i live on a island of emotions
i swim in an ocean of depression
and even tho this wave push me and drag me down in its murky depths i still come back to this ocean
for i am its surfer
i have become dependent on this ocean
i stand on a beach of anxiety
its sand of fear of rejection pain and loneliness ***** at my feet tell i am nothing but a shadow of something that was once great
and there are people on this beach
they have this funny way of being mean but nice
but they are jerks
they scream and shout so loud to the point where i am screaming with them
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 8:19 PM UTC
Mr. moon
Insomnia makes you seem like perfect company
insomnia
Insomnia makes your warm glow a comfort I long to feel each night
As the star’s dance around you
Anxiety creep’s in
Anxiety
Anxiety holds me a hostage inside of my realty
Bending and distorting my mentality
Mr. moon
Depression runs in
depression
Believe it or not he can be nicest at times.
Sweeping me up in his arm and whispers his words in my ear
Mr. moon
they tag team me tell I’m am nothing
Tell I am but a shadow of what once were.
A chaotic beauty.
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 6:30 PM UTC
This pain is a pill that’s hard to swallow yet its become my daily perception
The pain I my medicine
My addiction my adrenaline.
And as I slid across the blade
Blood splatters dancing across the bathroom floor
Drip
Drip
Drip
They sing my song of pain
Self loathing Self hate.
i know it wrong but it feels so right
the only time i get to feel
the only time i get to heal
or so it seemed
I don’t know
i have this need to make me bleed.
but i like that pain
it makes me feel like all is forgiven
it has that kind of driven
it used to be a cry for help
but now it’s just a way to feel
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 5:28 PM UTC
the suns out
the birds are chirping
flowers bloom
after the old ones wilt
and people rise to see each other
we all bask in the light of the new day
as the night has died
its a beautiful mourning
Nov 12, 2018
Nov 12, 2018 at 9:43 AM UTC
your just as bad as every other insufferable human
god i love you
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 3:30 PM UTC
and as i look down
i see the little bit of what was left of you
burn
and as the flame gets bigger
i swear i don't cry
i laugh
but to be honest
i don't know why
maybe its because of the sick panic
of knowing your gone
and i don't know how to handle it
god i hate you for making me feel
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 3:29 PM UTC
you say my words are to emotional ,well guess what?
i
didn't
ask
to
feel
nobody did, its just something we have to deal with
so when i talk
about pain and sorrow
and love
and hope for tomorrow
don't confuse it as a cry for attention
just something for you to think about
i want you to feel my words
don't we all?
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 3:26 PM UTC
i was never one to win but that doesn't mean i'd lose
i was never one to get hurt but that doesn't mean i'm not bruised
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 11:28 AM UTC
they say time heals all wounds
thats a lie
because i have mental cuts that run so deep
pain full bruises
make it hard to breath
time hasn't helped me
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 11:20 AM UTC