*My mind is in a foggy state
when I’m waking.
Condensation leaking from
my concentration.
Can’t tell the difference,
what’s real or my imagination.
How can I keep my world from quaking
when every little thing
grows bigger and the ground starts shaking?
Conscience coincide with science.
I could never follow trends,
I’m too defiant.
Indigo until the end,
I’m too reliant.
I **** everything in silence...
You and I, a plus.
Me? Alone?
Minus*
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 12:08 PM UTC
I'm losing colors in my waters.
The fog in my brain is thickening
and I'm afraid there is a monster.
My breath is steady quickening,
what if I think I'm the imposter?
The thought of it is sickening,
but up there is a higher place
of not racing in thinking things.
With my back against an old tree,
I hope no one can find me.
If they don't understand
what's going on with me
then I can't withstand
the barriers of my sensitivity,
and the sea of regret
comes rushing rapidly.
I'm prone in the force of my zone.
I knew something was altered
when I felt it in my bones.
Stay committed and I fit in
where the normal don't belong.
There's a black sheep in my home.
It's funny how I always feel alone,
even with familiar faces
smiling through the phone.
You've felt it before,
but that'll change when I'm gone
and the mic is on the floor.
Nov 16, 2017
Nov 16, 2017 at 7:56 AM UTC
Hope below the moonlight
Invested in nonsense
Believing if there's hope
Life won't need to end
Childhood, so sweet,
put holes in my teeth
Innocent nightmares
bear cruel realities
They grow there
Hope below the moonlight
Invested in nonsense
Believing if there's hope
Passion grows, endlessly
She was wrong
Fire gets the rain
Smiles wither
Teeth rot
Empathy opens
Invites love
Invites pain
Time expedites
The threshold dips lower & lower
The balance upsets
Love disappears
Pain envelopes
Now I can't feel
Why would I
not want that?
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 11:54 AM UTC
Hear the heart cry
**** the lungs dry
I give you time
I give you sweat & blood
I give you devotion
I give you love
In offer
Bite the lip numb
Make me succumb
I give you time
I give you sweat & blood
I give you devotion
I give you love
In offer
Angels of envy
Give sacrifice
While I admire
The view from here
In quiet night
In shapeless shadow
I scry & chant
The view from here hurts.
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 11:49 AM UTC
*I️ am a lonely faucet
crying crocodile tears.
Bound to the fear
of facing my fears.
What I see ahead of me
is darkness beheading me;
any future is dead to me.
I am a zombie,
I slipped like I'm wasted
and feeling sloppy.
Currents take me to the flood
to drown me in tsunami
with my senses left behind me;
everything is dead around me.
Life can be a hex,
overdosing stress.
The moon will call
and after all,
the colony recalls.
Better on and better off.*
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 11:44 AM UTC
We are all dancers with words
together connect with a creative invisible cord
laced in a melody that plays from heart.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 2:33 AM UTC
There is an endless brutality
Mixed inside this gentle soul.
And it takes it out,
On the one most ill-suited to sustain it's relentless attacks.
To understand it requires:
A Kindred Spirit,
With an Unrequited Love...
It isn't that I feed off negativity,
I simply force myself into a dark room
and light a single candle.
I take the dark, and t̶u̶r̶n̶ ̶i̶t̶
Transform it into something else....
Entirely different from the shattered form,
Others saw it as.
Think of the earth
With all the roots
Stabbing the soil.
How they may sprout into beautiful flowers,
Given a few tears,
And the light of the sun...
But I work in the opposite way.
I live on in dreams.
Picture it, Hope.
The one emotion that seems, ever so far away.
But we cling to it!
So, I feed on Hope
............Continue,
Without it,
I will die!
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 12:40 PM UTC
*Figured you had enough
because I'm alone.
Dialing to call your bluff
but there is no tone.
You think you wanted more,
but I could've shown you more.
Figured I fell too deep
in the abyss of my dreams.
Underwater underworld,
don't wake me from sleep.
Figured that you figured me out,
but nothing's what it seems.
Prescribe me prescriptions
to bottle these emotions,
devour my devotion
and keep refills in motion.
Above the surface is dry
but underneath is an ocean.*
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 10:20 AM UTC
Tainted by the truth,
I fail before the finish line.
I fell the more I closed my eyes,
and it's the easy way
to get away, to contemplate,
is it my turn today?
To see what's left after fate
is to no longer see anyway.
Fixated,
I'm bound to the stake.
Chest ripped wide open,
here's my heart to take.
You thought love was fake
until you felt the warmth I gave,
but then it was too late.
I'm hanging by a string,
I might let go of this thing
that's been keeping me
from being me.
With no options to weigh,
I pull myself away.
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 8:54 AM UTC
Mama, where is the light?
I'm lost in my direction,
my heart beats deep in the night.
You were the only one who'd listen
but I continued to hide
behind the truth that wasn't missing.
You are gone and I'm still living
but not really living.
Nothing but pain that I've been given,
I've been driven
to the neverland of nothingness.
Mama gave her all and nothing less,
but what she left behind was all a mess.
She was here and felt pain
but still loved the same way
and that was a beautiful gift.
Only for her sake, I will never take
no one else for granted that way.
Picture waking up from a bad dream,
mama is fixing herself
something to eat.
I'm so happy she's here,
I don't want her to leave,
but she looks at me sadly
like she couldn't believe.
Only then I realized,
I'm still in a bad dream.
Oct 29, 2017
Oct 29, 2017 at 2:58 PM UTC