I love you so quietly.
Like a wound
no one can see.
You send me pictures
of jokes
of friends
of your life
and I sit there
pretending like my heart
isn’t tearing itself apart
inside my chest.
You'll never know.
How badly I want you.
How badly I would love you.
How I would hold every broken part of you
like it was sacred.
I would choose you
every single time.
But I can’t even tell you that.
Because you could never love me back.
Because God himself
already decided
that you could never be mine.
And yet
I still love you.
Quietly.
Pathetically.
Endlessly.
I love you so much
it makes me angry at my own face.
At my body.
At the sound of my own name.
Because how could someone like you
ever look at someone like me
and feel anything at all?
You're like sunlight.
Radiating light
from that beautiful smile of yours.
And I hide from my own shadow.
You are so beautiful
without even trying.
Without even knowing.
And I am standing here
waiting for something
that is never going to come.
Wanting something
that was never meant for me.
And that's the cruelest part.
Not the fact that
I love you.
But the fact that
I always will.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 3:02 PM UTC
I see pieces of you.
In her eyes
And in her smile.
I hear pieces you.
In her laugh
And in her voice.
I catch pieces of you.
In the look in her eyes
when she looks at me.
Even in the streets
I find pieces of you.
In the faces of people
That I'll never see again.
You're like a puzzle.
Pieces of you everywhere
But never the whole picture.
You aren’t her.
And she isn’t you.
But you
Don't exist.
Except as pieces in my head
That I keep mistaking
For something that's true.
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 1:51 PM UTC
Talking in my sleep
It's terrifying me
I'm tortured every night
I'm frozen in my dreams
I built this wall so I
Could keep my pain inside
But it takes over me
I'm talking in my sleep
Feb 16
Feb 16, 2026 at 4:52 PM UTC
Heavy as a boulder
My body sits on this chair
My head
My shoulders
My eyes
My heart.
They're so heavy
I cant bear it.
Let my bones crack
Let them crumble and shatter
Under this pain
Because I cant take it anymore
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 3:38 PM UTC
I don't sleep to rest
I sleep to dream
and somehow
every dream
leads to me back to her
Jan 19
Jan 19, 2026 at 3:11 PM UTC
Even though
The leaves have lost their colors
And have fallen
And the snow has come
The leaves will always grow back
They will turn their colors agan
And will be just as beautiful
As the year before
There's always next year
See you next year.
Jan 4
Jan 4, 2026 at 5:23 PM UTC
I am a compass spinning
Being pulled towards a north
that wears her name
But I dont know what it is
And I dont know where she is
Dec 19, 2025
Dec 19, 2025 at 11:17 PM UTC
Roses are red
The sun is shining
my mental health
is rapidly declining
Dec 19, 2025
Dec 19, 2025 at 11:12 PM UTC
There were doors
I wished would stay open.
There were warm hands
I wished would hold mine.
But every one
Was like a passing season.
A summer that promised
But only turned to snow.
I longed for her approval.
I prayed for permanence in her eyes.
But each goodbye.
Carved another hole.
Into my heart.
A quiet echo.
Where love should be.
Dec 13, 2025
Dec 13, 2025 at 4:53 PM UTC
Life is longer when you're lonely.
But its shorter when you're not.
So which do we choose?
A long road
With no one beside us.
Or a short one
With the ones we love the most.
Maybe it doesnt matter.
The road ends either way.
And no one cares.
How far we walked.
Or who held our hand.
Dec 12, 2025
Dec 12, 2025 at 11:28 PM UTC