the-black-beast - Hello Poetry

I worked to earn enough to live. That was the purpose of my life. There was no plan of having kids. There was no way I'd find a wife. When life got dark, I felt at home. The thought of friendship made me hide. I didn't have the strength to thrive With dread and fear there, side by side. I never really loved myself. I never valued what was me. Day by day I soldiered on, With no-one there to hear my plea. I'd barely eat. I'd always stray. I'd be on xbox through the day. My only wish. The price I'd pay. To earn the right to pass away. The emphasis of where I was, Is crucial that I name. It's not to bring you sadness, And it's not to bring me shame. When I look back, I see the boy, Who had no earthly plan. But that was all before we met, And you brought out the man. You saw the strength inside me, That I'd lost so long ago. You shared with me your future, And you taught me how to grow. You saw that boy and broke the chain. You showed me I had more to gain. You brought a calmness to my brain, And brought an end to years of pain. You stoked the flame inside me, Using embers of your own. And now I feel your presence, Even when I'm all alone. I feel the fingerprints you left, Upon that broken boy. I see them in the gifts I give, And when I'm feeling joy. And when I'm feeling sadness, I feel their presence, too. 'Cause now, I have a future, And the strength to see it through. These parts of me, I now adore. The ones I hid away before. I see your presence more and more. A truth in me I won't ignore. I find that now, when I look back, I no longer feel numb. I see the changes in my life, And know there's more to come. I'm working on my openness. I'm letting my voice speak. I have more confidence each day, To stand in pride, not sneak. I'm starting conversations now. I'm letting people in. I'm going out for drinks each month, And don't feel trapped within. Today, you think that I am great. To that, I say, "Oh, just you wait." Because of you, I won't stagnate. I'll live the life you helped create.

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4d ago

May 30, 2026 at 11:15 PM UTC

the-black-beast

Part III - The Fire

I worked to earn enough to live. That was the purpose of my life. There was no plan of having kids. There was no way I'd find a wife. When life got dark, I felt at home. The thought of friendship made me hide. I didn't have the strength to thrive With dread and fear there, side by side. I never really loved myself. I never valued what was me. Day by day I soldiered on, With no-one there to hear my plea. I'd barely eat. I'd always stray. I'd be on xbox through the day. My only wish. The price I'd pay. To earn the right to pass away. The emphasis of where I was, Is crucial that I name. It's not to bring you sadness, And it's not to bring me shame. When I look back, I see the boy, Who had no earthly plan. But that was all before we met, And you brought out the man. You saw the strength inside me, That I'd lost so long ago. You shared with me your future, And you taught me how to grow. You saw that boy and broke the chain. You showed me I had more to gain. You brought a calmness to my brain, And brought an end to years of pain. You stoked the flame inside me, Using embers of your own. And now I feel your presence, Even when I'm all alone. I feel the fingerprints you left, Upon that broken boy. I see them in the gifts I give, And when I'm feeling joy. And when I'm feeling sadness, I feel their presence, too. 'Cause now, I have a future, And the strength to see it through. These parts of me, I now adore. The ones I hid away before. I see your presence more and more. A truth in me I won't ignore. I find that now, when I look back, I no longer feel numb. I see the changes in my life, And know there's more to come. I'm working on my openness. I'm letting my voice speak. I have more confidence each day, To stand in pride, not sneak. I'm starting conversations now. I'm letting people in. I'm going out for drinks each month, And don't feel trapped within. Today, you think that I am great. To that, I say, "Oh, just you wait." Because of you, I won't stagnate. I'll live the life you helped create.

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To say that without you, I'd be The same as now, is not quite true. To say it blunt and clear for all, There'd be no me if not for you. There'd be no roof above my head. I'd live in nature, like a gnome. 136 is just a place, So thanks for making it my home. I hide away and live alone, Afraid to draw the curtains back. But there is no hiding from you, Unless I wanna get a smack. The one light constant through the years. Your quiet kindness through my tears. The one heart that still perseveres. And somehow calms my deepest fears. You've had hard times, it's safe to say. The difficulties you've been through. And yet, you're always there for all. Spreading love is what you do. When K was asking you for funds, And your account was close to nil. I saw that sadness in your eyes, "If I don't help, then who else will?" It's not your job to fix the world, And yet you do it with such grace. As if ordained by God himself. A beacon in the darkest place. You somehow still found time for me. You saw my fears and dragged me free. I'm thankful, beyond joy and glee. In ways too vast for poetry. The few good deeds I've done for you, Are trivial at best. A very easy price to pay, To know that I am blessed. When J needs help with all their mess, As they can't see the floor. You're already in full game face, By the time you've touched the door. You're the capstone and foundation. Last to leave and first to show. The words I need to thank you, I can't find, nor ever know. Your fire burns forever bright, But sadness comes to hog the light. I fear the days you're out of sight. The warmth that holds me close at night. I see the good you do the world, Despite the costs you pay. It gives me hope as I strive on, To match your acts one day. I feel your generosity, In simple acts I do. That part of me that reaches out, Is all because of you. You reach beyond my senses, With the care that's in your voice. I feel the love you always spread. I mimic it by choice. Within the man, you helped repair. Within the deeds, I hope to share. I see the truth of what is there. Your inspiration. Everywhere.

