Today my world fell apart
I realised finally that I’m living a dream
You do not feel it
You do not care
I am just another someone
I cared
I wanted you
I still do
I believed for so long there was something there
Even if it was subtle, the signs discreet.
But today , I know I’m on my own
Your young , your free
I’m dying inside with my emotions you’ll never understand
Today my world fell apart
Sep 20, 2019
Sep 20, 2019 at 4:47 PM UTC
When
I
Needed
You
The
Most
Infact
You were
Not
What
I
Needed
At
All
Sep 18, 2019
Sep 18, 2019 at 4:42 PM UTC
I get my first hit
I feel the burn in my chest
The drug begins to soothe me
It reaches my brain
I feel strong
I feel warm
My nerves run wild
My feelings are free
I just want to dance
But then ....
The moment wears off
I can’t have any more
For you are my drug
My addiction
My need
I see you , you are my hit .
You leave and I crave you
My body hurts
My thoughts make no sense
I just need a hit
A moment with you
Sep 7, 2019
Sep 7, 2019 at 11:43 AM UTC
Shall I ?
Should I send that message ?
Should I make that call ?
I want to ...
Maybe I will
I probably shouldn’t
I’ll just be ignored
I’ll just be a pest
I’m not sure I should
I probably won’t
Sep 6, 2019
Sep 6, 2019 at 1:13 PM UTC
He’s here again
My imaginary friend
Keeping me safe
Keeping me warm
I know you can’t see him
Sometimes he hides
Sometimes he’s bad
He likes to play games
But I know he’s there
Watching me...
Watching you
Sep 5, 2019
Sep 5, 2019 at 3:56 PM UTC
I wait for the night
So I can be alone with you
Where I lay in the darkness and you’re so so close.
Close enough to whisper to
Close enough to breathe you in
Close enough to arouse every nerve I possess
But still not close enough to touch
Because then I wake again
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 11:32 AM UTC
‘Why me ‘ he says
‘Why you’ I say
‘I wish I knew ‘
The feeling is overwhelming
The frustration is consuming
The desire is deliciously warming
This emotion is heartfelt and so very real .
‘So ‘ I say
That’s why
Sep 2, 2019
Sep 2, 2019 at 6:54 AM UTC
I start my day ...
‘I can’t do this ‘
I finish my day ...
‘ I did it ‘
Aug 31, 2019
Aug 31, 2019 at 7:29 AM UTC
I’m tired .
I’m tired of wanting you .
I’m tired of waiting .
I’m tired of the frustration that builds inside me at the mention of your name.
I’m tired of knowing it cannot be .
I’m tired of the pain, the elation , the extreme rollercoaster of feelings that happen within minutes of being near you .
When will the tiredness stop ?
Aug 30, 2019
Aug 30, 2019 at 5:09 AM UTC
It’s been a week.
How is it only a week.
I feel empty.
Without you .
I could just call .
I could just turn up at your door.
But this utter desperation is addictive.
The thrill of tomorrow will come.
When you’re smile , your touch will make the world disappear.
Then the countdown begins.
For the next seven days .
Til it’s been a week .
How is it only a week
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 6:16 AM UTC