Nighttime
I shamefully cut pieces of bread
With quick, precise slices, some panicked
The night seems calm and still,
And the dog runs to my side; waiting.
Mother told me not to feed him
He was properly fed
But he looked like he really wanted a slice
So I gave him one
Fully knowing next time he'll want more
Nights come & go and I'm downstairs
It's a habit now that doesn't phase me
Slicing pieces of bread oh so quickly
More and more every night
As even the dog wants more
I forgot the moment when I gave in
When instead of letting my dog whine
I would continuously feed him more
Without even noticing
He'd eaten the whole loaf
The night stands still
The knife naught but my curiosity
The bread but the canvas it plays on
The dog is the constant greed of sin
And this cycle continues
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 11:06 PM UTC
Salamat sa iyo
Sa iyong mga salitang nagbibigay ginhawa
Sa utak na pagod
Sa iyong mga brasong tila pinoprotektahan ako
Sa kahit anong sakit
Salamat sa iyong pangagalaga
Para sa isang baliw tulad ko
Salamat sa iyong pagbigay-ginhawa
Para sa ‘di matahimik na ingay ng aking kaluluwa
Itong buong linggo ako’y biniktima.
Biniktima ng mamamatay-tulog na kriminal.
Ngayon, dahil sayo
‘Di pa rin ako makakatulog sa mga gabing lumilipas.
Ngunit guminhawa ang aking isipan,
At nanahimik ang mga boses na nagbibigay-sakit dito.
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 11:47 AM UTC
It feels like every color
In every image
In every memory in my mind
It feels like they’ve lost saturation
Like lights don’t shine as bright
Stars don’t twinkle as much
Rain clouds constantly on the rise
With deafening silence
In a small crowd
Each word slowly getting duller
It still stabs me
But the blades of each word
Now takes more
Force
Force to cut through skin
Force to cut through thoughts
Force to paint in more color
Into the faded pictures
Phantasmagoric visions
Of archaic, but mesmerising thoughts
A constant metamorphosis
Transformation, not always evolution
Devolution still metamorphosis
As each synapse
Each word
Each thought
Each feeling
Each day
Each hour
Each minute
Each second
Loses that spark it once had
So I sit here
Printing pictures from my polaroid
Cutting out the faded parts
Realizing I was cutting the whole thing all along
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 11:44 AM UTC