Loose the love or loose yourself
Put your feelings on a shelf
Removed the barrier
Flip the switch
You know it’s the time to ditch
Fill the hole
Start anew
So much of life yet to do
He is gone
You are here
No more energy to shed a tear
Take care of you
Let him go
It’s time to start a brand new show
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 9:20 AM UTC
As I was driving along, not really paying attention to my thoughts, listening to an over played Taylor Swift song on the radio, I had a realization.
I was happier.
In that single moment I felt the change and I knew why.
Aug 24, 2015
Aug 24, 2015 at 4:55 PM UTC
How is it that I love someone who has scarred my soul.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 7:59 PM UTC
I didn't get to say goodbye.
Again.
Not in the way I wanted to.
Not in the way that made clear as the glass
you shattered,
that this
was temporary.
Not in the way that I could promise you that every firing neuron in that beautiful brain
lights up your eyes
like shooting stars.
You think like the sky.
Not in the way that came anywhere near answering WHY?
Not in the way that stitched every I love you on the tip of my tongue together
into so big a blanket
I could swear,
you would never feel cold.
Not in the way that apologizes for maps making miles into inches
that should only equal minutes
But you realize once you're in it,
wading through the hearts that could never find their way,
objects on maps are further than they appear.
Much like the face that i see in the mirror.
I wish I was there.
I wish you were here.
I hope you don't hate me
But I'm grateful to the sea.
For catching you gently
before rocking you to sleep
in the arms of a stranger
who in saving you,
saved me.
Like I am grateful to light
and time
and airbags
and the dark side of miracles.
I am not a religious person.
But if you dont believe in guardian angels,
then I have to believe in mine.
Because I,
sellfishly,
cannot lose you
one
more
time.
My heart knows my throat like the inside of it's cage
because that is where it found you,
where I find it when I sit
and I miss you,
warming the words I always said I'd say.
So until I do,
stay.
If it makes the space seem smaller,
I have written you so many unsent letters
that if I lay every word down end to end
I could build you a bridge
that wrapped three times around the moon
So we could at least pretend,
I'd see you soon.
A bridge,
strong enough to hold you
and the fifty tons of memories
that ware you like waves,
Crashing against your ribs
in a storm
Where no heart is safe.
I'm sorry you wake in sandy sheets
That no matter how high you climb
there's a beach at your feet.
But not a single broken piece of you
will ever be sand
no part of your spirit
was made from this land.
You are one hundred percent sky
spread between two precious hands
And I'm just a star,
who followed a bridge to the moon.
I'll see you soon.
I'll see you soon.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 7:54 PM UTC
Their love was bound to be tragic
They were cheating. They were liars
By definition they couldn't be trusted
Love without trust
The greatest contradiction
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 9:13 AM UTC
This morning on the train I saw a man who had lips like you. Slender and firm, lovingly powerful, perfectly matched for mine. A pang through the heart as he walked away - just like you.
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 5:31 PM UTC
Peering through lashes at his form
He is more powerful than he gives himself credit for
His body is strong and lean
But his mind is stronger
Layered with complexity and intelligence
He is the first
The first to break through her rules of life
Logic becomes a distant memory
Years of experience
She is suddenly new, shiny and green
His mind like a magnet
His words an aphrodisiac
His touch..
His touch, her reason lost
She is in a new world
In his world
Each day she is high
She loves the feeling
Words become her rush
Love becomes a crutch
Eyes shut, judgement fades
Quivering she cannot control
He takes over her senses
Pushing deep to her soul
She loses herself
No words escape her lips
She is confused in a haze of euphoria
Her high unimaginable
Chocking with desire
She is lost in his love
But he is strong, stronger than her
He just doesn’t know it
Her mind crowded, her senses returned
Now crashing
Still lost , his love gone
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 10:29 AM UTC
It feels like chaos
Rolling through my veins
Torn between love and hate
Memories crash the senses
What to do now?
How do you live a life un-lived
How do you move on
not regret, not desire
Wishing for a do-over
Time passes looking for relief
Fleeting moments of memory loss
Life continues In motions of happiness
The pain, the loss, the desire and obsession
It's not about him
Missing a love that was a facade
So fooled and so amazing.
Mar 4, 2015
Mar 4, 2015 at 5:04 PM UTC
Do they show
The cracks in my heart
Feelings seeping as I live
Each day we're apart
Do they see
My sadness show through
The pain on my face
Each day without you
Can they tell
The days I am scattered
My thoughts so unclear
Even work doesn't matter
Is it real
This agony I know
Are these feelings a trick
As they continue to grow
Does he know
His impact on me
The power he has
Forever "his T"
In silence we exist
Forever at odds
So far apart
...
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 7:04 PM UTC
Amongst the pain and the sorrow are lightning flashes of fun
Rolling and groaning, our bodies are one
Soft kisses and touches, her body reacts
Hair pulling, lip biting, the passion attacks
Lost in his spell, little does he know
She’s his forever, no matter the blow
Parting words, harsh reality, nothing changes the fact
He owns her forever, she’ll always come back
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 5:02 PM UTC