No,
please no.
I don't want to be depressed again.
It's all my fault.
and I'm sorry.
I couldn't control it I guess.
It's just how it is.
Maybe this is just how it is here.
doesn't seem to be for anyone else tho.
I guess I just don't belong here for long.
I miss everything and everyone.
I don't want to be depressed again,
not again.
I've beaten this so many times,
more times than not.
God, I need your help.
please, help.
I can't do this.
Sep 7, 2016
Sep 7, 2016 at 2:33 PM UTC
Before he came along I didn't believe in love anymore.
I had been betrayed too many times.
I was completely fine being separate from love.
But then he started showing me over time that what I had experienced before wasn't love.
It was false.
It was weak.
It only wanted to use me.
He showed me he was different...
he actually cares about my heart, he puts me first even when he could choose to think of himself.
He loves me so well and I love him back.
It took me a long time to find him, but he was worth the wait and the other pain.
For if I had not been betrayed by false lovers I would have never found my true love.
I'm thankful for everything that has led to this, to him.
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 1:14 AM UTC
**Learning to see the beauty through the darkened rain.
Feel the peace of the storm as it washes everything from me.
Closing my eyes and feeling the drops on my eyelids as my tears get mixed in.
Letting the hurricane take away my weakness in order to make me stronger. Making me bare, only my bones are seen through the downpour of rain.
I will trust you Lord for you are King of the skies that bring the storms. As I become weak you become my only strength. I will trust you for you're all that is faithful and true.**
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 12:13 AM UTC
She covered her ears and focused on her deep breathing. The sound of her lungs expanding and the air leaving through her clenched teeth. Trying to drown out the sound of all of them screaming. The vile words echoing on the wooden floors of the house. She just wanted it all to stop. So she kept breathing, surrounding herself with the sound of the inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale.
Just
Keep
B r e a t h i n g
Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 11:57 PM UTC
when you read this, let this not be a bitter reminder, but a glimpse on who I will be.
This will not be the last you hear from me,
for I'll always be there for you.
I changed and aged into someone better,
not because I chose to, but because I had you in my corner. My life differs than that it was a year ago, and you're to thanks.
Even though we have drifted apart, and the situation we are in will always destroy me in the inside. But I'll still be kicking and screaming, for I am alive.
So when you read this, let this not be a bitter reminder of our times spent together, but a glimpse on who I am, Who I was, and who I will be. And hopefully down the road, this will not be a bitter reminder to me on who we where, what we had, but, hopefully, as I pray everyday, what we will be..
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 5:05 PM UTC
~
I prayed for light, He sent me sun
I prayed for moisture, He sent me dew
I prayed for beauty, He sent me flowers
I prayed for love, He sent me you
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 4:47 PM UTC
Here comes the Anxietea.
Best
Gulp
It
down.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 4:36 PM UTC
so full of hate
yet
so full of love
she has broken through the barriers of reality
she has yielded to the standards of society
she has fought
she is a warrior
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 4:28 PM UTC