Naked embrace
Entwined, as one
Two hearts, beating in time
One ,rhythm
Apr 3, 2013
Apr 3, 2013 at 3:55 AM UTC
Sense of humour, elevating our spirits
Musing over the simple things in life, rejoicing at what we find
Imagination stimulated, childlike, seeing the wonders in life
Light heartedness, laughing at one’s self!
Everything as it is meant to be, smiling, enjoying, the gift of life
Apr 3, 2013
Apr 3, 2013 at 3:52 AM UTC
An angel, cradles me, in her motherly arms
I have fallen, I am venerable
I told myself, I would not do this, no more
I have failed to keep my promise, to you
I have not stayed true
Tears flowing, as I smile, just, for you!
Remembering the times, when you cupped my face, in your hands
Your blue eyes, gazing into mine
Telling me with sincerity
‘I am the sunshine, that lights up your world, each day that dawns’
My heart aches, it rains with love, having fond memories of us
Wash me clean, being human, is challenging me!
Emotional ******* creating blocks
I need to move on, you are dead and buried
Your time here, over
My heart struggling, accepting this reality
“Forgive me”
I pray to be free!
“I Love you, my beloved friend”
Apr 2, 2013
Apr 2, 2013 at 5:26 AM UTC
Inside my heart
Over flowing
A sea of love
My spirit free
Love taking lead
My inner consciousness, awakening
Inner realisations, coming to light
Experiencing the wonders of our universe
Discovering who I am
In the spirit of love
Apr 2, 2013
Apr 2, 2013 at 5:13 AM UTC
I still love you
Buried six foot under
Life no more
Risking my heart
Everything I have ever known
Letting you go
18 years
Of panache & tears
‘Loyalty’
Because
‘I Still Love You’
At a cross roads
Changes of initiation
Giving in
Risking all
Trading this pain in
Making my heart whole
Know
By saying goodbye
And letting you go
Know for an eternity
‘I Still Love You’
Feb 23, 2013
Feb 23, 2013 at 4:07 AM UTC
Why is it
I am always wrong?
Something
I have always done?
Why is it
I am
Never good enough
In your eyes
In
Challenging times?
How many times
Do I have to say
“I love You?”
What will it take
To convince
That mind
And
Heart
Of yours?
What can I say
That will ease
This jealousy
And
Resentment
You feel towards me
When drinking
Too much *****
Killing what brain cells
Are left
In that stubborn
Head of yours!
How long
Will it take
For you
To believe in me?
For I know
I am a fool
Staying here, with you!
Feeling desperate
Lost and lonely
Dreams squashed
Emotionally drained
When ‘we’ need to pull together
In union ship
To make
This bond strong
Between us!
'Uniting as One’'
'Love Conquering All'
“Well!”
“So, I am told!”
I love you more
Than this
Arguing and fighting!
But
You refuse to understand
The love I have for you
My head
Tells me to stay with you
But
My heart knows
I cannot!
For
I have asked you
To be kind to me
I have asked
You to open up
Your anger and rage
Continues growing
Out of control
Taking over
Like
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
Burning bridges
Being ruthless
Always
Out for the ****
I need to break away!
I need to clear my head!
I need to experience
Love and longevity
True togetherness
With
The one’s I love!
My heart needs to experience
‘Healthy Love’
My heart deserves the best!
You now
Belong in my past
I am no longer the person
You once knew me to be!
Your insecurities
Your inner demons
Far bigger
Than any of the love
You choose to acknowledge
Or
Feel from me!
You can believe this
To be true
If nothing else!
“Love thy self”
Share
Without personal gain
Being
Your Primary Motive!
Know Love
Be Love
In Action!
Be honest
Have empathy now
As
I cut these cords
Of emotional *******
That
Bind us together
True Love
No longer
Our foundation!
I stand on my own
Knowing
I have learnt the lessons
You have come to teach
I now know
What love isn't!
“I thank you”
For showing me this!
