The fear of losing started to creep in.
Knowing that I will no longer have the power
to hold the most precious thing.
Everything we've had
will just be an imprint in my memory,
etched in my heart,
carved on my bones and flesh.
You have been a part of my soul.
The nights became colder and kisses gone stale
I remember when you said it was the sweetest thing you've tasted
How could you not hear me scream and break into million pieces
When you used to understand my whisper, my silence
How could you be so numb to feel the warmth of my skin
The same skin that wraps you around when you were trembling with fear
A part of me died.
When you turned your back and shut my world
I died when you were too deaf to hear my heart beat and let it bleed
I die everytime you look at me and see nothing, as though I never existed.
You left me with everything tangled.
You left me with questions unanswered.
What happened? To you? To us?
I thought you are the sanctuary i have been longing for eternal
Someone who will hold me like something fragile
Maybe you were or maybe you are not.
Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 5:08 PM UTC
I always wonder what is it like
To speak up in front
Or to cut my hair short
To sing at the top of my lungs
And not care to dance
I always wonder what it feels like
To jump into the ocean over the cliff
Or to ride the fastest car as we drift
To dive the deepest sea
Or touch the clouds at the mountain's peak
I always wonder what I'd do
When I get lost in an unfamiliar place
Or in a sea of unknown faces
To be alone on my own
And can't find my way home
I always wonder what would have happened
If I have loved or loved him not
Thinking of another shot
Or if I just build the strongest wall
I always wonder what would have happened
If I was not the first to fall
Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 4:57 PM UTC
Feeling the grains of the sand
under my toes
while cool waves rushes
unto my feet.
summer breeze
touching my skin
makes me think
of your warm embrace..
of you being near..
sun rays
and clear sky
above the calm sea
brings the remnants of you and me..
how close we were together.
I could hear those laughters echoing,
dipping and splashing into the waters.
Footprints and sand castles,
written our name on it.
All those and more.
But as i look
at the vastness of sea,
also makes me feel
how far we are now.
Distant
silent
alone
One summer
that will never be the same again.
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 1:26 PM UTC
I always wonder what it is like
To speak up in front
Or to cut my hair short
To sing at the top of my lungs
And not care to dance
I always wonder what it feels like
To jump over the ocean at the cliff
Or to ride the fastest car as we drift
To dive the deepest sea
Or touch the clouds at the mountain's peak
I always wonder what I'd do
When i get lost in an unfamiliar place
Or in a sea of unknown faces
To be alone on my own
And can't find my way home
I always wonder what would have happened
If I have loved or loved him not
Thinking of another shot
Or if i just build the strongest wall
I always wonder if i was not the first to fall
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 11:34 AM UTC
Rain falling is music to my ears.
Like a lullaby to a baby while he sleeps.
It takes away the thoughts for a moment
As if robbing the mind that no one can.
But as the rain falls harder and the air gets colder
I realized one thing has never left
The bleakness of the weather may make the mind forget
But never what the heart has felt..
Apr 17, 2015
Apr 17, 2015 at 8:00 AM UTC
You don't need to do
what you don't feel like doing
You don't have to say
what you're actually not feeling
You don't have to feel
something unnecessary
If you're doing all these
just to please me
I ain't numb
and yes it does hurt
Keeping distant from me
feels like I'm a ****
What should I do
if you had a change of heart
Even if that means
we should grow apart
I had second thoughts
if your feelings were true
From the first time you said to me
"I love you"
But I brushed away the thought
as instant as I could
I trusted you that much
but then I was fooled
Maybe you've fallen out
but please keep your words real
No pretentions, no secrets
or more pain I would feel
If you no longer love me,
we can let each other go
I guess there's no more reason to stay,
it's time to lie-low
Thanks for the moments, the times you spent with me
It will always be remembered,
something I used to call "WE"
Things are changing
even before we notice it
So long for now, until we meet
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 8:23 PM UTC