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4d ago

May 30, 2026 at 7:07 PM UTC

the-black-beast

Part II - The Lantern

To say that without you, I'd be The same as now, is not quite true. To say it blunt and clear for all, There'd be no me if not for you. There'd be no roof above my head. I'd live in nature, like a gnome. 136 is just a place, So thanks for making it my home. I hide away and live alone, Afraid to draw the curtains back. But there is no hiding from you, Unless I wanna get a smack. The one light constant through the years. Your quiet kindness through my tears. The one heart that still perseveres. And somehow calms my deepest fears. You've had hard times, it's safe to say. The difficulties you've been through. And yet, you're always there for all. Spreading love is what you do. When K was asking you for funds, And your account was close to nil. I saw that sadness in your eyes, "If I don't help, then who else will?" It's not your job to fix the world, And yet you do it with such grace. As if ordained by God himself. A beacon in the darkest place. You somehow still found time for me. You saw my fears and dragged me free. I'm thankful, beyond joy and glee. In ways too vast for poetry. The few good deeds I've done for you, Are trivial at best. A very easy price to pay, To know that I am blessed. When J needs help with all their mess, As they can't see the floor. You're already in full game face, By the time you've touched the door. You're the capstone and foundation. Last to leave and first to show. The words I need to thank you, I can't find, nor ever know. Your fire burns forever bright, But sadness comes to hog the light. I fear the days you're out of sight. The warmth that holds me close at night. I see the good you do the world, Despite the costs you pay. It gives me hope as I strive on, To match your acts one day. I feel your generosity, In simple acts I do. That part of me that reaches out, Is all because of you. You reach beyond my senses, With the care that's in your voice. I feel the love you always spread. I mimic it by choice. Within the man, you helped repair. Within the deeds, I hope to share. I see the truth of what is there. Your inspiration. Everywhere.

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You thank me all the time, you do. You make it seem like I lose out. But this is just the start of what, I'd like to really talk about. I'd like to note all that you've done. I'd like to go back to the start. To list the things you've offered me. Your time. Your home. And then, your heart. I'd like to thank you for it all. But time, eternal, can't contain, The vastness of the gratitude, I feel and know, in soul and brain. As you read on, i hope you'll see, The truth behind this poetry. So, here's the start of what's to be, An epic tale of you and me. Your first appearance. Nathan's house. When yugioh was social glue. I would've thanked you if I'd known, The future that I'd have with you. When you suggested a new job, And pressured B to ask around. Your push to make me live for more, Helped get my finance off the ground. "Well, now you work with B", you said, "You may as well come live with us. It saves you from that ****** flat, And stops you waiting for the bus." While others let me fade unseen, You appeared in the space between. Through all of it, you've always been, The person that makes me feel seen. I won't thank you for statements, vague. That goes against my core intent. You need to know that what I say, Is EXACTLY what I meant. You've seen my weakness and my strength. You've seen the parts of me I hide. And yet, with open arms (and legs), You've always been right by my side. You never made me earn your trust, Or made me fight to win your grace. You've always said "just come right here." In your home (or on your face). Through force of habit, I will say, That at my weakest, "I'm okay." But you'll approach, while others stay, And sit with me through that dark day. Not everything you do is grand. The small things often mean the most. They move through me as if your acts, Are sponsored by the Holy Ghost. You message me: "Thinking of you." That's a phrase I hear, so rare. Time and time and time again, You show me that I have you there. You made me feel included in, A family that wasn't mine. You showed me my potential in A world that wouldn't see me shine. I'm thankful that when I feel numb, Like I'm a trodden stick of gum, This world may leave me cold and glum, But there you are, and you say "come."

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6d ago

May 28, 2026 at 5:23 PM UTC

the-black-beast

Part I - The Spark

You thank me all the time, you do. You make it seem like I lose out. But this is just the start of what, I'd like to really talk about. I'd like to note all that you've done. I'd like to go back to the start. To list the things you've offered me. Your time. Your home. And then, your heart. I'd like to thank you for it all. But time, eternal, can't contain, The vastness of the gratitude, I feel and know, in soul and brain. As you read on, i hope you'll see, The truth behind this poetry. So, here's the start of what's to be, An epic tale of you and me. Your first appearance. Nathan's house. When yugioh was social glue. I would've thanked you if I'd known, The future that I'd have with you. When you suggested a new job, And pressured B to ask around. Your push to make me live for more, Helped get my finance off the ground. "Well, now you work with B", you said, "You may as well come live with us. It saves you from that ****** flat, And stops you waiting for the bus." While others let me fade unseen, You appeared in the space between. Through all of it, you've always been, The person that makes me feel seen. I won't thank you for statements, vague. That goes against my core intent. You need to know that what I say, Is EXACTLY what I meant. You've seen my weakness and my strength. You've seen the parts of me I hide. And yet, with open arms (and legs), You've always been right by my side. You never made me earn your trust, Or made me fight to win your grace. You've always said "just come right here." In your home (or on your face). Through force of habit, I will say, That at my weakest, "I'm okay." But you'll approach, while others stay, And sit with me through that dark day. Not everything you do is grand. The small things often mean the most. They move through me as if your acts, Are sponsored by the Holy Ghost. You message me: "Thinking of you." That's a phrase I hear, so rare. Time and time and time again, You show me that I have you there. You made me feel included in, A family that wasn't mine. You showed me my potential in A world that wouldn't see me shine. I'm thankful that when I feel numb, Like I'm a trodden stick of gum, This world may leave me cold and glum, But there you are, and you say "come."

