You said it first
Those words I was always afraid of
You said it first
And God it scared me to death
I thought I was never enough
I was never beautiful enough
I never reached your level of class
You were a bad boy
And i was " that girl"
The fact that you said those words first
Is exactly why I could never repeat them
But you had me tangled in your Web
That you woven so easily with the feelings you thought you had for me
I was so caught up in those words
I didn't realize you were slowly slipping from my grip
I guess I was so afraid to love you
That I didn't bother to hold you tighter
I was so afraid that you loved me first
That it made me believe you weren't honest
now that you've slipped away from me
God, how I wish I could've told you
How I wish I told you I loved you
How I wish I told you that you were exactly what I wanted, needed, yearned for
How you made me feel better
How you made pain feel like joy
And now that you've slipped away from me
I only admit it to myself
I loved you Wyatt , more than anything
And it's because you loved me first
Is why I didn't tell you I loved you
Because you loved me first
I didn't think you'd ever leave.
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 9:14 AM UTC
With you I was in love with
Blinded by the endless rows of others
Believing that I was the problem
The problem was I couldn't see
Never did I realize that it was you
All this time you were the comfort I preferred
The smile I favoured
The green eyes I thought of
And the one I was in love with
I had you behind the tag " best friend"
It's not that I wanted you there
It's just I thought you belonged there
It only felt right that you were there
Then I messed up, and you left
Crushed doesn't even begin to explain it
Breathing became uneasy
Living became unbearable
And when you returned
My lungs were now fulfilled with air
Because without you I couldn't breathe
I had to tell you, so you wouldn't leave again
That's it's always been you
I've always loved just you
That your smile was my favorite
And your green orbs kept up at night
And when I finally let it slip
You sighed in relief
Because all this time you knew
It was you.
May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015 at 2:43 PM UTC