I am your poet
when you need a light to shine through thr dark, clouded curtains
that you call your mind.
I cannot give you the sun or the moon,
I cannot offer you a thousand rings.
But I would write you endless amounts of sonnets
until you drown in my poetry.
My words will be yours,
Every letter will be written for you.
These lines will be your constant reminder
that you will always be enough.
But, it seems like you will read
but you will never know
that these poems that tore my skin
was all made for you.
This is all for you.
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 4:28 AM UTC
I could stare into his eyes for hours.
"How funny it is," I thought as I stared into this boy's eyes.
He was once mine, but it wasn't until a year after that I noted how inviting and drawing they were, and with one gaze, it was as if I was hooked all over again.
But he was no longer mine.
His lips. His scent. The scar on his brow.
I memorized it all.
But he was no longer mine.
Walking into his room was so foreign yet so familiar.
The posters scattered on the wall,
The corners of his mouth and the way he pressed his lips against mine. They weren't mine.
But he was no longer mine.
And I loved this boy.
I didn't love him when I could call him mine.
Now, I do.
I love the way he loses himself into a song,
the way he draws his fingers against every inch of me,
the way he's so closed off,
the way he can make me feel the way I do,
But he is no longer mine.
Sep 17, 2015
Sep 17, 2015 at 12:58 AM UTC
My bones ache at 3am.
I glance at my phone,
Silently waiting for
The screen to illuminate.
I miss you,
But you'll never know.
I am at battle with myself.
Should I tell you or not?
You see,
To you, I'm just another
Friend.
But I say more.
Any sign from you
And I will crawl back
Into your gaze.
God, how I miss you.
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 6:30 PM UTC
feeling broken is
looking at everything
you wish you could want
to do and realizing
you are not good
enough
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 4:21 AM UTC
Silence
is
Bad
Because
then
I
have
time
to
think
about
how
I
am
not
good
enough
About
how
I
am
unwanted
In
the
silence
is
when
my
thoughts
are
loudest
when
my
monsters
decide
to
come
out
And
with
silence
comes
violence
(a.d)
May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 2:58 AM UTC
I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]
are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]
can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]
I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]
that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]
when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]
I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]
it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]
one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]
I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]
why are your words stuck in my head [delete]
I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]
it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]
my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]
the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]
May 18, 2014
May 18, 2014 at 9:25 PM UTC
Happiness left a mark.
He sliced through my thick skin,
And the scars still remain.
Happiness was forgotten.
He was set aside,
Dust suffocating his very existence.
Happiness was fragile.
I tightly grasped Happiness’ hands,
And I watched him unravel mine and slip away.
Happiness was strong.
I thought I could take advantage,
But he was the one with his hands around my neck.
Happiness was a friend.
I came to know him inside and out,
And I looked forward to his embrace.
Happiness was an enemy.
He taunted me in ways I was unaware
And watched me collapse.
Now, I am left without Happiness, and I crave him.
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 4:34 AM UTC
Write me the words
The words of your soul
Show me your heart
Blistered and broken
Sing me the melody
Of your deep and tragic past
Read to me
The emotions that are too hard to express
Try to make me understand
The things you've gone through,
Witnessed,
Relived a hundred thousand times
Then I will know
The depths of your being
And put the pieces back in place
So you can finally be whole again.
Apr 15, 2014
Apr 15, 2014 at 12:24 AM UTC
Small talk, playful banter
Is this flirting?
Gentle touches, eye gazing
Is this intimacy?
Quick glances, endless chasing
Is this serious?
Truth is
I don't know
But I catch myself slightly smiling because of you.
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 1:30 AM UTC
Faint is the word "body"
In this little white box.
Faint are the slices
Across my wrist.
Faint are the scars
Left by my unforgiving choices.
Faint are the thoughts
That made me do it.
Faint, they are,
But not me.
I am not faint.
I am strong.
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 7, 2014 at 1:23 AM UTC