The memories of things I've said and done seem to follow me around
I know they shape up who I am, so now matter how much I try to hide them somehow they will be found
If I cry will the feeling inside me go away?
Will it stop tormenting me and let me live another day?
I wish I knew the answer, maybe then I'd find some peace
Peace from my mind that doesnt let me have any sleep
But the regret cant be lost without another being found
One regret cant just be forgotten because there is always another one around
And I know these thoughts are making me push everyone away
That's how I woke up bleeding in the bath that day
Now the wish of finally having a grave that will state rest in peace
Is the only thing I can imagine that'll put me fast to sleep
Feb 1, 2013
Feb 1, 2013 at 8:28 AM UTC
This can't be bad
Not as bad as their words
Because you won't be sad
You won't be part of their world
If you do it quickly
You have to not think
The liquid may be stinky
But it'll wash down the sink
Wash it all
Evidence will be none
You can't tell them that you're sore
Don't tell them that it stung
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 10:08 AM UTC
It is quite scary...
Will it be darker than what I see now?
Or will it be brighter...
Will the soil walls comfort me just like the wood?
Or will they frighten me...
Will the silence that I so long for finally be all I hear?
Or will my mind be the only thing talking,
Telling me,
This is the end,
This is what you feared...
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 9:56 AM UTC
Oh dear knight
You came to me in shining armor
Your sword stained with blood
Cuts and bruises damaged your body
Yet you still look perfect
Why did you come here?
You knew it unsafe but still you fought
And I'm sorry to let you know what was waiting
It's only me...
Yes... Nothing else...
No beautiful fair maiden, no riches or treasures
A rather poor prize for you to claim
Will you turn away?
It's fine I'll understand, I'll see you off with a smile
And a wave of my hand...
You're gone
May 24, 2012
May 24, 2012 at 1:55 AM UTC
Her eyes brightened with joy when we met
they always had a special spark,
and the smile she would give,
it was like my light in the dark.
She was here.
Her laugh would make me giggle,
it was all I ever wanted to hear,
all I ever want to see, she became so dear.
I wanted her to be happy.
Maybe it was the way she said it, simple,
I love you, I felt a burst of excitement, joy, happiness?
Could it be true? because I loved her too.
But I knew it wouldnt be too long
when we both had to move on,
she didn't like change, so then
it was the beginning of the end.
When we met, her spark was gone,
my morning smile turned to dawn,
it was that day I knew she left.
Though her laugh would be the same
not as frequent, was I to blame?
I became obsessed to make her happy,
and see her special smile once again
Maybe it was the way she said it, simple,
I hate you, I felt a burst of fear, sadness, anger?
Could it be true? ... Does that mean I must
hate her too.
Feb 5, 2012
Feb 5, 2012 at 9:06 AM UTC
What are you afraid of little girl?
you have your life ahead
dont let all those bad times
keep you down and dead
get back up on your feet
and just try again
in a couple years you'll be old like me
and wish you'd listen to what i said...
Jul 8, 2011
Jul 8, 2011 at 2:20 AM UTC
My hands tremble as i get close
how long has it been?
i wipe the dust off the keys
it looks exactly the way i left it
my fingers urge to touch
my ears long to hear the sound
so i decide to sit down
i can feel my heart beating
and my stomach turning
as i place my fingers on the keys
they feel cold and neglected
i whisper sorry under my breath
how could i leave it for so long
here i feel like i belong
deciding on a tune to play
which ever i haven't forgotten
fur elise is the first in my mind
to my surprise i remember it
the first section i played, it echoed
a bolt of excitement rushed through me
then a smile slowly started creeping
Jun 14, 2011
Jun 14, 2011 at 9:16 AM UTC
it wont leave me alone
its taken everything i have
its draining my life away
it always makes me sad
there is no place to run
without it catching you
there is no place to hide
without it finding you
and if you ever think
for even a second
that you have outsmarted it
then it will show you
by the things you hold dear
that it will never go
never leave you alone
it will always win
because you belong to it
it will always be here
May 31, 2011
May 31, 2011 at 12:22 AM UTC
I dont believe i can do it
i never did
i never wanted it to be like this
i hate the way this feels
i see the disappointment in their faces
i let them all down again
i always do
i always knew i couldnt do it
i dont even know why i tried
i wish today would be my last
i wish tonight id die
May 26, 2011
May 26, 2011 at 5:48 AM UTC
Its funny how i say
i wont need you today
then try to turn and walk away
but i come back, always
its like you have a hold on me and you know
i see it in your face, that smile, i cant let you go
and you know how much i love you, head to toe
i wonder if you have a clue that now everyone's my foe?
but i hope you know its about to all change
because my love for you might not be the same
you play with me, with my heart like its some game
and i have this feeling.. that sadly your all for the fame
and i know that im going to cry
maybe hurt myself but i have to try
who knows how fast time will fly
so for now this is another good bye
May 18, 2011
May 18, 2011 at 6:41 AM UTC