My demons haven't been kind to me again.
They wake me up after 5am
And play me the fool.
I can see you kissing another man.
And my heart rips in two.
Because I wasn't good enough.
And I end up crying myself to tears.
For stupid reasons I can't control.
Only because I am vulnerable.
I just feel that I've pushed you away.
With my clingy ways and fears.
I just loved the days
We spent together.
Is that a crime?
I dont want it to go away.
Please dont go astray....
Am i being obsessed?
Or do I care so much
That im losing my god **** mind.
Are these feelings valid?
Or am I kidding myself.
And killing time with sorrow.
I guess some things never change.
Them before me. Her before me.
Whatever makes their day.
Im probably better off alone.
"Love yourself" they always say.
Love yourself, fight another day.
And I end up crying myself to tears.
For stupid reasons I can't control.
Only because I am vulnerable.
I just feel that I've pushed you away.
With my clingy ways and fears.
I just loved the days
We spent together.
Is that a crime?
I dont want it to go away.
Please dont go astray....
I love you.
Please...
Dont go astray....
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 10:09 AM UTC
.
My mind is infected with thoughts of you
Poisoned with the idea of your ghost
People are faceless, now that I've seen you
Their traits, to your charm, have gone lost
.
Apr 3, 2015
Apr 3, 2015 at 8:49 AM UTC
If you dont want to talk to me anymore Then just...
Tell me.
I mean I know we just met and all
I'm new to all this,
But you can't just leave me
In the dark....
Cause I worry.
I lose sleep.
I care.
I dont know if I scared you off
Or weirded you out
Or said something rude or wrong.
I had a really great time Wednesday.
With you.
And for the first time in a while
With you, I didn't feel alone.
But if you don't want to talk to me anymore,
Just tell me.
Mar 1, 2015
Mar 1, 2015 at 3:41 AM UTC
Its been too long.
Too long since I've felt this...
This feeling in my chest.
In my heart no doubt.
A desire. A crave.
To be with her again.
It was only a day.
It was only a day!
This feeling now bleeds
and burns within me.
The silence is years of torture.
My fingers ache to communicate...
But I must retrain myself....
Am I insane?
Am I sick?
Perhaps...
But thing that is certain.
I want to see her again.
I want to hear her laugh.
Her smile, her presence.
Its been too long...
Feb 20, 2015
Feb 20, 2015 at 10:31 AM UTC
I don't want to leave here
Forever feels so much more safer
Than moving forward
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 10:44 AM UTC
"In my room, the darkness stirs
A dim light to my eyes.
As time flies.
Is there no end to the abyss I live in?
The loneliness that craves my existence?
The lips that will never touch my own.
Yet the thought pangs my heart to no end.
To no end!
In my room, the darkness stirs
The dim light fades
As time flies"
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 9:44 PM UTC
I am tired
So make me forget
Take my breath away
And engloutie moi
**** d'ici
**** de tout
Take me away
C'est que je suis en détresse
And everything makes me feel heavy
Take my breath away
Make me feel small
I don't like these feelings
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 12:11 PM UTC
What it is
And what is not
Is what it is
And what is not
Can you be both?
Can you be none?
Can you be all?
Can you be not?
-
¿nʇ sǝ ןǝnb ǝן
¿nʇ sǝ ןǝnbǝן
sɐd ʇsǝ,u ınb sıɐɯ
ʇsǝ ınb ǝɹʇê un
ǝɯâ ǝun ʇǝ
sdɹoɔ un ǝɹʇuǝ
ǝuuosɹǝd ʇǝ snoʇ ǝɹʇuǝ
uǝıɹ un ʇǝ ʇnoʇ un ǝɹʇuǝ
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 12:03 PM UTC
"Ignore her" he said.
It was how this society reacts
"When someone isn't of interest to you."
Ignore her. Yeah.
I know how it feels.
To be pushed away without a chance
Or led into the dark and abandoned.
And when I get the power to do so...
When a girl overwhelms me with love
And I just cant....
In the end its inevitable.
Someone will get hurt either way.
And im supposed to live with that?
Until I forget?
Until it happens again?
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 11:52 AM UTC