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Its cold and its raining But you've asked to meet once more I will show up and be there for you But this has happened before I'm in the cab and on my way You let the grateful thanks pour "(You) couldn't cope without (me)" But you've said that before I'm nearly there, but you stop texting I arrive cold and wet at your door No answer to my knock, text or call But you've done this before The river flowing down the road As I treat this curb like the shore Taking a seat with my feet in the ocean But I've sat here before An hour has passed and now I must go I'm soaked and blue to the core Next time ... next time I'll make it you faster But we've ... I've been here before

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Nov 24, 2022

Nov 24, 2022 at 11:33 AM UTC

the-black-beast

Again

Its cold and its raining But you've asked to meet once more I will show up and be there for you But this has happened before I'm in the cab and on my way You let the grateful thanks pour "(You) couldn't cope without (me)" But you've said that before I'm nearly there, but you stop texting I arrive cold and wet at your door No answer to my knock, text or call But you've done this before The river flowing down the road As I treat this curb like the shore Taking a seat with my feet in the ocean But I've sat here before An hour has passed and now I must go I'm soaked and blue to the core Next time ... next time I'll make it you faster But we've ... I've been here before

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I know that you've forgiven him, For beating you at first, For choking you against that wall, In that violent outburst. I've heard you justify his rage, And play down his abuse, "He'd had a rough upbringing" But I reject that excuse! You say "It only happened once", You say "I made a stand", But since that day I see new marks, And imagine his backhand. I know that you still love him, And you've sacrificed so much, But I fear the day his actions, Leave you walking with a crutch. I fear the day he breaks your spirit, The day he breaks your arm, The day that its too late to help, To stop him causing harm. I know you'd never testify, Which leaves me with one choice. To break the one you love because You will not use your voice. I know you'll hate and disown me, You'll scream and push and shove. Forever I will wait for you To forgive me too, my love.

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Jan 2, 2022

Jan 2, 2022 at 8:59 PM UTC

the-black-beast

How can you love him?

I know that you've forgiven him, For beating you at first, For choking you against that wall, In that violent outburst. I've heard you justify his rage, And play down his abuse, "He'd had a rough upbringing" But I reject that excuse! You say "It only happened once", You say "I made a stand", But since that day I see new marks, And imagine his backhand. I know that you still love him, And you've sacrificed so much, But I fear the day his actions, Leave you walking with a crutch. I fear the day he breaks your spirit, The day he breaks your arm, The day that its too late to help, To stop him causing harm. I know you'd never testify, Which leaves me with one choice. To break the one you love because You will not use your voice. I know you'll hate and disown me, You'll scream and push and shove. Forever I will wait for you To forgive me too, my love.

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when I gave all my love to you and had none of it left for myself.

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the-black-beast

Jan 2, 2022

Jan 2, 2022 at 7:44 PM UTC

tiger-striped

I broke my own heart

when I gave all my love to you and had none of it left for myself.

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COVID. Another reason to lock the doors and die alone

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Nov 12, 2020

Nov 12, 2020 at 8:43 PM UTC

the-black-beast

Lockdown 10w

COVID. Another reason to lock the doors and die alone

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I would rather struggle to live my life Than make those who care struggle to accept my death For now

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Nov 12, 2020

Nov 12, 2020 at 3:08 PM UTC

the-black-beast

Suicide?

I would rather struggle to live my life Than make those who care struggle to accept my death For now

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There is absolutely nothing wrong with loving someone too much, But theres everything wrong when you love yourself too less.

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the-black-beast

Jul 29, 2020

Jul 29, 2020 at 3:00 AM UTC

piyah

Love me

There is absolutely nothing wrong with loving someone too much, But theres everything wrong when you love yourself too less.

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As I awake There's no mistake I dreamt of you tonight. Your cheeky grin Your gentle skin Your eyes a full delight You're full of fun And number one For beauty on this earth So **** too And if you knew You'd realise your worth When on my mind You soon will find A stiffness start to grow My breath gets deep As if I sleep, My hands start to clench low. I start to lust For your sweet bust Beside me as I lay. So as I stand With no day planned "What you up to today?"

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Jul 28, 2020

Jul 28, 2020 at 2:21 PM UTC

the-black-beast

What you up to today?

As I awake There's no mistake I dreamt of you tonight. Your cheeky grin Your gentle skin Your eyes a full delight You're full of fun And number one For beauty on this earth So **** too And if you knew You'd realise your worth When on my mind You soon will find A stiffness start to grow My breath gets deep As if I sleep, My hands start to clench low. I start to lust For your sweet bust Beside me as I lay. So as I stand With no day planned "What you up to today?"

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