I've gone and laid it out as perfectly as I can
And we've both heard them all say it so many times before
I swear it I never have and never will be keeping score
Because if you where the one with me
I'd show you everything there is to see
I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could I picture it any other way?
Never have I ever believed in fate
I could never seem to relate
Until the day I came into the sight of it all
Passing through the rear view
I'm plagued with these ghosts of you
You always seem to just barley slip through my grip
But could I ever catch you in time?
I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could I picture it any other way?
I may never come to know
When we stopped seeing things eye to eye
And I may never stop wondering why
But I'll go and find the strength to move on
If that's what you really want
I could never bur the bridge on which you stand
Believe me I've gone and already tried that hand
Doused it in accelerant and dropped my cigarette
The flames grew as did my regret
Playing with fire you are bound to get burned
The scars are markings of lessons learned
I've found my own way to move on
Without letting go of the past
But I can't promise this moment will last
I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could you picture it any other way
At times the world may come to seem so bitterly cold
I've felt the weight and the pressure grows bridle and old
Maybe it is just the price of starting a life
To anguish and make it through the thicket of strife
But with another shoulder you can make it another mile
Don't worry you'll make it after a while
It gets so much harder from here
With a will you'll find the right path to steer
If the years pass and you feel you where wrong
Listening back through the lines of every old song
I'll pick you up until the very end
But you swore only as a friend
I held on to the time as long as I could
Still you swore you never would
So I told myself to let go of the past
If not now it would never last
I've always been here and could never sway
I could not beguine to imagine it any other way
I've always lifted you up when you are down
I'll chisel out a smile of every frown
You've always been there and could never sway
You said that you couldn't imagine it any other way
You've always lifted me up when I am down
Even managed to chisel a smirk of every frown
How could we picture it any other way?
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 4:48 PM UTC
I inhale so deep into my lungs
The smoke so I might blow out a cloud
To reach up and cover the sun in a shroud
So long I wanted to block out It's light
The dream to live in an eternal night
I've seen so much more then I've ever wanted to see
Honestly I've never even asked any of this to be
When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word
You are the sun and I am the moon
There is no meeting of us neither midnight or noon
The only way if we meet at an eclipse
To spread fear of the apocalypse
You have your place and I have mine
I can see that now so surly I'll be fine
There are ghosts that I cross every corner of this town
I've learned so well to hide signs of every single frown
So often I wonder why I am still here
When there is nothing left to even hold me near
But it is not in my way to let go
If you ever knew me then this you would already know
When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word
For so long now I have just chased you across the sky
Just narrowly obstructed to your view
There is no way for you to see the things that I do
I've bled every drop from within this heart
Just to offer the choice of a fresh start
But I should have remembered the place I reside
Within this darkness is the place I hide
Whenever history has always seemed so bleak
The weight makes it so difficult to even speak
I must find strength to look away from the past
This ship has been sinking ever so fast
And I see not a single sign for land
But really did I plan it any other way
When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word
I have found my ways to cope with this life
I'll admit I cling deeply to my every vice
The path I was given bears a hefty price
And I still don't know what brought me here
To the start before that first year
The moment my mother gave birth
And I was brought here into this earth
This was something for which I never asked
But still by them all I was tasked
To live and as long as I can survive
What is the pint
With no victory within my strive
When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word
When I found you I found a place I'd like to park
Drawn in with your glow in a world so very dark
But while I'm in the shadow and you're in the unobscured
You can not see me so there is no strength in a word
I've grown accustom to this eternal night
I thought it would take my vision away
To block out the bright of every day
And I was never any more wrong
But for the light now I do not long
I see so much better now with no light
There is no reason to cling to the frigh
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 3:09 PM UTC
I have drug my feet my whole life
Everybody seems to step right on my heel
Don't blame me if I can't feel
They set me up from the start
