stephanie-niccole
American
Just a girl, living life trying to reach my full potential. / Also worth noting I did not write the awesome that is in my cover photo. I stole it from @KeltieKnight from her "Tape this to your fridge: Weekend Edition", 09 Jun 2012. I "tape" it everywhere. / Love.
Let this cigarette in my hand
make up for all the conversations
in which I will never partake.
You drain the energy from within.
I would love to be involved,
but you expect too much.
Please understand it's just not,
it's just not who I am.
You would rather party and go out,
paint the town red and orange,
but me, I'd rather stay in alone.
I turn myself black and blue
trying so hard to make myself,
make myself perfect for you.
Do you understand the struggles,
The struggles that I go thru?
Take me as I am, my dearest love,
or you'll have to watch me go
hard as it would be for this heart
the voices inside my head
just cannot take the pressure anymore.
Please don't make this our farewell
so won't you please, please take me as I am
Let's make this last forever
Sep 9, 2013
Sep 9, 2013 at 10:54 PM UTC
As I sit here in the dark
with this blade so very sharp
Only one thought wanders inside
As I contemplate and cry
This blade is my release
It stifles the pain
this is hidden inside
beneath this joyful facade
Deep within myself
I harbor a pool,
A pool of hatred and pain
A place seldomly visited,
Although it is so familiar
It pains me more each time I visit
Opening wounds much deeper than any laceration
This blade,
This friend of mine,
Helps calm the pain inside
The blood that will surface,
Each drop that is lost,
Resembles the pain pouring out
My blood is my pain;
This blade is my friend
This act of self-destruction
Is quite the contrary
This is my cure,
My remedy for the pain
As I sit here in the dark
with this blade so very sharp
This object so perilous
Is really no threat to me
Sep 9, 2013
Sep 9, 2013 at 10:46 PM UTC