I hope you finally find what you were looking for
Because I'm lost
And no one's looking for me
May 9, 2016
May 9, 2016 at 4:40 PM UTC
Love is a concept
known to be red in hue;
an idea which fully maturated
when I bled for you.
May 9, 2016
May 9, 2016 at 4:38 PM UTC
I miss you with every particle of my being
I am burning
I am dying
I still love you and I am trying to move on
All I want is to go back in time
To one day when things were good
A day when you and I were happy
Because we made each other happy
I just want one last day
One last kiss
One last time with you in my arms
One last day where you still love me
Just one day to spend with you
By my side and in my lap
Watching movies and cuddling
And loving each other as we once did
I want to wake up from this nightmare
And call you
Tell you a story
And know you still love me
If only you still did
May 9, 2016
May 9, 2016 at 4:34 PM UTC
it's been years since I met
A guy I thought worth admiring for
Didn't realize the possible outcome
If I pursue these uncontrollable feelings
Everytime I lay & think
I would say, "Finally, I've moved on."
But it would always turned out as a lie
And let me continue anticipating things
I cannot tell that I've fully forgotten
The happiness & pain that lingered
When I was falling in love with you
What if I tell you I still am?
To you, whom I fell in love with
Always know that this mere tingling feel
Will always adore you
Even though you'll never look at me
the way you look and feel for her
Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 5:22 AM UTC
Have you ever loved someone so much
You could no longer look at them?
Afraid that if you did,
They'd catch the emotion in your eyes?
This isn't a poem like that, not really
There was no brush of fingertips and long sideways glances
He is not the sun, and I am not the earth
But we could be meant to be
He is not an angel, He does not fly on wings made of music and
He does not leave ****** footprints across golden landscapes
He is not the best thing to happen since sliced bread,
Hell, he's not even the best thing to happen to me
And yet,
Here I am writing yet another poem
About the way I don't let myself look at his eyes
And who needs more words about how arms feel like home
When it could just be that you haven't been held in a while
Who needs metaphors about butterflies
When in reality it's just an excuse for hesitation
A fallacy-filled reasoning to not take a chance
And some sick culmination of a lack of self worth
I can give you reasons that I love him,
I can give you clues that he loves me,
I can give you explanations, similes,
Excuses for why I've done nothing,
But why even bother with that?
What is the point of waxing poetic about a boy
Who I will never make a move on
And who will never make a move?
Spoiler Alert,
There isn't one.
Apr 12, 2016
Apr 12, 2016 at 5:19 AM UTC
*Some people are bound to meet each other,
but never destined to be together..
~Unknown*
We both thought that we will have a happy ending,
But it was just an "ending"
This ain't a fairy tale
I agree, that life isn't always fair
We may not be together now,
But memories of you, in my heart I still allow
As they always say,
Some people in our lives, are not meant to stay
Still, I am thankful
For I met a person like you
and experienced a once in a lifetime love
Witnessed by the sky and stars above
Our love story will forever linger in the winds
Our laughters will still echo in our minds
Our tears will still pour through the rains
And I will try to keep us, whatever remains
Even just in my memories
Apr 11, 2016
Apr 11, 2016 at 4:55 PM UTC
*I miss the laughing
I miss the talking
I miss the feelings
Which you woke in me...
I miss making memories
I miss the funny episodes
I miss hearing you talk
About all the things you love...
I keep trying to fool myself
That the one I miss
It isn't you
But no matter what my head says
Then my heart refuses to listen...
I miss your smile
I miss all the stupid things we used to do
I miss the time when I didn't cry
I miss just being with you....
I miss you being my weakness
I miss smiling like I used to
I miss when my worst sides
Comes out because of you...
My head tells me to move on
It tells me you aren't wroth it
But my heart disagrees
And it still won't listen...
I miss wondering about
How you even feel
I miss wanting to touch
I miss feeling surreal...
I miss the mess I became
When you used to be near
I miss the days out hate
When everything was unclear...
I miss not having to fool myself
Each and every day
Telling myself that my feelings
Was never even real...
I miss not having to force myself
To believe
That it's the other guy
Who I love
I hate the fact that I trick myself
To believe
That the one I miss
It isn't you...
I miss all the small things
I miss when your words sounded true
There's only this one thing I miss
And that is
You...*
Apr 5, 2016
Apr 5, 2016 at 2:13 PM UTC
*There is nothing left of you
I can see it in your eyes
Every single time
It's a fact I can't denie
The person who I thought I knew
He is gone, he died
Now you're just a stranger
Walking around with his eyes...
I lose my ground
When we're standing face to face
'Cause the person who I thought I saw
Is no longer living
He's buried in my memories
So deep that it can't be counted in feet
And I'll keep burying the memories
Until they aren't hurting me...
The boy I meet had the key
To unlock all the love trapped in me
But then you left me in pieces
Now I'm burning all the bridges
But I can't stop the tears I cry
When I think about that guy...
I got burned,
But I learned,
Now I see
That you were never real
I see nothing in your eyes
And the more I see, the less I like...
This should have been over soon
But you keep pouring salt into the wound
Every time that you come around
The pain, it blooms
The boy I loved, he died
Now I'm asking myself, Why
I'm wasting time on this unknown guy
Who only knows how to make me cry...
The hardest ones to love
Is the ones that need it the most
I'll have to remember to tell this
To the next person that I will love
'Cause I am a person
With a thousand old scars on my soul
And some of these wounds
Have just been reopened...
Could have tried to let me be
Now will you please just set me free?
So that I
Can stop hurting
Because of the memory
Which you have buried
Deep inside of me...
Though I burn another page
And though that I look the other way
Then there's still scars left on me
Why couldn't you just let me be?
I guess it's no use
Since I'm born to lose
I'm ******** up every little thing
Which I ever tried to do...
All the lies have made me colder
And the passing days have made me older
Sometimes I don't want to see your face
'Cause I can't look at you the same
The friend who died, is still on my mind
But I try to delete him, all of the time...
Don't know who you are
Don't know who you were
I don't really care
I just want to stop shedding tears
Over the guy who died
Or was he even alive?
So please leave me alone
I want the memory to be gone...
The boy I meet had the key
To unlock all the love trapped in me
But then you left me in pieces
Now I'm burning all the bridges
The person who I thought I knew
He is gone, he died
Now you're just a stranger
Walking around with his eyes...*
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 3, 2016 at 1:04 PM UTC
*you're just like
a midnight snack
. . .
not always there
when i needed*
Mar 28, 2016
Mar 28, 2016 at 4:20 PM UTC