So I guess I'll just blow the scene apart
**You can kick me when I'm down but wont ever seem me frown
No I have been made to keep stronger then that
You can not make me your door mat
I've been the victim for too long
So I went and wrote this song
To release the product of my rage
I'll bleed it out on every page **
I've got yours as you slide the knife into my back
The things that they say the ways that they sway
Towering over them all I could feel as I started to fall
To the ground I rest just a moment maybe two
But I have to get up there are things yet to do
I let loose within the crowd
Grit my teeth through the loud
Watch as they pull the wool right over my eyes
Because you think I just don't realize
**I can see so much deeper then your face
Behind your lies I see nothing more then a disgrace
I sensed it since the moment you walked in
Stuck sickened waiting for your ******** to beguine
I can see everything that you are doing to me
Is this really what you want**
I've given you the knife so you might as well slit my throat
Yeah you cut me right ear to ear
Then you run off taking my last beer
With all jokes aside
I'm sick and tired of this land slide
The avalanche of all your hate
You where never the ones assigned to delegate
I've got yours as you slide the knife into my back
The things that they say the ways that they sway
Towering over them all I could feel as I started to fall
To the ground I rest just a moment maybe two
But I have to get up there are things yet to do
**For so long I struggled and wondered why
You always seem to be beating me with this stick
****** broken down, bruised, and sick
It's like there is surly a target painted on upon my back
Just waiting for the next surprise attack**
Every time That we may cross
I'll offer to shake your hand and move on
But maybe the moment is gone
You are always cutting me down
To bring me back down to size
That makes you no sort of prize
I've got yours as you slide the knife into my back
The things that they say the ways that they sway
Towering over them all I could feel as I started to fall
To the ground I rest just a moment maybe two
But I have to get up there are things yet to do
**You can dig the hole if you want
I can see where you wish for me to lie
For so long I just lived and tried to deny
You tried to play it all off just a joke
A lye that almost made me ******* choke
Because your actions so much louder then a word
I'm sick of all these deceptions that I've heard**
I've drug my feet all my life
So go ahead kick me in the heels if you'd like
But don't go wondering how you wound up here
No need for fear you should have expected my spike
**I'll lay the bodies upon the floor
Spread gasoline from the door
I can't believe you did this to me
So angry I'm too blind to even see**
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 3:07 PM UTC
I've gone and decided to flip it over to a new page
Maybe somewhere out there is a chapter to find brand new
Because where it all stands I feel the grip growing at my throat
I'll be headed out the door better not forget to grab my coat
The winters here always seem so harsh
But where better the times you stood by my side
I know that this is not what you wanted and neither did I
I thought I'd always be the one to dry your eye
There is nothing here left for me
There is no way for me to bring you to see
I've been ripping every follicle of my hair right out
Screaming until my throat closes up, you can't even hear me shout
Oh what a mess I've put myself in
How could I put myself here again
Driving myself so ******* mad
But I could never say without you I'd be glad
I am so sorry but I feel it coming I am going to need my space
Though I never wanted to part ways with your grace
I've just been going straight out of my mind
I fear for the time that I've lost to find
The cure to what makes this soul ache so
In you I cant escape the thought that I know
I've seen the way you smack your head against the wall
I've wanted to be there every time to pick you up before the fall
I've seen the way you walk your way right into the wolf's den
Expecting this time you'll come to find a friend
I've seen the start and stop of each time you've danced that dance
I've never looked down on you but always given second glance
The story was so great from the start
Should have guessed It would be too good to be true
I could never be the one meant for you
Or maybe one day you'll come around to see
But by then I'll no longer be
The story is a scrap
You're all full of crap
I'll be on my way out
I won't look back until I've made my way to the top
Speak now or nothing you say will make me stop
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 1:39 PM UTC
i like writing you poetry -
at 2 am, night lights glowing through
rain streaked windows, i listen to the city
and wish you'd listen to me.
i like writing you poetry -
angsty little love notes where
every word betrays the cool countenance
i otherwise wear on my face when
we're warring with our words but
teasing with our tongues.
i like writing you poetry -
it's where i can tell you the stories
that belong to the dead of the night
and the dead of my heart.
i like writing you poetry -
because it's the only way
i can tell you that i love you
without you ever having to know.
