You
let me **** you
twice
Good
And then you ignored my calls
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 7:50 PM UTC
******* be wild
You sit in that room all day
You've never been drunk
You say that I always smell like cigarettes
You always smell like regret
You make me boring
Dec 28, 2014
Dec 28, 2014 at 5:41 PM UTC
I've led so many girls on
It's sickening
But I always knew I'd crawl back to you
I'd be on my hands and knees
In the palm of your hand
You rubbing my back and laughing
At me
Because you knew you had me defeated
The noose around my neck was made of your words
Sour and yet sweet
Music to my ******* ears
Remember the first time you hit me?
You laughed like it was a ******* joke
A little tighter please
Make your grip a little tighter
Hurt me until it's all I know
I don't want to remember anything
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 11:20 AM UTC
She said **** me harder I hate myself"
It took me 4 months to learn what it meant
When she cried in her sleep
I didn't try to hold her or anything
I just followed her outside at 4 in the morning
And sat with her while she smoked her cigarette
She told me I was like a ******* bug bite
The ones you get in the summer
She couldn't get rid of me
She knew I was there and had to deal with me
She wanted me to fix her
My god I ******* tried
We both reminded each other of our bad habits
She told me to stop biting my nails
I told her to stop hating
Everything about herself
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 10:53 PM UTC
To me
Your lips are oxygen
Your eyes
They are streetlights on my walk home
After drinking all night
Do I love you enough after all I've been through?
The love and the loss
Your hands
Are knives
Sharper
Than your words
As they hold me
They hurt me
But they make me feel so much
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 5:39 PM UTC
You told me
That if I ever needed anything
That you would be there for me
But
I called you last night
And you didn't
Pick up
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 3:31 PM UTC
I lose myself sometimes
In the alcohol
And the girls
Their wet lips
Their hands grabbing at me
Begging for me
I lose myself in those moments
But then I find myself again
In your eyes
In your nail beds and earlobes
In you
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 9:54 PM UTC
Toxic
Our relationship is ******* toxic
I drink you in like the bottle of whiskey we shared last weekend
I finally convinced you to let me see you naked
Your body sobered me up
But at the same time I had never felt drunker
Our shadows laughed at us as we made love
Frantically in the dark
I give too much of myself to others
You especially
I gave you all of me
Not half or a quarter
The whole **** thing
Please don't destroy me again
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 5:26 PM UTC
I need to stop thinking
You can save me
I am so mad at myself
For thinking you could
For so **** long
I realize life isn't about being saved
Or saving another
Just love and maybe be loved in return
Because all I really need
Is someone to kiss my knuckles
After I create a hole in the wall
Nov 29, 2014
Nov 29, 2014 at 4:05 PM UTC
Becoming myself
More and more every day
Everyday finding myself
In the sky
Trees
Grass
You
Nov 29, 2014
Nov 29, 2014 at 3:49 PM UTC