theresa-anne - Hello Poetry

No, please no. I don't want to be depressed again. It's all my fault. and I'm sorry. I couldn't control it I guess. It's just how it is. Maybe this is just how it is here. doesn't seem to be for anyone else tho. I guess I just don't belong here for long. I miss everything and everyone. I don't want to be depressed again, not again. I've beaten this so many times, more times than not. God, I need your help. please, help. I can't do this.

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Sep 7, 2016

Sep 7, 2016 at 2:33 PM UTC

9/7/16

No, please no. I don't want to be depressed again. It's all my fault. and I'm sorry. I couldn't control it I guess. It's just how it is. Maybe this is just how it is here. doesn't seem to be for anyone else tho. I guess I just don't belong here for long. I miss everything and everyone. I don't want to be depressed again, not again. I've beaten this so many times, more times than not. God, I need your help. please, help. I can't do this.

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Before he came along I didn't believe in love anymore. I had been betrayed too many times. I was completely fine being separate from love. But then he started showing me over time that what I had experienced before wasn't love. It was false. It was weak. It only wanted to use me. He showed me he was different... he actually cares about my heart, he puts me first even when he could choose to think of himself. He loves me so well and I love him back. It took me a long time to find him, but he was worth the wait and the other pain. For if I had not been betrayed by false lovers I would have never found my true love. I'm thankful for everything that has led to this, to him.

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Apr 4, 2015

Apr 4, 2015 at 1:14 AM UTC

Then and Now

Before he came along I didn't believe in love anymore. I had been betrayed too many times. I was completely fine being separate from love. But then he started showing me over time that what I had experienced before wasn't love. It was false. It was weak. It only wanted to use me. He showed me he was different... he actually cares about my heart, he puts me first even when he could choose to think of himself. He loves me so well and I love him back. It took me a long time to find him, but he was worth the wait and the other pain. For if I had not been betrayed by false lovers I would have never found my true love. I'm thankful for everything that has led to this, to him.

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**Learning to see the beauty through the darkened rain. Feel the peace of the storm as it washes everything from me. Closing my eyes and feeling the drops on my eyelids as my tears get mixed in. Letting the hurricane take away my weakness in order to make me stronger. Making me bare, only my bones are seen through the downpour of rain. I will trust you Lord for you are King of the skies that bring the storms. As I become weak you become my only strength. I will trust you for you're all that is faithful and true.**

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Jan 20, 2015

Jan 20, 2015 at 12:13 AM UTC

Beautiful Storms and Bare Bones

**Learning to see the beauty through the darkened rain. Feel the peace of the storm as it washes everything from me. Closing my eyes and feeling the drops on my eyelids as my tears get mixed in. Letting the hurricane take away my weakness in order to make me stronger. Making me bare, only my bones are seen through the downpour of rain. I will trust you Lord for you are King of the skies that bring the storms. As I become weak you become my only strength. I will trust you for you're all that is faithful and true.**

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She covered her ears and focused on her deep breathing. The sound of her lungs expanding and the air leaving through her clenched teeth. Trying to drown out the sound of all of them screaming. The vile words echoing on the wooden floors of the house. She just wanted it all to stop. So she kept breathing, surrounding herself with the sound of the inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. Just Keep B r e a t h i n g

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Jan 19, 2015

Jan 19, 2015 at 11:57 PM UTC

Breath

She covered her ears and focused on her deep breathing. The sound of her lungs expanding and the air leaving through her clenched teeth. Trying to drown out the sound of all of them screaming. The vile words echoing on the wooden floors of the house. She just wanted it all to stop. So she kept breathing, surrounding herself with the sound of the inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. Just Keep B r e a t h i n g

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She jumps into the freezing water, Goes under and sits on the bottom. If she just screams it out, Will she feel release? Wondering if the water that comes into her lungs will numb the pain. Washing over her till she can’t feel it anymore. How do you release something that swallows you from the inside out? Slowly taking over everything Bit By Bit. She opens her eyes and dives up for the surface. Catching her breath in gulps. Wondering if only she got enough air, would it stop the drowning inside. Would it ever stop. She needed strength to fight it. But her strength was dying out. She needed her savior, She needed love again to save her.

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Nov 21, 2014

Nov 21, 2014 at 4:24 PM UTC

Liquid Fears

She jumps into the freezing water, Goes under and sits on the bottom. If she just screams it out, Will she feel release? Wondering if the water that comes into her lungs will numb the pain. Washing over her till she can’t feel it anymore. How do you release something that swallows you from the inside out? Slowly taking over everything Bit By Bit. She opens her eyes and dives up for the surface. Catching her breath in gulps. Wondering if only she got enough air, would it stop the drowning inside. Would it ever stop. She needed strength to fight it. But her strength was dying out. She needed her savior, She needed love again to save her.

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I miss your hand in mine, Oh the sweet sublime. The warmth that races through my being, Electricity igniting, The flame of love in our hearts.

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Jul 23, 2014

Jul 23, 2014 at 11:45 AM UTC

Ignition

I miss your hand in mine, Oh the sweet sublime. The warmth that races through my being, Electricity igniting, The flame of love in our hearts.

5

Life is full of adventures, I just have to learn how to keep putting one foot in front of the other, breath, and realize it never looks easy.

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Jul 18, 2014

Jul 18, 2014 at 3:32 AM UTC

Times of change.

Life is full of adventures, I just have to learn how to keep putting one foot in front of the other, breath, and realize it never looks easy.

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You whisper the words, I hold them inside my being. My heart explodes, For the meaning. Meaning, Of love. To hear those words, Spoken from your lips, Those words, Meant to touch my soul. They travel through my ears, Down to my heart, Warming my body on their way. " I'm in love with you " Those simple words you say. Create in me, E l e c t r i c i t y .

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Jul 18, 2014

Jul 18, 2014 at 2:37 AM UTC

Simple Words.

You whisper the words, I hold them inside my being. My heart explodes, For the meaning. Meaning, Of love. To hear those words, Spoken from your lips, Those words, Meant to touch my soul. They travel through my ears, Down to my heart, Warming my body on their way. " I'm in love with you " Those simple words you say. Create in me, E l e c t r i c i t y .

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Yes, I am falling in love with you. At first I did not realize why I was feeling this feeling, But now I know, I am growing in love with you. Why? Don’t ask me why, For all I can reply with is ‘Why not?’ I could stand by you, No, you’re not perfect. You’ll never be. But I’m not a perfect me, So let’s be an imperfect harmony I’ll love you with a love I don’t understand. Yet it will all make sense.

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Jul 16, 2014

Jul 16, 2014 at 9:50 PM UTC

Realization of The Heart

Yes, I am falling in love with you. At first I did not realize why I was feeling this feeling, But now I know, I am growing in love with you. Why? Don’t ask me why, For all I can reply with is ‘Why not?’ I could stand by you, No, you’re not perfect. You’ll never be. But I’m not a perfect me, So let’s be an imperfect harmony I’ll love you with a love I don’t understand. Yet it will all make sense.

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The branches of the trees above, Writing on the sky. Writing wonder to the clouds, And the stars at night. Whispering sways through the wind that is blown, Murmurings of the world, through the wind it is carried, All this, the sound of sweet beauty. Oh, she watched in wonder.

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Jul 16, 2014

Jul 16, 2014 at 9:48 PM UTC

Gazing

The branches of the trees above, Writing on the sky. Writing wonder to the clouds, And the stars at night. Whispering sways through the wind that is blown, Murmurings of the world, through the wind it is carried, All this, the sound of sweet beauty. Oh, she watched in wonder.

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