Failure may seem to be a demon latched onto your soul
but fear not for his hold is weak
For he knows you are destined for more
You were born to be the best
and that soon enough
You will step on failure's ugly head
and move up with no fear
Your love pushing you to be the better
Until soon you become the Jack Sparrow of the seas
but hopefully without the thieving
A Captain with a course of his own
You are destined for better
Let no one tell you different
The demons will fail their goals
To break you down
For I know one day you'll reach yours
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 9:31 AM UTC
And I love you
Everyday
Even when the floods wash away humanity
I will love you
When the air turns poisonous and steals it from our lungs
You will still take away my breath
When the grounds open up and eat all the vanity we created
Your beauty will shine bright as the only thing that ever mattered
When the cruel fires turn to ash all emotion and care
Your touch will reignite my own unwavering love for you
When darkness will turn out the individuality of our souls
Yours will break apart and merge with my own
Pumping back the memories I almost forgot
I love you till the end of time
And till the universe rips itself apart
I love you when new life slowly sparks up
Atoms joining in a billion year pilgrimage
Till we finally find our bodies and reattach our souls
Strengthen the bond
And our love will revive the unbroken promise
And live on infinitely
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 9:31 AM UTC
So here it goes
When I told you that I loved you,
I meant it... and maybe I still do?
I search for you in every boy I see
And I came to an understanding of what your type could be
Light eyes with a constant smile and a positive air
The kind of guy that could hug with no care
The kind of guy you could talk to with ease
And whose words are warm and soft like breeze
And that’s the trick
The booby-trap on which you trip
Curse you and that type of yours
That blinded me for years
Curse myself and my heart for falling too easy
I should’ve gave up and not be so greedy
Maybe then I would’ve seen the imperfection of your kind
And change the course of my mind
I wish that I could thank you
But it means a conversation and... that takes two
Oh, don’t worry, I know you’re too busy to spend your time on me
A hopeless girl like me can’t talk with you, and I agree
Honestly, I get it
And I’m glad we split
‘Cause you and me... we don’t fit
Although I saw a lot of things we share the same
But maybe it was only in my eyes... ‘cause I had a flame
You were sparkless when all I wanted was to burn
You shut my brain and I thought with that I’d learn
It’s not your fault, it’s all on me
I’m to blame for keeping my dreamless fantasy
You did nothing wrong
I just shouldn’t’ve kept pushing aimlesslly this long
I guess, maybe I scared you with being too honest
Maybe I’m the reason that you broke your promise
I’m sorry I tried to hold ‘nd tie you up
I’m sorry I followed you when you wanted to break up
So, can I let go of you now?
Because s-o-m-e-h-o-w
You’re still caught up in my heart
And I keep wishing my memories could restart
So that I can pretend
That it never started, that it began with an end
So, can I forget the numbers of your phone?
Can I, please, forget that time we spent alone?
I wish I could forget your name
I wish I could forget the person I became
I wish you and I... were never friends
Because,
why let it start, when you know it ends?
I understand that we’ve lost... whatever it was that we once had
We were, as it goes, ‘slowly but surely’, falling apart
So here it goes
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 7:11 AM UTC
With promises to spend our lives together,
Hand in hand we decided to walk
And share each smile, divide the pain
Oh my love, how horribly we have strayed
On separate paths we now walk,
Miles away from each other we are
I see you and yet we are far apart
I know I have hurt you
And seen the pain your eyes
oh how much it hurt me to know
That I was the reason
To right the wrongs I have done
To get back the love I have lost
I need to walk miles, but hon for you
I will
I remember the time in our youth
When we sang and danced together
And that lovely smile would grace you
Which made everything okay
I remember the days we'd walk around
The hills and the valleys, discovering us
With you close to me, the sun never ceased
I'd climb the tallest mountain and
Cross the harshest sea,
Just so you could be with me
I miss that, spending time with you
So busy with work we get that we forget
Living this life to its fullest
And now as I take my last breath,
I see all the times I spent with you
And what more could have been
Alas not in this lifetime.
I wish we could be happy again
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 6:30 AM UTC
You make me hate you.
Despise you.
All I want is for everything
To be over between us
Like you never existed.
Like WE never existed.
Your existence joined with
Mine is a crime.
I want to separate the two
Making sure they never
Join. Ever.
You've poisoned us,
Your thoughts have maligned me
Making me the bad guy.