Oct 10, 2015
Oct 10, 2015 at 5:09 PM UTC
I reach out and extend my hand
You take me on an expidition of my mind
But warn me of the demons I may find
Like a dream cast out into the day
We all dance around as we beguine to laugh and play
Avoid the ellaphant in the corner of the room
If you look hime in the eye he'll send us all to doom
Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become
As the ball dropped and the lights went out
I became lost so I started to fill with doubt
With a compass of morals and no marks on the map
How would I know where to even start
I beguine to feel myself tear apart
A void with the gravity of 1,000 burnt out sund
The black hole pulls me in on a chain
Maybe too late I've already missed my my train
It is not the words but the ones we do not speak
They are armed to the teeth like a gun
Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become
I feel a numbness bleed down my arm
Gripped in my hand was my hunting knife
Dizzy and delirious I was fearing for my life
The blanket draped over my head while laying in my bed
I was left wandering if I was dead
As the coroner looked into my eyes
I felt as my soul started to rise
Out of my body out of my mind
I shot off and left this whole world behind
My whole entire life flashed before my eyes
Apocalyptic epiphany to bring me to realize
I must start moving to move on
Before I could ever find my call
I was forced to face losing it all
Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become
After the light went out
I found my whole life turned upside down
I could not help but to beguine to frown
A duplicity of yen and yang happily depressed
The reality I have never confessed
Hoping that one day I can turn life around
So that I might beguine to smile
Or at least be properly expressed
I know exactly what I must do
Turn on all the party lights
You know this is the way we make it through the nights
Trapped beneath its entrancing ways
I wouldn't want a thing to break my gaze
Because in a way we've all got something we're running from
We've all got something we're yerning to become
Resurrected I come back to life
Covered with a chill dripping in cold sweat
The things I've seen I could never forget
Coming back down into a new year
I feel as though everything becomes clear
I have been here grom the beginning
I'll be here untill the very end
You are the one who holds the key
This is something I'll always see
I love you and watched as we both grow
It is killing me not to know
What a long strange trip it has been
I'll never regreat when it all came to beguine
This is the choice I made
To hoping we never fade
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 5:57 PM UTC
Just as soon as I beguine to move my lips
I go and get mixed up stuck stuttering with my tongue tied
Tripping all over my tone afraid to loose my speech
Praying to something I don't know to make my reach
I crawl my way across the ground
Oh how I've beaten myself up all over again
Bite your tongue boy is all I was ever told
Never a saying could get more old
Always being told to watch what you say
Being reminded of it every single day
We all have a freedom of speech
But freedom really isn't free
Every action faces consequence
You cant ever pull without a little push on the other side
These words that we speak will determine the rise or the fall
These words that we speak will determine the population of us all
Face your fate to overcome your greatest fear
Never loose yourself through the bitterness within a year
Finally I think I have conjured the strength to stay
I have found the proper way to make it on my own
I have found the way to unleash the power with in these words
I'll broadcast my message to the world
Just to make sure it makes it back to the start
Bite your tongue boy is all I was ever told
Never a saying could get more old
Always being told to watch what you say
Being reminded of it every single day
We all have a freedom of speech
But freedom really isn't free
We are all caught up in the meaning between the lines
We fall victim and start our book that redefines
Forever altering the word of another
Until eventually their voice we smother
lost somewhere in translation
We all start to insinuate and assume
We pull ourselves into the same doom
Misleading the words of another
How could you do this to your brother
We all deserve our chance at what we must say
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 3:27 PM UTC
Whenever my eyes are closed I feel as though nothing else is around
I sink in through the hole of the white rabbit
No I'll never admit this to be a habit
There is no shame in finding a way to escape
Especially when not all the pieces can be fixed with tape
For the first time ever I have found bliss in my soul
For the first time ever I found the thoughts to make myself whole
I have sunk through the fields of sand
With nothing else to stick out then this pleading hand
I will not waive my white flag even in my final moment
Even as I dig this grave deeper and deeper beneath the ground
Locked away with no escape for even a sound
This subterranean trench beneath the earth
Has brought me to start questioning my worth
If nobody ever seems to come my way
If nobody ever seems to want to save the day
I will not fear the countdown to doom
I will not submit to the shroud of gloom
I have been here before I know I could do it again
I'll close my eyes and for the moment I pretend
For so long I have looked around and found so many seats to fill
The doctors have told me to take their little pill
To situate the demons restlessly residing on my mind
But I just don't want to end up that way
Not another over night hospital stay
For you to tell me how you know my thoughts better then me
I can find a way on my own and you will eventually see
That hour glass has never been a friend of mine
I've always seemed to face this struggle with time
Overwhelmed with the stress of seeking the sublime
