The attention you receive may be frustrating because it's not from the person you're craving it from, but at the same time it's flattering. It gives you a little source of happiness, even if it's temporary. That attention may cause you to start developing unwanted feelings, even if you don't believe the things that are being said to you. Even if you do everything in your power to overcome those feelings, they take over for a period of time. You can get attached to the attention you receive. But you also have to realize that the person you love is coming back. So, I've been told that I've had an empty void inside me ever since you left. I've done everything to refill it. Drugs, hooking up with various people, just to fill that void. Moral of the story, even though he believes he isn't, he's so ******* irreplaceable.
Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 1:18 AM UTC
I'm so angry with myself for letting him become my only source of pure happiness.
Something I strongly disagree with is depending on others for my own happiness.
I never have, but he walked into my life and he became so ******* special to me.
I've never felt the way I do about him, with anyone else.
He picked up my broken pieces and put them back together and when he left I shattered.
I didn't know what to do without him here so I smoked too much, I drank too much, I took too many pills. Anything to take the pain away.
But then I realized how disappointed he would be in me.
How disappointed I was in myself for letting it even remotely get this bad.
I tried my best to piece things back together. I tried so hard. But once something's shattered it can never go back to the way it was again.
Now I'm back to sitting on the floor bawling my eyes out at 2am because I'm so ******* broken.
Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 12:57 AM UTC
if drugs are so freeing then why are all my friends confined
bedrooms, bathrooms, back rooms
falling from grace in privacy
tv tells a story of an all-at-once catastrophe
but addiction looks different close up
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:25 AM UTC
Hey, my name's *******
I am here to take away your pain.
Hi! My name is Ecstasy.
I am here to take you to your destiny.
Sup, I'm heroine.
I'm the one who is supposed to take you to the room you're in.
Hello, I'm what others call wine.
I am the date who expects you to dress divine.
Heyyyy, I'm ****
I'm the one who is here for you even when you don't succeed.
Well, I'm beer.
When you've had too much of me, you can't see clear.
I'm what some refer to as Dusting.
I'm made of fumes that in most eyes, are disgusting.
What's up? I'm pills.
Take to many and for once, you'll be scared of the thrills...
Hello everyone, we are drugs.
The beautiful creations of man that gives you all the excuse that life gets better if you are under our influence. But we are here to tell the truth... You are all believing a lie, we are all guilty of numbing your brains and blinding you from reality.
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:21 AM UTC
Let's kiss in the rain
While that song *** is playing so loud
That the entire world can hear it.
(w.n.)
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:13 AM UTC
Why is my skin
a c h i n g
for you
when
everything about you
should
r e p u l s e
me?
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:12 AM UTC
Sext: do you remember what my nails felt like, digging into your back?
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:10 AM UTC
it's a lost memory
chilling, nauseating, disgruntling
the plants, the sugars
it's all gone, and even in my absence
it still haunts me
creeping, disturbing, stiffening
keeping myself stable on his current caffeine
a perfect snow tinted green
asked if he did this everyday,
he said
"often"
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:09 AM UTC
I was always told to avoid drugs at all costs,
but what about the one that brushed its fingers against my neck?
that got me addicted with words
injected itself into my bloodstream via soft, slow lips
how do I stay away from the slickest poison of all,
the poison that has poured heated breaths into my ears
left dark bruises in unseen places on my chest.
how can I avoid the hallucinogen I love most,
what do I do to avoid you?
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:06 AM UTC
how are we
supposed to ****
if I go cold every time
you put your thumb
to my lips?
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 1:04 AM UTC