Oral **** joke is that I wanted to come over
The oral **** joke is his bed that I agreed to lay in
The oral **** joke is I was the one who wanted to make out
The oral **** joke is whatever we call it was finished
My mind filled with guilt
It takes a society to tell a **** joke
The oral **** joke is his neck that I shouldn't have kissed
The oral **** joke is this has happened before with someone else
The oral **** joke is I am still friends with that someone else
The oral **** joke is that I never broke up with the second guy
The oral **** joke is that even with my mind filled with guilt
And my stomach turning with sickness
I still wanted him forever
The oral **** joke is I should have pushed him off
**** jokes make me wanna just die
The oral **** joke is he got to break up with me the night after
The oral **** joke is he got to start dating another girl
The oral **** joke is he didn't have to feel the guilt
The oral **** joke is he's happy
The oral **** joke is because I didn't leave I'm not allowed to be traumatized from it
The oral **** joke is because I talk about it like it was nothing
I must have wanted to do it
Of course I don't cry myself to sleep at night thinking about it or anything
No I totally didn't hurt myself over it or anything
The oral **** joke is I should have went home
The oral **** joke is I'm the one who kept kissing him even tho he kept trying to do something I was not comfortable with
The oral **** joke is the questions
Why didn't I say no louder?
And why didn't I say no more clearly?
Even tho I said it 5 times
I should have said it again
The oral **** joke is when I got home I acted like it never happened
The oral **** joke is that it was my fault
The oral **** joke is I didn't leave him
Mar 26, 2017
Mar 26, 2017 at 4:00 AM UTC
Being transgender is like this:
Everyday of your life, you have always wanted a dog.
For as long as you can remember--
even if you don't know to what extent--
you have wanted one.
You asked your parents, Santa, the easter bunny,
even the tooth fairy.
Then one day you get a dead cat for your birthday.
You say "This isn't a dog,"
But "You get what you get and don't get upset"
So you carry around and care for the dead carcass.
All sorts of people look at you,
unable to understand what you are doing.
So then one day you decide to try to make it look a bit nicer.
You wash it a bit, comb what little fur it has left,
cover the decrepit limbs.
But then you realize the futility in doing this all the time,
because you are still carrying around a dead animal.
So you continue to carry it around because you have to,
no matter how horrible it may be.
Although you are carrying around a dead and rotting cat,
you aren't a ******* cat owner;
You still want a ******* dog.
Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 12:41 PM UTC
I've made a promise to myself that I'll get over you.
I won't message you.
I won't call you.
And I will try my hardest not to think about you.
I don't know how long this will last
Or if I'll just eventually forget you
The way you forgot me.
But I will try.
That is a promise I have to keep.
Because you promised to come back for me....
Feb 27, 2017
Feb 27, 2017 at 3:57 AM UTC
don't force me to believe in love
when all i could see is just another broken part
don't force me to believe in your heartbeat
because it's still beating even though there was no love
don't force me to look into your eyes
because i don't want to drown in the sea of your tears
don't force me to believe in love even though it was real..
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 6:20 AM UTC
Physics taught me
that deeper water
has more
pressure,
and it made me think,
about people.
Deep people
were under pressure
because they sank
as they carry
the problems
on their backs.
While shallow people
will just float
and will never
experience
the hidden beauty
of the ocean.
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 6:18 AM UTC
YOU are....
Everything to my Empty World,
Comfort to my Agony,
Strength to my Weaknesses,
Depth to my Shallowness,
Energy to my Laziness,
Encouragement to my Disappointments,
Hope to my Pessimism,
Fun to my Boredom,
A Friend to my Friends and
Most of all, the Missing Pieces to my Puzzle called Life!!
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 6:08 AM UTC