sophie-elizabeth-bishop

i don't know how i felt this way, i don't know why i feel this way, but girl, you're dull, somedays - oh girl, act out, somedays waiting for something different, i pace up and down temptation is so strong, somedays these days, only today

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Feb 14, 2016

Feb 14, 2016 at 6:50 PM UTC

today

i don't know how i felt this way, i don't know why i feel this way, but girl, you're dull, somedays - oh girl, act out, somedays waiting for something different, i pace up and down temptation is so strong, somedays these days, only today

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god, i didn’t mean for it to be so easy i didn’t mean to die quite like that just wanna cover you in anything just wanna hold you in darkness just wanna be the one you know?

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Feb 13, 2016

Feb 13, 2016 at 8:16 PM UTC

dreaming of you

god, i didn’t mean for it to be so easy i didn’t mean to die quite like that just wanna cover you in anything just wanna hold you in darkness just wanna be the one you know?

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ah god **** she's working for me got her on the couch now her head between my thighs i swear don't move i just shake and shake for you ******* i love my job only somedays days like this

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Feb 7, 2016

Feb 7, 2016 at 5:53 PM UTC

days like this

ah god **** she's working for me got her on the couch now her head between my thighs i swear don't move i just shake and shake for you ******* i love my job only somedays days like this

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every bottle takes me nearer every drink helps me breathe give me confidence tonight, tomorrow could lead anywhere god - take me away i want your silent revolutionary care i want to be held by you tonight

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Feb 7, 2016

Feb 7, 2016 at 5:52 PM UTC

drown in wine

every bottle takes me nearer every drink helps me breathe give me confidence tonight, tomorrow could lead anywhere god - take me away i want your silent revolutionary care i want to be held by you tonight

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the more I tried to fix things; the more they’d shatter - i kept running from something away from myself to let go would be to fall into submission, retribution to admit what i feel would be too much - vulnerability left behind i’m not like her now it’s quiet - no heartbreak, drama or fights the worlds spins silently now she’s been left behind.

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Feb 1, 2016

Feb 1, 2016 at 5:24 PM UTC

Running

the more I tried to fix things; the more they’d shatter - i kept running from something away from myself to let go would be to fall into submission, retribution to admit what i feel would be too much - vulnerability left behind i’m not like her now it’s quiet - no heartbreak, drama or fights the worlds spins silently now she’s been left behind.

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a number of times the bell tolls for who we are and what we became - you're the placid glimpse into my future I hold onto like an ink-less pen. tell me you need me, if you have the heart to. still, i wait - i pace. needing to know the right way to look, the right way to think. a backstreet stranger tells me you're gone but i don't listen, a flickering streetlight tells me I'm lonely and a patter of rain beckons me inside - but the sign of the lighthouse, tells me you still could be mine. dashing down the coastline, like a bitter dog in the flickering damp. drinking all I fathom to stay in grace. not a single word could revive you now. I stay silent. i let the waves embrace me with a withering sadness, as on my knees, i fall into the sea. the damp sand caresses my feet as they sink into sanctuary - I cower, praying to the moonlight you would come home.

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Feb 1, 2016

Feb 1, 2016 at 2:06 PM UTC

The Beach

a number of times the bell tolls for who we are and what we became - you're the placid glimpse into my future I hold onto like an ink-less pen. tell me you need me, if you have the heart to. still, i wait - i pace. needing to know the right way to look, the right way to think. a backstreet stranger tells me you're gone but i don't listen, a flickering streetlight tells me I'm lonely and a patter of rain beckons me inside - but the sign of the lighthouse, tells me you still could be mine. dashing down the coastline, like a bitter dog in the flickering damp. drinking all I fathom to stay in grace. not a single word could revive you now. I stay silent. i let the waves embrace me with a withering sadness, as on my knees, i fall into the sea. the damp sand caresses my feet as they sink into sanctuary - I cower, praying to the moonlight you would come home.

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If I had to give a reason for why I had to make her leave me – it was easy. For a start, I couldn’t leave her. It was impossible for me – yet to push her over the edge was the easiest thing in the world, to force her to hate me so much she would never come back. Now, the reason I wanted her to leave me was obtuse, narcissistic and insane – I blamed her. It was her fault I hadn’t made a movie yet, written a book, travelled the world. It must’ve been her fault cos it sure as hell wasn’t mine. After a drink, my savoir and solace – it spiralled into my lap that way, into ease. I didn’t even have to try, for in a way the intoxicated infected brain tried to teach me what was right – what I meant and what I could never let go. The darkest corners of oblivion took over me. It happened so much more quickly than I could ever imagine. She cut me straight like a knife, like I never could. Like all the years, all the days, all the affection meant nothing. It could never have been so easy for me and the rejection that dawned was something I was untouched by – until this moment. And it hurt like a razor skimming your ankle. Like a cut to the throat. Luckily, sadness fuels something else in me. A desire I was chasing, a desire to be everything I had ever wanted. I spent so long trying to break free yet all I’m left with is sadness, isolation and regret. I want you back like nothing I’ve ever felt before.

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Dec 29, 2015

Dec 29, 2015 at 10:53 PM UTC

For Rebecca

If I had to give a reason for why I had to make her leave me – it was easy. For a start, I couldn’t leave her. It was impossible for me – yet to push her over the edge was the easiest thing in the world, to force her to hate me so much she would never come back. Now, the reason I wanted her to leave me was obtuse, narcissistic and insane – I blamed her. It was her fault I hadn’t made a movie yet, written a book, travelled the world. It must’ve been her fault cos it sure as hell wasn’t mine. After a drink, my savoir and solace – it spiralled into my lap that way, into ease. I didn’t even have to try, for in a way the intoxicated infected brain tried to teach me what was right – what I meant and what I could never let go. The darkest corners of oblivion took over me. It happened so much more quickly than I could ever imagine. She cut me straight like a knife, like I never could. Like all the years, all the days, all the affection meant nothing. It could never have been so easy for me and the rejection that dawned was something I was untouched by – until this moment. And it hurt like a razor skimming your ankle. Like a cut to the throat. Luckily, sadness fuels something else in me. A desire I was chasing, a desire to be everything I had ever wanted. I spent so long trying to break free yet all I’m left with is sadness, isolation and regret. I want you back like nothing I’ve ever felt before.

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hey i could've waited you know could've gone with you sometime hey did you really mean to let me slip away quite so easily hey you could call, you know? you could drag me back i would hey i'm still waiting how much longer now

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Dec 9, 2015

Dec 9, 2015 at 7:18 PM UTC

hey

hey i could've waited you know could've gone with you sometime hey did you really mean to let me slip away quite so easily hey you could call, you know? you could drag me back i would hey i'm still waiting how much longer now

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girl you just walked right into the room dazzled me again didn't you did you feel a thing like i did did you think the way i thought i'm going to travel to sadness soon it's the only way to rid myself of these thoughts

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Dec 9, 2015

Dec 9, 2015 at 6:52 PM UTC

work on a wednesday

girl you just walked right into the room dazzled me again didn't you did you feel a thing like i did did you think the way i thought i'm going to travel to sadness soon it's the only way to rid myself of these thoughts

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she's a dream and i am the dreamgirl all wrapped up in red she moves so quietly you couldn't tell she's afraid timid and tiny obsolete wonder in her eyes floats to my staircase in white

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Dec 8, 2015

Dec 8, 2015 at 6:12 PM UTC

snow blood

she's a dream and i am the dreamgirl all wrapped up in red she moves so quietly you couldn't tell she's afraid timid and tiny obsolete wonder in her eyes floats to my staircase in white

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