Everyone was outside
They wouldn't notice if we were missing
You pushed me into the empty room
and quietly shut the door
click
The door locked
And there was no getting out
Jul 10, 2012
Jul 10, 2012 at 10:05 PM UTC
I'm the rock
At the edge of the water
Who sits there
Relentlessly
While the waves crash over me
Changing me
Wearing me
Breaking me
Until I am no more
Then I'm carried out to sea
Lost and gone forever
Jun 4, 2012
Jun 4, 2012 at 3:00 PM UTC
I like to trace the outlines of the cuts
I like to stare at what I've done
Not in awe
Not because I'm proud of it
(and trust me, I'm not)
But because it seems so surreal
When you've become dead inside
It's the last thing that lets you know
You're still human
You're not completely numb
There is still hope
You just have to keep trying
You will find it
(But I can tell you it won't be in the blood you spill)
May 28, 2012
May 28, 2012 at 12:39 AM UTC
The first time I didn't mean to make the cut
I heard dad's bedroom door open
I had the razor blade halfway apart
He couldn't see
So I fumbled
I was already shaking
and it slipped
scrape
across my thumb
The blood poured out, and I panicked
I couldn't feel anything though
It was numb
And after he left
Watching the blood pool out was....
satisfactory
I thought of everything that's gone wrong lately
And I brought up those dark feelings
After the blood ran dry
I picked up the blade
And began to hack away at my thigh
Each bit with a stinging pain
But satisfaction all the same
Relief like no other
A secret almost as dark as the one that bides me to do this
I didn't mean to fall this deep
But the blade wants more...
And I'm not one to stop it
May 27, 2012
May 27, 2012 at 3:44 AM UTC
I like to lay in the dark
Until I remember it terrifies me
I like to think of you
Until I remember that you're gone
And I like to go back to the places we used to go
Stand in the same exact places
Relive our old conversations in my mind
Until I remember you
Won't be there
And you never will be again
Oh how I messed up
May 16, 2012
May 16, 2012 at 9:19 PM UTC
I'm growing desperate
I'm reaching out
You're my last hope
Don't give up on me now
May 12, 2012
May 12, 2012 at 11:09 AM UTC
Know that what
You did is impossible to forgive, even though I still
Love you, have you
Ever thought of the pain you caused? Or the destruction you left in your wake?
May 11, 2012
May 11, 2012 at 9:48 PM UTC
It may have meant nothing to you
But those were the moments
I lived for
And to see you forget them
To see you act like they never happened
Kills me
Did I really make it that easy to be just another pretty little face in your life?
May 11, 2012
May 11, 2012 at 9:34 PM UTC
I remember a conversation we once had
Where you told me this bit of advice
'Deep down inside,
Nessa,
Everyone just wants to be loved and accepted'
Can't you just accept that I love you?
Apr 28, 2012
Apr 28, 2012 at 12:22 PM UTC
You continue to say you love me
But you and I both know the truth
You don't love me
You just love the things I do
for you
If you truly 'still loved me'
like you always claim you do
We'd still be together
But here I am
Without you
Apr 28, 2012
Apr 28, 2012 at 12:06 PM UTC