My illusions of love
Blinding me
Colouring my experiences
Revealing
Only what
'I Wanted Us To Be'
Not
‘True Reality’
Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 12:40 AM UTC
Burning up
Torn apart
“I have had enough!”
Jaded
By your words & thoughts
Deepest
Darkest
Parts of my heart
Drowning
In my own tears and sorrow
“What have you done to me?”
“I can’t function anymore!”
Messed Up Love!
Feb 16, 2013
Feb 16, 2013 at 3:11 AM UTC
Nobody
Knows my real name
‘Angel’
Is what I go by
I am freezing cold
I don’t have money
Just
The clothes on my back
I am a walking wardrobe
I am lonely
I smell like crap
I am starving hungry
I can’t find any shelter
My clothes are drenched
I look like a drowned rat!
Violence
Upon women
Is classed normal
Around here!
I wonder...
If
I will survive
Another day?
Only
To wake up
And
Do this
All over, again!
“Protect me Father"
"Let no harm come to me
As
I lay my head to rest”
“I love you, dear God”
“Goodnight”
Feb 16, 2013
Feb 16, 2013 at 2:50 AM UTC
I cannot get into heaven
God I have tried!
Suicide is a double edge sword
Especially
When you survive!
Walking the streets at night
Dazed and confused
Longing to be loved
Wondering...
When is Mum
Coming for me?
"Does she still love me?"
"Does she still care?"
"Does she still think of me?"
"Does she wonder
Where I am?"
I want her to come find me
I want her to say
She 'loves me’
I want her to comfort me
I want her to take me home
And
Keep me safe
And not forget
That I exist
Like the way
She treats me now
I wish God
Could make my Mum
Magically appear
Making this hellish nightmare
On the street
Disappear!
“Send my Mum please!”
So
All this can end!
Before
This last ray of hope
Diminishes
For good!
I don’t want
To become
The walking dead
Forever forgotten
As if
I was never born!
For this
Is the cruel harsh reality
Of living life
Feeling unloved
Uncared for
Abandoned
Left
To fend for my own
A dangerous killer
Inside me
Eating away
At my soul
Something
No one
Can see
As
I suffer in silence
My insides crippling!
Lost
Alone
And frightened
Weeping
On a *****
Graffiti park bench
***** tears
Rolling down my cheeks
Stuffing newspapers under my jumper
To keep myself warm
“What am I going to do?”
“Will I make it through the night?”
“Will I get ***** and beaten?”
"Will I be left for dead?”
“Will I survive
To see another day?
“Is my life worth living?”
Please God
I beg of you
Have mercy now
Please
Show me the way!
Feb 16, 2013
Feb 16, 2013 at 2:35 AM UTC
Cold case lover
How I loved you so!
You always mattered
But,
You
Never
Believed me!
You were my every desire
You were everything to me!
Looking through your eyes
Jaded with jealousy and envy
You laid your hands upon me
Acting out
Your emotional
And
Bitter pain
“Why were you so mean spirited”?
“Who messed with your mind”?
“How can you kneel before me, now?”
Pleading me
To forgive you
As
You bawl, your eyes out
Your relentless begging
Over and over
You
Keep playing mind games, with me!
Begging me for mercy
To come back,
One,
Last
Time
With my swollen eyes,
Broken bones,
Twisted up, insides
My heart is torn!
“Are you a dead man walking”?
“Do you not ‘feel’ no more”?
“Will I get to see tomorrow’s sunrise”?
If,
I stay another day
With you
Playing Russian roulette with my life
I am terrified, I am petrified!
My eyes are blind,
My heart too forgiving!
But,
I am not leaving
“Will I become a cold case ****** one day?"
I wonder...
At the hands of my own stupidity!
“What will you do on that day, dear lover?"
“Will you lie and be deceitful?"
“Will you hide things?"
Just like
You did, from me!
Will you ‘vow’ devotedly
You did it
All
In the name of ‘Love?'
"Will you brag about,
Your ‘bitter sweet victory?"
Open wounds,
Bleeding soul
Release me free
From this man’s betrayal!
Feb 16, 2013
Feb 16, 2013 at 2:31 AM UTC