How can something that is so good, hurt so bad?
Why is my face covered in tears?
Who knew that the jagged ridges of your other half could still cut you?
Fitting two pieces together is not as easy as it may look.
Friction is created when two objects move against each other.
But we're supposed to be moving together.
We're supposed to be together.
How can something that is so good, hurt so bad?
Why are we different, but the same?
Who was cruel enough to put all of these obstacles between us?
What is the point of these obstacles?
Why keep our love from the world?
How can something that is so good, hurt so bad?
If there is something to prove about out love, don't the tears streaming down my face prove it?
The endless conversation about us.
Is what happens next even up to us?
Do we try to take control, or leave it to Fate to bring us together?
Can we trust Fate?
If one believes and one does not, how can Fate work in our favour?
How can something that is so good, hurt so bad?
Is it supposed to feel like this?
Would it be different if He were here?
Will I ever know what I'm doing?
Will this pain ever go away?
Do I want it to?
How can something that is so good, hurt so bad?
Will He stop loving me?
Will Fate take Him away?
Will I be alone again?
Or will I end when We do?
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 2:41 AM UTC
I love the way you tell me
That I'm beautiful
I love the way you tell me
That I'm yours
I love the way you tell me
That you don't want anyone but me
You make me happy
And everyone deserves to be happy
You say you love me
And I smile
You say you care
And I know it's true
I guess it's too bad
That I've never felt that way about you
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 11:15 PM UTC
8 years strong
Where the hell did I go wrong?
Ya seemed so simple
But when I see all these people
I know, I know, I know
That you're super ****** complicated
Falling in love with a ginger was stupid
But no, I definitely didn't mean to do it
He's on fire
Oh he's burning up this place
He's on fire
Oh you can see it on his face
And all that I
Wanna do
Is be burned by you
It's always
Been clear
To me
That you would never
Truly see
That I could be
Your one and only
And I can't
*******
Believe
That you're really
Bout to leave
He's on fire
My world is crumbling down
Yeah, he's on fire
My heart begins to pound
Cause he's on fire
And all I need is to be
Burned by you
You look at me
With those light blue eyes
Only I can see how bright they shine
If only you'd let me harness that light
Oh he's on fire
Yeah, my heart is ashes
He's on fire
And the flames they feel so good
Cause he's on fire
And you've burned me to the ground
I never thought it'd happen
But I've finally been
Burned by you
8 years strong
This has always been so wrong
Deluding myself to believe in something
That simply wasn't there
And now that you're leaving
Maybe my burns can start to heal
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 11:13 PM UTC
Love
I was born with so much love
So much love to give
My heart was too big
So easy to break
I look here
I look there
Trying to get rid of some of this love
That I had to spare
But no one was there
And then I met you
I was all alone
Just sitting on my bed at home
Searching through my phone
Hoping to send you my love
Why couldn't you have just loved me back?
Was it so much to ask?
Because all I wanted to do
Was hold on to you
I was all alone
Just sitting on my bed at home
Searching through my phone
Hoping to send you my love
And now I see
That you never could have loved me
And I understand
Why you can't bear to be my friend
But that doesn't mean I'm gonna stop loving you
I am still all alone
Sitting on my bed at home
Searching through my phone
Just wishing that you hadn't given up on me
Apr 18, 2015
Apr 18, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
It's like I'm trapped in my head
So many thoughts running through
Happy, sad, deep, shallow
Who the **** knows
I'm going crazy
And no one understands
No one knows how I feel
Oh please get real
You're insignificant
You don't matter in the long run
Be extraordinary
But there's not point
You can be extraordinary and still have no
one understand at all
Nothing will fix you
No one can fix you
Deal with loneliness now
Because it's your perpetual state
Discover who you are
Don't go too far
Your thoughts will protect you
But they're the things that make me blue
Nothing makes sense
Everything will make sense
Someday they say
But if I wait for that day
And I hope and pray
Will the orchestra really start to play
The clear notes that can explain away
All of the problems that plague me today
I hate myself
Could I be more selfish
Could I be more of a hypocrite
Criticising others like taking a hit
Getting high off of bullying others
I sit here looking at my little brother
He thinks he knows all
Well so do I
I wonder what he thinks
As he watches me cry
Is life one fluid movement?
Or some sort of line graph
I do know that life is full of judgment
And to always try to laugh
I think it's moments like these
Where I don't know if I'm ecstatic or depressed
That my mind is truly at its best
My brain's a train
And my fingers run alongside
I'm trying to get these thoughts from in to the outside
But they go too fast
Now they're in the past
I can't think straight
I wish I could make them wait
Apr 18, 2015
Apr 18, 2015 at 2:05 PM UTC
Obedience and defiance are so **** cliché
It reminds me of something all our teachers like to say
"Think OUTSIDE THE BOX"
What box??
Have I gone blind?
Did my originality get forgotten, all alone and left behind
NO
It's not a bad thing not to see
The 'box' is something used to control both you and me
May 2, 2014
May 2, 2014 at 10:05 PM UTC
the pain behind your eyes is deep
but not so deep that it can't be healed
if only you'd let me in
it's obvious
you think no one could understand
but i do
more than you will ever know
please
please
let me heal your wounds with words
you're going to fall apart soon
but you really don't have to
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 5:06 PM UTC
you may forget for a moment
a moment
but it always
always
always
will come back to haunt you
like a tidal wave
it comes crashing down
the memories filled with disappointment and longing
all you want is one more moment
just one more is all it would take
but life is unforgiving
there's no moment for you to take
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 5:04 PM UTC
all I ever do any more is fall down
down
down
we're all crumbling inside, always
one step forward two steps back
one step forward two steps back
two steps back
the sound of chiseling away the stone that you've used to build your walls
the walls that were supposed to protect you
these walls you've worked so hard to build to withstand the storm
and yet there will always be something strong enough to tear them down just around the corner
one step forward
two steps back
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 5:04 PM UTC
you're a tumour in the pit of my stomach
so small and benign at first
but you grew
and grew
until you reached my heart
you encompassed me with your poison and wouldn't leave me be
so I had to cut you out completely
because right now I have to worry about me
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 5:02 PM UTC