But if walking away from you
Makes me one, I will be
I never wanted to hate you
Even when you were on
The path to destroy us
But I've had enough
Of all the name calling and
the baseless acquisition
The lack of trust
I want to wipe those
Memories.
The time we spent together
The laughter we shared
I want to **** the love
I had for you.
All that I did for you
Negated by the words you said
They say hatred is not
The opposite of love,
but indifference is
But the passionate the
Love is, the harsher the
Hate would be.
You've ignited a fire
Inside me, fire that won't
Be put out
You've made me hate you
And I'm glad about that
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 2:47 PM UTC
Would you love me if my skin was beautiful
a perfect porcelain
without scars marring my skin?
Would you love me if i had full lips
the delicate kind
that kissed roses everday?
Would you love me if i had a straight nose
a feminine one
that looked perfect from every angle?
Would you love me if i had doe shaped eyes
an innocent pair
that showed my inner purity?
Would you love me if i had an unbroken heart
like those of newborns
trusting and joyful every passing second?
Would you love me if i had a clean soul
white as the first fall of snow
never to have known of darkness and unimagninable hurts?
Would you love me if i had a muscial laughter
like gentle gurgles of a stream
never a note out of place in its symphony?
Would you love me if i spoke in soft tones
never to utter a curse
with diplomacy ruling my tongue?
Would you love me if i was this check list
of what others considered beauty
seemingly the ideal whose hand a task to win?
If you could love me as this
erase meat once from the chambers of your mind
leave no trace of my presence visible
i would be sure to disappoint your wishes and dreams
you held on high pedestals
For i am riddled with battlescars
and my words would only voice my honest opinions
my body breaking the mould of ideal perfection
my heart a shattered vase taped together
my soul steeped in darkness yet riddled with wells of dreams
If you could love my imperfections
If you could love my soul
then you and i could possibly be together
as imperfection but never alone.
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 10:34 AM UTC
Today,
I swallowed down
my newest shade of lipstick,
in hopes
of bringing some colour
back to my soul again.
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 10:34 AM UTC
Imagine not having to
feel pain anymore,
imagine not having to
be afraid anymore
imagine not having to
live in fear anymore
Imagine making that
first cut, a slash
and your ruby red stain
that creamy skin
Imagine red rivulets flow
around you, small channels
creating art around you
Imagine your heart beat
faster than it ever has
trying to save your pathetic
life, the very liquid that saves you
Imagine being free
not having to conform
to not ever feel, move or see
ever again.
Imagine an eternal sleep
where everything is alright
your demons don't exist
no sign of your nightmares
a place where heartbreak
doesn't exist.
Just imagine.
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 4:53 AM UTC
Stand there and watch
Just do.
Stand and watch me
Break down
Watch me scream and shout
And not hear a thing
Stand and watch me
Claw at my skin till it gets red
Like a crazed being
Trying to find some solace
Stand and watch me
Run around in circles
Same path over and over again
Trying to make sense
Stand and watch me
Cry, like I never have
With tears of blood
Rolling down my eyes
Stand and watch me
Become a shell of myself
Someone I vowed I wouldn't be
Someone who I've come to despise
Stand and watch me
Destroy. Destruct. Anhiliate.
Myself
Just stand and watch.
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 4:50 AM UTC
3.00 am
Just before the sun rose
She doesnt remember if the sun set,even
Time was moving at the pace of clotted blood.
Hardly moving. Not moving.
She folded her hands behind her back.
Touched her indexes and stood.
She was stuck in the gilded cage
That her mind had spun.
She was free otherwise.
Rather, she felt a rush.
But there was something stopping her from moving an inch.
So she stood there.
Her cage. And her.
While the little droplets of sweat, and liquid dropped onto the back of her dress.
Small red flowers on a cream colour
What was done, was done
A lonely soul, in a dark night.
The big day was yet to come.
Choosing to bear the consequence
She stepped back into the crimson war zone
An organised chaos.
A sizzle. A splutter. A crack.
She sat next to her masterpiece.
A smooth stream had leaked.
'So much to clean up' she thought.
But nothing could match the high she was on now.
6am
The shop bell chimed
And she woke up,
The stream had covered her
Her visitor walked in and stared.
At the blur of human, red and knives.
'The buns are perfect Macy! '
'Are they? Well now I just need to fill them in with the jam.'
It was business as usual.
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 4:37 AM UTC