m hoping to take on a
Healthier perspective and
Change me
Into a better self
As opposed to deleting me
and copying her
So I can be
“That girl.”
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 11:57 PM UTC
If the world were just
You & I,
I hope to God
We’d never die.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 11:15 PM UTC