When I smile I try to have it reach my eyes.
When I laugh I try to make it sound real.
But there is only so much I can fake.
I wish people could wouldn't ask me if I'm okay
Because I'm tired of lying to there face.
I wish I knew why I felt like I do
I wish I could make it stop
Maybe I could feel normal again
But normal feels too far gone
Like it's there sitting in front of me
just out of reach
I try to grab it but I'm always jolted further than were I started
Maybe I should stop trying maybe then I might prevail
Maybe the thoughts will stop coming
Maybe they'll be ten times worse
I don't know if I can stop them
What if there's no hope for me
What of I'm stranded here alone
Will I dwell on my past
Or will I wonder what the future holds
What of you were there with me
Would you be my knight in shinning armor
Or would you dig me into a deeper hole
what if I asked you to save me
Would you leave me behind
Or would you save me from the dungeon in my mind
I wonder how many others are like me
A fighter fighting their own mind
Wondering what happens when they lose
Mar 12, 2018
Mar 12, 2018 at 11:29 AM UTC