Wondering just how much longer it may take
If nobody ever seems to come my way
If nobody ever seems to want to save the day
I will not fear the countdown to doom
I will not submit to the shroud of gloom
I have been here before I know I could do it again
I'll close my eyes and for the moment I pretend
In the final moment when all seems it will surly fail
From this coffin you'll take out every nail
I'll emerge from the cloud of smoke
A phoenix with words still left to be spoke
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 3:24 PM UTC
Right now I am not so sure that I really even know
The way that the surface may actually appear
The roads ahead may bend and break
Shifting me off of my course to parts unknown
For the time that I have I'll just sit back and try to enjoy this ride
Never really necessarily seeking a place to reside
Just living the moments trying to make the best of each situation
I have packed and locked away all of these emotional bags that I have
Taken the mental cobwebs right out of my mind
Left shattered little pieces of the past behind
Set out so desperately seeking the path to another life
Though at times the road may leave you feeling so alone
I know the truth, that there is always more room to be grown
I know the truth, that these roads can take you anywhere
At times I will admit I feel as though I have gone and lost my way
The fog settles and beguines to touch the ground
darkness falls and beguines to spread all around
Still with my will I will take this journey one step after another
Never letting go of hope with each new back slide
I'll light up the way with a box of matches and tank of gas
A line made of fire my demons could never pass
I have felt it from the time that I first set out
I've just never been the one to shout
I always find them crawling right at my back
Climbing out of the corners preparing for any chance of an attack
The second that I let my guard down
They will take me to the bottom left to drown
Set behind in a self destructive way
Honestly this is no place for me to play
I will not let it draw me back in
I would not even know where to beguine
I hold no resentment for the past
even though I'd love it if the moments would last
But there is no need to look back in shame
There is nowhere to place any of the blame
What a beautiful memory now that we have
I'll have expression painted across my face
It is not safe the ways that I think
Crossing off existence with the flutter of every blink
I have made this life what it has come to be
I am so sorry that sooner I could not see
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 3:20 PM UTC
Come and take a walk with me if you will
But I'll warn you I'll never stop at the sight of a hill
Some days there may be mountains to climb
I'll continue to make my way
Until I find my self at the highest reach of the sky
If I told you I don't feel the same faced with each task it would be a lie
You know I have seen the cause and result of your scars
Every chance I get I try to wash it all away with wishes on all the stars
I'll set myself on fire and shoot across the midnight sky
Just for a chance to bring back your hope
I swear I'd do everything that I can to become your shooting star
Though at times I may need to send myself to distances so far
To make it so much better whenever I bring myself back down to earth
Just know this everything that I do is a product of these thoughts of you
When I was left desolate and all alone
Feeling the feeling as hope begun to escape
Lost as darkness begun to drape
That is when I found exactly where I belong
Living my life manifesting the meanings between these lines of each song
The only place ever where I felt there could be no wrong
Weather I am alone or manage to make my way with you
I'll find a way to heights brand new
Never leaving you behind along the way
Ill always give you the choice to go or to stay
With bare hands worked to the bone
Brick by brick I'll find a way to construct this home
Four walls that will all come to meet
With a spirit that could never claim defeat
Filled or empty some way I'll just know exactly how
To go on about my days
But I'd be lying if I said you'd never cross my mind
You are the source my happiness can find
No matter what the world brings my way
As the years beguine to progress
And everything we remembers beguines to suddenly change
I'll make sure to keep a copy so you will never become somebody so strange
I simply could not ever dare to beguine to let you go
With all the stories and events we have come to know
I wouldn't or even couldn't turn my back on you
I'd do everything to lift you up off the ground
Even when my pride is nowhere to be found
I will fill this rocket with the richest of fuel
Aim it at the sky destination outer space
If it can not be found here I'll search every reach of that place
For the key to lock away the secrets of Pandora's box
If I can not find it I'll break off all of the locks
Unleash this devastating state that I've been left in
Wondering when the end of the world would finally beguine
I cant even manage to stand up anymore
An outcast on the sides of the lines that you drew
Silenced with out a voice left to intervene
These thoughts I need to say may be viewed as so obscene
I only ever wanted to do what was best for you
Every vision I've ever dreamed was to bright you to a higher places
I want to take you beyond the expanse of the highest space
Come and take a walk with me if you will
But I'll warn you I'll never stop at the sight of a hill
Some days there may be mountains to climb
I'll continue to make my way
Until I find my self at the highest reach of the sky
If I told you I don't feel the same faced with each task it would be a lie
Just know never to be afraid to ask me for a hand
I'll always do everything to make sure you can stand
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 3:16 PM UTC