Every time the sun comes up
I go down
And every time the moon shines
I am up
Ready to work on my stuff
Ready to play with my baggage
Packing and unpacking
To find what I am lacking
And putting it all back in again
Then I cycle back
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 8:11 AM UTC
A,
I have never been a fan of letters.
I rewrote this multiple times.
but here it goes..
would you listen to me if I sang the same words to you in different melodies
or different words in the same melody?
would you giggle everytime I hold your hand?
or sing my favourite songs with me?
I'm thinking about you while writing this, you are in my thoughts.
you're a wonderful person amongst many other things
look at you now, scaling heights,conquering peaks.
isn't all of this fun?
I have forgotten what happened between us.
It's weird,
Two years have gone so fast.
I am better now. More versatile,angry and intuitive.
I restrict myself from feeling emotions.
I am try to make myself better every moment.
I have been self harm free for a year.
Sometimes, I sing.
I am strumming random chords in my head.
I listen to a German band now.
I have a crush on a Norwegian chess player
That's all about me, how have you been doing?
Did you get to visit the places you wanted to? Did you get any pets?
You're turning eighteen in May! That's awesome!
I am happy for you.
With rage and love,
J
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 8:10 AM UTC
i can't stop thinking about you
and when i sleep
all i do is dream about you
i guess
(i know)
i miss you
and now i realize alot of me
depends on a little you
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 8:08 AM UTC
Love comes with a price,
not everything is free.
You toss the dice,
but not without a fee.
One must give,
the other must take.
One may live,
the other may break.
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 8:08 AM UTC
The shared tears of fate,
Those harmful conversations
Of,
“should I **** myself”
Debates.
You feel that you have another
Chance,
But that other chance maybe
Too late.
Those ****** memories,
And your murderous
Enemies,
That “Get the **** out my face!
Your no kin to me”
Type attitude.
Your zero tolerance
Have you floating
With no gratitude.
You’re lost,
And misunderstood,
Your crown of success weighs heavy
And far way too good-
With a mean-timid beast
Like yourself.
Theirs hope for the hopeless.
You feel 10 times worst when your words
Are respoken.
Your problems are now soakin,
But again as I say,
There’s hope
For the hopeless.
Marci H.
May 13, 2015
May 13, 2015 at 7:58 AM UTC
If you accidentally
fall out of love,
Do you just dive
back in head first?
Feet first??
Eyes closed???
Cannon ball????
Or
Do you walk away
Cause you can't swim
And you're scared to death
of drowning?????
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 7:52 AM UTC
Hes the one who keeps my mind up all night, in snow rain wind and sunshine he's the one by my side.
I can't call him mine but he's the one by my side.
He's the one I stay alive for, he's the one by my side, I can be open about anything with him.
I can't call him mine but he's the one by my side.
He makes me feel special even though I am not, He's the one by my side, he loves me but only as a friend
I can't call him mine but he's the one by my side.
Apr 12, 2015
Apr 12, 2015 at 11:12 AM UTC
Do you love me?
Am I just a friend?
Or am I nothing?
I don't wanna be this girl who gets the wrong impression. I don't want to be confused with what we are. I just want to be happy I thought it was him but then you and now neither of you. I'm getting hurt more and more each day and it's something I don't think I can handle much longer. Is it time you leave? Your gonna leave just like everyone else....
Apr 9, 2015
Apr 9, 2015 at 9:35 PM UTC
Question: What’s wrong?
My eyes sting from all the crying
I have no friends
I have no ambitions other than to die early
Medication can’t fix me, talking doesn't help me
Can’t see therapists anymore in fear they’ll call 211
Crying myself to sleep every night
Have to keep lying to myself so I can get out of bed
I hate myself
I’m weak, stupid, worthless, pathetic, ugly, fake, and empty
All I do is cause others to worry about me not that they care until I’m at my breaking point
It gets worse every day but I’m keeping it all inside for your sake
I want to die
I don’t want to make you worry or burden you with my problems
Answer: I’m fine
Apr 9, 2015
Apr 9, 2015 at 8:21 AM UTC