you click the button
you drop your eyelids and darkness engulfs your vision
you listen to your heart faintly beat, preparing yourself for the drop
you open your ears but shut down all outside noise
you take a deep breath, inhaling what feels like clean air
you let it slither out of your lungs
your minds feels at ease
your ears swallow the first tones
it beings
the base beings to to slowly spark up
you feel the music engulf your body,
lifting your mind to a higher place
the build up leaves your body tense
it starts to speed up
faster
faster
building the intensity
sending
shivers
down your
s p i n e
then
it
STOPS
you feel the excitement boiling out of you
as you await it....
it seems like centuries
but is only seconds
then it happens
"LET THE BASS.....DROP"
it
d
-r
--o
---p
----s
you get covered in goosebumps
your breath escapes you
your eyes pounce open from
the bass pounding waves throughout you
you see the the sweet wubs
create ripples of color in a blackned room
you grin and sway to the bass
and as you get that look on your face
thats when the music makes you feel good
makes you feel
ALIVE
Oct 10, 2012
Oct 10, 2012 at 3:02 AM UTC
Its depressing,
seeing the world around me crumble
I stand still and watch the world
speed by me
no one has the time to bother,
everyone doing something,
at all times
what has this world become
teenagers getting pregnant for television
bulling over the internet that can not be stopped
money the only source of a hope for a future in this world
adults say we have it "easier"
tell me why?
because we have internet?
because we have a "connected society?"
because we live in "rich times"?
When I look around
I see more peer pressure then any other generation has had to deal with
I see young adults taking their lives because they don't fit in with the crowd
I see a wounded country full of idiots
I see teenagers giving up in school
I see parents who don't care
How do we have it easier?
You haven't even experienced the times we have grown up in
live our lives, live with our connections, then you will see....
Its depressing,
seeing the world crumble around me
Oct 10, 2012
Oct 10, 2012 at 2:40 AM UTC
I Hate You
Everything you do
the stupid things you say
the immature things you do.
I Love You
Everything you do
the sweet things you say
the loving things you do
I Hate You
the way you treat me
how you get mad at everything
how you never see things from my view
*I Love You
the way you treat me
how you care about me and protect me
how you will always be there for me
I hate our relationship, but I love you...
Oct 10, 2012
Oct 10, 2012 at 2:23 AM UTC
Lets get lost in wonderland
lets run far far away and never look back
all we will need is each other, our love could never lack
Lets go to a tropical place far away from here
to a place of pure joy and pure love and emotion
where we can lay on a sandy beach and watch the sun disappear under the ocean
Lets find our own wonderland
a place where we can be free to love each other without fear
we can walk through a forest and breathe the clean air
Lets find a place we can call our own
we can make it our home
we will be lost in each others love for all eternity without missing a tone
Lets find a place to live out the rest of our days
to grow old together and swing on the porch watching the days fade away
we can be forever happy and live the rest of our lives together
Lets get lost in wonderland
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 3:11 AM UTC
Who are you
Who are you to judge me
to laugh at my faults and to treat me like I am a lower person
what gives you the right to tell me that I am a freak
you do not know what I have gone through,
you have no idea the things that have happened to me
so how do you have the right to destroy my self esteem
Who are you
Who are you to spread the rumors about me
to feed everyone lies to seem more popular,
even though it does not help you rise at all
so how come you have to ruin my life to give you the illusion that your life is going to get better
Who are you
Who are you to give me ***** looks
to look at my scars and decide it makes me a lesser person
to see me for my appearance and base your knowledge of my person off of that
so how do you get to decide if I am acceptable based off my looks
Who are you
Who are you to treat me any differently
it is because we share a different group of friends,
because you listen to lies and rumors,
because I look and act differently?
You can judge me all you want
You can create the lies
You can treat me differently,
but
I know who I am, what makes me unique
Do you know who you are?
Who are you?
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 2:55 AM UTC
A mothers love is like nothing else in this world
they keep you safe, they love you till the end
you are a part of them
A mothers love knows no law
it knows no pity
her love will never leave you to be alone
A mothers love remorselessly knocks down all that stand in its path
they will protect you, for you are their soul
she will go though hell and back for you
if this is so..... then why do some leave
why are some mothers not there to protect,
to love,
to be there for you...
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 2:20 AM UTC
Stainless steel,
the sharp edge, to the smooth side
gentle shaking hands, slowly raise it to a point
small fingers run along the blade
an oh so fine tip, as sharp as their hateful gaze
it pierces the skin
Racing thoughts come to a slow
time seems to freeze as the cold blade gives my smooth wrist chills
it gets easier from here
not to swift
nor to slow
the blade cuts though skin and flesh
igniting the fire deep inside
the adrenaline begins to rush
my heart and drugged up mind scream deeper
as a small, lost voice whispering "no..." is hushed
so very quickly
my problems, my dreams, my emotions shatter
steady hands pull away
the deep line turns red as I lay my quiet head back
the warm, sweet blood slides down my wrist
easing the cold feeling
the more the blood runs, the better I feel
releasing me from sorrow and pain
but only for a short while
wounds heal over, only scars left behind
the memory just a blur
the burning sensations cools
until the need comes roaring back
the blade comes back out
but until then I can rest my head
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 2:14 AM UTC
Shut up
stop ******* screaming at me
stop making me feel like a piece of nothing
Your words tear at my flesh
they leave my wounds open for disease
treat me like I'm your daughter, not a ***** up
Shut up
stop feeding me a ***** feeling
stop making me want to **** myself
Your voice eats my mind away
they are making me ruin my body
they want me to break my promises
Your the voice in my head, your suppose to protect me
Shut up
stop telling me I am lying
stop making me feel like ****
Your anger is crushing my last spirits
it is showing me that I am a terrible friend
it is slowly deteriorating my hope
You tell me I am your best friend, why are you breaking my soul
SHUT UP
you all need to leave me alone
your not helping me
you are making me worse
SHUT UP
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 1:57 AM UTC
It flows thick at first,
but it runs fast down the hand
crimson fire, a burning sensation,
heating chilled skin
a lost feeling
a drugged up mind
the racing slows as the pain
crawls through the body
everything seems to relax
the voices are hushed
eyes roll into blindness
gushing out of the wrist
sheets are stained red
a razor falls onto the floor
a deep breath taken
a sudden realization
scary thoughts of the future
long sleeves and bracelets
band-aids and makeup
anything to keep the secret safe
to stay out of the asylum
keeping the ridicule and whispers at bay
not letting the rumors spark up
the dark passenger is kept away
until the monster comes back to play
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 1:40 AM UTC
It wants me
It wants me back
It yearns for my touch
To feel the warmth of my skin
I want it
I want it back
To feel its edge against my body
Its clouding my mind
I would reach out it ****** it
I would reopen my wounds in a flash
But I have made a promise
To keep this feeling at bay
How much longer can I last
How much longer can I keep this monster trapped
The razor is dawning on me
It wants me back
Oct 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2012 at 1:23 AM UTC