this is it?
this is what we signed up for?
you told me I signed a contract on this hell I chose for myself,
you're telling me I came her willingly
an angel in disguise,
from another planet,
but I know better,
I know I was never an angel,
and don't want to be one either,
because angels do cry,
and angels do dream,
until
it all comes crashing,
because all along,
behind the veil of it all,
you already signed another contract with the devil,
and you wonder about all the uncertainty,
because there's no certainty
in black and white,
the only certainty
is grey in color
Oct 4, 2023
Oct 4, 2023 at 12:17 PM UTC
In the eyes of love,
we tear each other a part
until all that is left of us,
everything they were attracted too from the jump.
is fragmented
scattered in different roads
and haunting our dreams
Is it supposed to be like this?
Is this love or suffering?
I knew I'm in-love with you when I realized that the way I feel about is unconditional, there's nothing that you can say or do that will rid me from these feelings,
and you're watching me there, asking yourself all of sorts of questions,
and it feels so much like rejection
and you know I don't take rejections well.
Jul 24, 2023
Jul 24, 2023 at 4:36 AM UTC
i hate it here
in my head,
roaches live
inside my head
calling me
all sorts of names
wanting me
to stab my veins
i hate it here
where lays my heart
worms infested
the sinful scars
feeding into
this world of ours.
Aug 21, 2020
Aug 21, 2020 at 3:47 AM UTC
afraid to live,
afraid to sin,
afraid to drown
in a bottle of gin.
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019 at 7:30 AM UTC
I watched them colour your sorrows and paint your flaws,
you gave them the brush.
r e a l l y ?
I watched them laugh at your insecurities and ignore your loss,
you laughed along.
r e a l l y ?
I watched them flaunt your guilt and frame your shame,
you shrugged it off.
r e a l l y ?
I watched them dress you up and change your name,
you had a toast.
r e a l l y ?
Aug 15, 2019
Aug 15, 2019 at 5:53 PM UTC
life
got me
by the threads
of its eternal obscurity
asking me
urging me
to find a meaning
in the insignificance
of my existence
find a meaning
in my morning hustle
my frowning muzzle
my cowardice mask
my spending sprees
my binging eats
my clinging needs
find a meaning
to hustle for fees
to fight for beers
to do as they please
find my tranquility
in the warmth
of my mid-day tears
Jun 15, 2019
Jun 15, 2019 at 9:44 AM UTC
what do you want?
the money
the fame
the ***
the name
the brains
and a heavy pay-check?
do you want the lies
the rage
the meaningless objects?
or can you tell
it is a facade
to shame
your intellect?
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 1:35 PM UTC
the guilt
the sin
the hatred within
thinking if we disguise our hair
in an obscure form of veil
they will conceal our madness
thinking if our skin prevails
after years of stacking knitwear
they will shred our sadness
then asking us why are we so vain?
why do we masquerade our emotions to keep us sane?
when all your attempts strives to conceal what’s underneath
underneath that cloth you call a veil
underneath that skin you use for sale
the morals
the virtues
the lies you preach
It is just another mask you wish to keep
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 3:29 AM UTC
I'm yearning
for more
of your misery
to feed off,
salivating
to taste
your sorrows,
glorifying
your sinful scars,
crawling
to catch your soul
while
you brush it off
as you overdose.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 2:55 AM UTC
grace me with your sympathy,
own me with your deceitful lies,
lay beside me while you long
for someone else.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 2:51 AM UTC