I still remember color of your eyes,
and I do not think that you've remembered the color of mine.
I remember what your voice and heartbeat sounded like,
and I always dream of hearing them both one more time.
everyday, I hope you will call once more,
saying that you love me, the way I do.
I think its time I stop loving you.
Jun 19, 2015
Jun 19, 2015 at 1:56 AM UTC
I wish I had a photographic memory so I could remember everything you said to me, you say you don't **** with anyone else but remember the time when you couldn't say it yourself? I can see through your lies, when you're standing my her side, you look at her like you're hypnotized and I can see it in your eyes.
I wish I didn't care about where you are or who you're with because no mater what it always comes to this. we fight and forgive but the bad memories stand out more, you think you're so strong while I'm laying broken on the floor. I hope you know you get less closer to the so called heaven each time you use your fists as a weapon.
Jun 19, 2015
Jun 19, 2015 at 1:38 AM UTC
You say you're not worth it all
You say you're not worth caring for
Help me see what you see, would it be diamonds or debris?
If I were to live inside your bones, would I be strong or broken? Thoughtful or carefree?
Help me see what you see, because to me, there is only beauty.
Your mind is a time bomb, getting ready to blow. The seconds are ticking, you don't think anyone knows. The things once said to you are all coming back, the urge is getting stronger and your thoughts are becoming black. Just listen to me as I say with no doubt, that you can win this, stop thinking and let it out. Don't listen to the demons, they never let you vent. Thats only because they know what you can prevent.
You say you're good at nothing
You say you can't see yourself old
But what's the point of living when you put your life on hold?
Try to see what I see, you'll experience a whole new world,
Where your eyes are like stars and your smile gives a whirl
Its not a fantasy so believe me that when I say your perfection is the reality
But Your mind is a time bomb, getting ready to blow. The seconds are ticking, you don't think anyone knows. The things once said to you are all coming back, the urge is getting stronger and your thoughts are becoming black. Just listen to me as I say with no doubt, that you can win this, stop thinking and let it out. Don't listen to the demons, they never let you vent. Thats only because they know what you can prevent.
I don't understand when you say how you hate what you see
Because only the rich are the ones who find ugly in beauty
I know the past has left you scars but this is life and you are who you are
You have to accept all of yourself
otherwise there won't be happy times with anyone else
Only you are holding yourself back
Reopen your eyes and wipe it clear,
And give your life one hell of an attack
Because I see only diamonds, no debris. Your bones are strong and thoughtful, not care free. Let me show you what I see because all I see is only beauty.
Never give up, I know the past has left you scars, but this is life and you are who you are
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 2:34 PM UTC
After my so-called Prince Charming kissed me to life
My story ended, and no one thought twice
My life was what every girl envied
But nobody saw us behind closed doors
I was the princess and he was the prince, doesn't that sound nice?
Too bad there's no such thing as a happy ending, unless you pay the price.
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 10:55 AM UTC
There's blood on the bathtub floor again
My parents would be ashamed
It's the voices who call the shots
But my mind is always blamed
Some days I think that I might win
But then I find myself, at it again
With a hard grip and a faking smile
I close my eyes while my thoughts go wild
Tell me when the sunrise turned to darkness
Tell me when my smile started to fade
When did my eyes become so lifeless
Why do I wish to get away?
The silence is deafening
They're whispering my name
To forget one problem, is to add another pain
Mother, father, aren't you proud of me?
I made my own art, can't you see?
With the lovely redness as I bleed,
I slit my throat with sanity.
They say they want me six feet under
And sometimes I want it as well
But after all my sins, oh, I'll just end up in hell
Tell me when the sunrise turned to darkness
Tell me when my smile started to fade
When did my eyes become so lifeless
Why do I wish to get away?
The silence is deafening
They're whispering my name
To forget one problem, is to add another pain
My breathing is shallow, the walls are too thin
Inside I'm screaming, I think they might win
My vision is blurry, my heart rate is slow
No therapy can help me, I think I'm letting go
To forget one problem, is to add another pain
To forget one problem, is to add another pain
But nobody said it would end up this way
now the bathroom tile is stained,
I think I'm going insane. The lights are dimming as I watch the colors fade
But darling don't write your goodbyes
And don't count your scars
You don't have to follow what's written in the stars
Don't fall to the ground, don't let the ship sink
You might not see it now
But you're stronger than you think.
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 8:04 AM UTC
I hear your heavy footsteps stumbling across the floor again
You've got a can in one hand and a bottle of gin
Your clothes are wrinkled and your hair is a mess
Your eyes are bright red and so ******* lifeless
I would try to help you along
But I've learn from the past that it would be terribly wrong
You'd just push me away and say you're okay
And that I need to worry about how my life is today
Father father for I have sinned- I am not enough for you
Not worthy of your love, or to be anywhere close or near you
I've try to be a doll of a daughter, I've try to sew my lips
I've tried to be the child you want and read from all the scrips
But father father can't you see? The only one you have is me.
When you're mad I can feel the heat
You cuss as storm that can't be beat
Your words are knives and I'm your board
You cut so deep like it's a reward
Because of you my mind is hell
Because of you my confidence fell
One day you'll get what you deserve
Father father for I have sinned- I am not enough for you
Not worthy of your love, or to be anywhere close or near you
I've try to be a doll of a daughter, I've try to sew my lips
I've tried to be the child you want and read from all the scrips
But father father can't you see? The only one you have is me.
This is it, I've come to an ending
I'm sick of your voice and I am done pretending
You ungrateful soul I hope you crash
Maybe then you'll realize my wish at last
How hard is it to do your job
Without drinking and promise breaking?
You've broken my trust by the choices you're making.
Father father for I have sinned- is that what you want me to say?
Your screams make me apologize when things don't go your way.
Im so very sorry when I disappoint you
But father father you're the only one to look up to.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 11:31 PM UTC