I don't quite know how you did it
But I remember it so well.
On a spring morning
In May
You saw me sitting alone at the coffee shop
You took a seat at my table and drank my coffee
Pulled me out of my chair and said
I want to be able to say that I went
On an adventure with a beautiful broken mystery
Like you.
Dazed I was, you made me
Tagged along, I always was quite awkward
But there was a sparkle in your eyes
That reminded me of my father's
Oldest scotch at the back of the liquor cabinet.
Instead of sweeping me off my feet
you tripped me up and gave yourself
the excuse to pick me up again
and the smirk and the sparkle
and the roughness of your hands confused me.
And when you rolled up your maps
And packed up your compass
And left me stranded in the jungle,
I realised I should have known
That the sparkle in your eye was dangerous.
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 3:11 PM UTC
This world isn't exactly what my heart expected
The only thing that makes sense is you
Even though I don't understand us
I just want you to stand so close to me
That you might become me.
These feelings aren't anything I've ever felt before
The only thing that doesn't surprise me is you
Even though I can't comprehend it
I just need you to take the life out of me
I promise I'll enjoy it.
You light a fire in me I've never seen before
The one thing that keeps me sane
Yet you're driving me crazy
With every breath that you take
I want you to take mine away.
I just want you
To do me no good
And you look like you could
Please can you just
Burn me from the inside out?
Feb 20, 2014
Feb 20, 2014 at 12:35 PM UTC
Your lies attract me like sugar
for flies
Your lies astound me like silk
covered thighs
Your lies make me lust like
wanton women's sighs
Your lies are the embodiment of all
that I despise
Your lies are sexier
Than the galaxies eyes
Your lies I will drink like water
from the skies
Your lies collect like children waiting
to be baptized
Your lies get me drunk, leaving me
With red eyes
Your lies promise me
with goodbyes and compromise
Yet like the sunrise
Unpredictable
Snake eyes- Beautiful, but untrustworthy
Lie to me again, please, it gets me high
I just want you to break me
And it seems like your lies could.
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 1:16 PM UTC
All my stuffs in boxes
Waiting for the pick up truck to come
And take it to a boat
On a sea
to a different continent.
Your picture is in a special box
Labelled "Fragile"
Like your soul.
Your clothes are in another box
Labelled "personal"
Because you never did like
People going through your things.
I remember grieving
For the loss of our love
Because you never could give
Me the key to the box
In which you kept your heart.
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 1:04 PM UTC
Standing side by side
Your fingers next to mine
Your hands are like a guide
To the unknown.
Your finger moves
You are oblivious
I'm watching the grooves
Of the banister.
Your finger touches mine
I gasp
Your eyes find the blush line
On my face.
You don't realise
You smile
What I've sacrificed
To be in love with you.
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 1:01 PM UTC
I want to be a child
Picking daisies
And running
And falling on the floor.
I want to be a child
Yearning for attention
Dancing around the living room
On my father's weathered toes.
I want to be a child
Trusting
Fearless
Ignorant.
I want to be a child
I want to love again
With the eagerness of a doe
Bouncing around playfully.
But I can't be a child
Because you broke me
And my pieces
Will not wield to me
Anymore.
Rather, they wield to you,
Waiting for their owner to
Return and fix them
Back to basics.
Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 10:31 AM UTC
I was driving along the M4
Mind wandering when I saw
The Chrysler 300C
That you used to drive.
I remember walking past the car
Every morning
And dreading seeing you
And falling for you again.
But today was different
There was no pain
No memories cutting my mind
Missing you.
I was numb
Body and soul turning blue
Choking on my regrets.
Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 10:26 AM UTC
Whilst walking down the road
Towards the car
Memories in my mind
I saw you
I'm not in love with you
You ruined me for love, I think
But I still can't get you out of me
You're under my skin.
Like a tattoo etched in youth
Regretted later, skin stretching
You won't ever leave me
I can't get you off.
I hate you
It's not fair because sometimes
You don't know what you're up to
You don't see what you do to me
Once upon a time, I could have loved you
With everything I could have given
And I would have given
Everything
But now you took it, stole it
bandit, thief
You're running away with my broken pieces
You don't even know you have them
But be careful, sweetheart
The thing about people
With broken pieces
Is that you ought to be careful
Broken pieces are beautiful
They glimmer in the sun
Shards twinkle
But they cut deep.
So heed me
And take care
Do not cut yourself
On the broken pieces
Of what is left of me
Just keep running.
Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 10:23 AM UTC
Like riding a bike after a painful fall
I know it's going to hurt
But I get back on that bike again and I
I find it hurts again
Where I had gotten my hopes up I see now
That it wouldn't happen
That everything would always hurt as much
As it did the last time
And it would continue to do so until
I gave up.
Apr 19, 2013
Apr 19, 2013 at 12:42 PM UTC
Once, I used to wait up all night
To talk to you
And we'd talk alright
And we'd mend ourselves.
Once, I used to pride myself in
Saying you were mine
And you would nod and agree
And we were mending ourselves.
Once, I left
And you left
And we tried so, so hard to keep it
But we knew we were losing it
Inside, we knew
But neither of us said what we were fearing
We just mended ourselves.
Once, I left
And I changed.
And I was so afraid you weren't
Going to love this new me
So I avoided you like the rain does the Sahara
And I mended myself.
Now I feel so guilty!
Because I know you're hurting
And I can't help but
Want to talk to you but
I can't do it, I can't do it, I can't
Do it
I can't talk to you.
And don't you dare think that
I don't feel guilty
Because trust me I can see your
Messages
IM's
Notifications
And I have to sit there and
Watch them go off!
But I can't talk to you.
Because I was scared
And now
I'm cold.
Apr 5, 2013
Apr 5, 2013 at 11:44 AM UTC