
i woke up at three a.m.
my eyes wide
breathing hard and
shaking.
a sharp intake of breath
works to calm my nerves
while my fingers ache
and my hands tremble unfeeling.
i arouse my legs to wakefulness—
slide them from the warm comfort of my bed
to the piercing chill of the hard wooden floor.
coat on, feet slipped into boots;
i go for a walk
hoping that a trip ‘round the block will
calm the sudden gaping fissure inside of me.
after the door swings shut behind me,
i turn to face the unyielding darkness.
with my breath condensing into a moist cloud in front
i confront the empty street.
her tenebrous maw
snaps at my unprotected ankles;
her chill wind
cracks my lips, leaving them ******
i feel her reaching deep inside of me
grasping at where there is nothing.
when i see the ice accumulating on the neighbors’ lawns,
i realize that an under-dressed walk through the murky night
might not have been the best idea.
only then do i question why i’m here.
what i’m doing, wandering the dark corridors of our quiet suburb,
sheltered from reality.
it’s disconcerting to be lost, isn’t it?
Nov 28, 2011
Nov 28, 2011 at 12:56 AM UTC
Sh.
Bring me your broken-hearted
your downtrodden
your shattered soul
I'll wrap you in my warm embrace.
In a nepenthe of bliss,
I'll make you forget
all your sadness, troubles and worry
and wrap you snug in gentle puffs of smoke.
Let me save you.
Let me help you.
Let me make you mine.
Sep 18, 2011
Sep 18, 2011 at 10:26 PM UTC
it's one a.m. in the city
i'm sitting outside
the humid heat of the day
pressing in through the night
i sigh
and she sighs with me.
i'm perched on a ledge
with a book in my lap
a cigarette in my hand
and her on my mind.
i breathe
and she breathes with me.
all alone on this ridge
i dangle my feet off the edge
and i see lives pass by below me
i watch
and she watches with me.
Aug 9, 2011
Aug 9, 2011 at 10:17 PM UTC
Usually
When I’m feeling down, I
bust out a box of colored pencils and
bust a vein on the paper.
But now
I dig through the box,
and I just can’t find those bright colors.
I assure myself that they’re there.
I know that they’re there.
I want
I need
I beg
for them to be there.
But the deeper I dig
The more I find
blackness, darkness, jet black ebony
murky, swarthy swaths of shadowy slate
perilous, pitiless pitch
somber, sober sable
I keep digging.
Aug 9, 2011
Aug 9, 2011 at 8:01 PM UTC