Fluorescent lights at 3 A.M.
My thighs are shaking
Your hand is on the steering wheel
My heart is racing
Everything is fast
The world is ours
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 5:16 AM UTC
I didn't believe in Heaven
until I was tucked in your arms;
breathing in the warmth radiating off you
You were the forbidden fruit
and it was too tempting to deny
I didn't believe in Hell
until I saw you with her
I danced with the devil
and doubted all demons that whispered
my darkest insecurities in my ear
Jealousy creeped in
and I sold my soul trying to keep you
but I was cheated and you left with her
leaving me beneath the ground
we once stood on together
I didn't believe in God
until I was screaming His name
at 3:27 in the morning;
praying he'd lead you back to me
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 11:48 PM UTC
I shouldn't be in the shower at 4 A.M. trying to scrub your touch from my body and your words from my head.
I shouldn't be laying in bed every night trying to find a part of me where your fingers haven't been.
I shouldn't have to watch you be happy with another soul while mine has been lost since the day you left me.
I shouldn't have to listen to my music at maximum volume trying to drown out your voice from months ago telling me you love me.
I shouldn't have had to lose you.
You should've stayed.
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 11:40 PM UTC
I called you at 1:19 A.M.
It rang for 15 seconds.
My heart skipped a beat when I heard you answer.
You hung up immediately.
Everything hurts.
I want to go home.
Sep 24, 2015
Sep 24, 2015 at 1:28 AM UTC
My presence has left your heart the way the trees lose their leaves. Slowly and silently.
6 leaves fall, representing the months you came into my life and filled my mind with wishful ideas and mindless dreams.
The rest have fallen, the lively plant now just an array of cold branches, barren to the core.
The snow begins to fall, each snowflake topping the branches one by one. It gets heavier, colder, more feeble, aching to collapse.
After what seems like forever, the thing you promised me once before, the sun shines, and the snow is melted away, along with every memory and good time we've ever had. The leaves are back, now with buds of the flowers with the potential to create something much more beautiful than was there before.
Your presence has left my heart the way the trees lose their leaves. Beautifully and liberated.
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 4:07 PM UTC
i wasn't ready for you
and i knew you weren't ready for me.
i was scared to show you the mess between my ribs and the hurricane inside my head. i was afraid you'd cower and run.
but they say time, time is the true narcotic for pain
and they were right.
because now i am more than willing to cut my heart open knowing it would only bleed your name
i am willing to tear every layer of my skin to show you what i'm made of.
everything that makes me, me.
my scars, my fears, my hopes and my dreams
my "night pieces" ; the pieces i only share with the moon.
i will show them all.
because i want you to know that i am not perfect
(i am tired of trying to be)
i am a storm beneath flesh and bones
i am made up of tiny cracks and holes that could never be filled
and they are what makes me whole.
i will be your biggest tidal wave.
but darling, if you accept me for everything that i am
and everything that i'm not,
i promise to love you like you've never been loved before.
Sep 3, 2015
Sep 3, 2015 at 11:57 PM UTC
i know i left you for my own good, but that doesn't stop me from throwing up on my bedroom floor at 4 a.m. when i think about the times you held me there and listed the reasons you loved me.
i know i said i no longer wanted you, but i sleep with your shirt in my arms every night and pretend i can still smell your scent in it.
i know i said i moved on, but my eyes don't shine anymore and my heartbeat seems to have faded to an occasional dull ache compared to the 100mph beats i experienced with you.
Aug 31, 2015
Aug 31, 2015 at 7:39 PM UTC
I hope you remember me.
And the way my perfume would stick to your clothes after hours intertwined with one another.
I hope you remember me.
And that time you had a nightmare, so I called you every hour of the night to make sure you were okay.
I hope you remember me.
And the kisses we shared with just eachother, tongues warm and hearts even warmer.
I hope you remember me.
And the red and blue flashes of police lights, the first time you ever saw me cry.
I hope you remember me.
I hope you don't forget me.
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 11:41 PM UTC
The world has stopped.
Slowing down, movement by movement.
Hummingbird heartbeats turn into dull throbs;
And the rush of blood is nothing but hollow veins.
Minds that were once full are now empty;
And the color of the universe has faded to a simple grey.
In the midst of it all, you are there.
Heart beating fast.
Blood rushing.
Mind full.
Screaming color.
Jul 10, 2015
Jul 10, 2015 at 11:07 PM UTC
Don't you remember the way you'd hold me? The way you'd laugh at me when I got angry, and the way you'd replace my tears with a smile? We used to wake up next to eachother and now I am left staring at my phone for a missed call or, at the very least, a text. The feelings are gone and have been replaced by a sort of emptiness that cannot be filled by another's soul. I believe that pieces of you are lost in the sheets that we used to intertwine ourselves in.
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 3:55 PM UTC