I'm not good with words
I'll never be able to express how much
you mean to me
You're slowly creeping into my heart
Your smile makes me smile
and it scares me
I don't know what to do with these
feelings
I made a list of
things I want to do with you
It's hidden somewhere close to me
I'll never show it to you
Because
we'll never see each other
You've forgotten about me
A relief
You'll never find out
About how much I want to be with you
About this poem
May 4, 2020
May 4, 2020 at 2:46 PM UTC
*i think i’ve fallen in love with being in love
so when i say i’m happy to see him
maybe i’m not
maybe i just mean i’m happy to see the figment of my imagination being realized
a figment of my imagination that has kept me company for so long
maybe i feel the butterflies in my stomach when he looks at me
not because my love for him has consumed me
but because it is what i believe i am supposed to feel in a situation like this
a situation like this is not something i’m used to
unrequited love is something i’ve grown far too familiar with
i’ve gotten so accustomed to seeing ghosts come and go
it is hard to believe that one will stay and materialize in front of me
in front of me is a boy
with the kindest heart
and so much love it could rain down and flood whole cities
and intentions so pure
as pure as the first snow fall of the season
his love reminds me of that;
you never know how much you're going to get
until the sun shines through
i guess i am the sun
and i guess now what i am trying to say is
i think i’ve fallen in love with him*
Nov 23, 2016
Nov 23, 2016 at 5:07 AM UTC
i'm inside of my room
the moon is bright out
i tried to start a conversation with him
he didn't want one
i'm disappointed
he doesn't want me
my words are all wrong
they made him angry
i feel unloved
i want to see the moon
i want to see all of it
a super moon
a superhero,
bright and beautiful
nothing like me
Nov 14, 2016
Nov 14, 2016 at 7:49 AM UTC
my palms are sweaty,
they're judging.
judging me.
anxiety is creeping up on me.
always.
always.
Feb 12, 2016
Feb 12, 2016 at 2:10 AM UTC
i don't know about...
...is ruined
books are...
music is...
you were...
Feb 12, 2016
Feb 12, 2016 at 1:58 AM UTC
im frustrated at all the times
i belittled myself,
using fear and doubt as an excuse,
making me believe that i
couldn't do anything
i didnt set my mind to.
something
as simple as x+y.
and im sorry
somedays im so quiet
and also so hard to figure out.
and just like math, so am i.
one big problem to solve.
Jan 24, 2016
Jan 24, 2016 at 7:47 PM UTC
stranger
is
in
danger
lover
isn't
forever
fools
pools
nothing
no thing
Sep 5, 2015
Sep 5, 2015 at 6:24 AM UTC
horrible moments
for terrible days,
sad faces
for terrible nights,
bad weather
for terrible hearts,
******* ****
Sep 5, 2015
Sep 5, 2015 at 6:19 AM UTC