People get high to past time,
That was the world I lived by
But without the juice, we all can't hang loose
Or is it the juice speaking and not me,
Whose to choose?
We all have our own escape
Our own world that we live in
Some layers thicker than others
But who was i before I
Walked in this sphere that I've build
After the membrane has come off,
Who's that guy in the mirror?
Who's that dude, I screamed in my head telling myself I'm not this dude.
Being so unsure about the inside slowly started to matter,
Till I've met you.
You can change the outer package,
Period. That's not how it's designed.
For all these times I've learnt,
Never to go against any system I can confirm.
But what I've learnt ,
Is that we create our own system,
To fight back!
We can never win the system but we can always create a new one, entity against entity, I think that's fair
Like apple to Apple
But who really cares?
Sep 6, 2019
Sep 6, 2019 at 2:15 PM UTC
Being lost in time, not staring at a screen,
Communications might be what we majored in.
Never have I felt, things with anybody else.
Even after putting myself out there, I've never felt so comfortable being around somebody.
Lied to myself I didn't , all I wished was to see you smile.
I'm scared to say, show, and shun away most of the days
I want to know how's your day,
But day after day, I hope I'm not bothering you. You seemed to have so much on your plate, sometimes I hesitate. You've done so much I don't know who else could handled it.
From hospitals rooms to tight hugs with waves crashing on your tee, bro you've done it!
I believe time will tell, what the future awaits, if I'm not the lucky one that ************ better appreciate,
I'm sick and tired of seeing you being treated like this, don't make my heart dissapate.
Starting this thinking it would be short and sweet, but there's so much I wanna say and do, when I think about you.
Till the day I've grown to be a better person, only than I'll have the courage to ask for your hand. Till than I hope you find a better man.
Till than, let's see where this journey ends. For once I'm looking forward to something that excites me.
:')
Aug 12, 2019
Aug 12, 2019 at 3:15 PM UTC
why do you think,
that you deserve nice things,
blinks and things
things on your plate
things to bring out
things to get high...
why the ****
am i taking it for granted
why the ****
must my brain work this way
to just wanna get so ******* high
its a trap to grow up i always say
but its my mistake
for doing better than this state
**** this imma **** this all
always somewhere here and there,
neither nor,
what the **** do i want?
take care and god bless me
for if there is a god out there
seeing all my ******** and troubles,
do the job faster
the faster the better
bc i believe we should have a chat
before i start negating all man kind
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 11:16 AM UTC
Control your thoughts and emotions,
The last thing I thought I could control.
Through the ups and downs,
Been way up,
And now this low.
One major step back,
Plunges me down into this well.
What can I ever do,
To be up there,
Smiling and giggling,
Like I really mean it.
Always saying to love yourself before you could love others,
But do I even love myself,
To be saying all of this?
Therefore let bygones be bygones,
And fill the soul with something else except *****
If not I'll be sleeping in my parents basement,
Worse still,
Their storage room.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 11:11 AM UTC
everybody be spitting ****
saying this done and that done
but what is really done
is the damage done.
they say 'once u popped, you never stop'
even tilll X's death
popped bombs day in and out
going out the back door
getting popped in front.
pop drop thud
out cold on the floor
wishing the day to come sooner
to visit him 3 feet under.
but what struck me the most,
was that he was even dead before he died,
like many of us,
we are just living off borrowed time.
in so many ways i relate,
hopefully not anymore,
as i hope and wish
i will find something sooner
this ***** gonna **** me for sure
but if i die with a xan on my tongue,
stone me to death fight me even when im down.
with all said and done
x's gonna see me sooner,
gonna give him my supplier
if he has none.
im done.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 11:10 AM UTC
They said many thing
Things that sometimes meant something.
But never did i regret not listening to them,
Even after that have worked.
The drugs always worked
They are a lying through their teeth,
They got methods of getting you back.
But once i get back on my feet,
Im saying **** u,
Im no longer in your grip.
But for now i stand defeated,
Knowing the extreme,
When will it be my turn
To turn my head
And say **** you,
IM CLEAN
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 7:02 AM UTC
219 people out of the 100,000 in my country get incarcerated,
for searching and exploring,
the higher mind.
even the president hunts,
and try to achieve,
but failed miserably,
at the expense of the country.
some chose bills,
some chose pills,
but for now,
i chose to ****
bc its either,
to get killed,
or be killed,
But for now, i'm gonna chase
THE HIGHER MIND
Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 3:58 PM UTC
paying homage,
to the days on replay,
paying homage,
by turning up in the morning.
being up in here,
looking like a funeral,
party of one,
coffin for one.
Wrap this up for me,
before i visit another one.
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 10:30 PM UTC
Take me to a place
To a fantasy
Where there is only you and me
Sparking up a King Kong finger
Under the palm tree
Bozing to our hearts content
Listen to the wave
Because I wanna get as high with you
Till everything
Came crashing
Like the waves
That eventually destroys the beach
And now underneath that palm tree
Stay under there
Because like the waves
You destroyed me
Sep 11, 2017
Sep 11, 2017 at 9:59 AM UTC
We came
We saw
We conquer
I left
They stayed
I suffered
Cleaning the inside,
Funnelling it outside
Nobody cared
Except those that stayed
Never bite the hand
That served you food
And now I'm grateful
For those that smiled
And gracefully told me
To stand up
Sep 5, 2017
Sep 5, 2017 at 7:36 AM UTC